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Sierra Goodman on the Dr. Elizabeth Show - Creating the Life of Your Dreams

2012-02-09T15:48:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012

2011-12-31T08:11:00.000-08:00

The Mayans say 2012 is the year
For what can be based in new beginnings or fear
Some say there’s a big shift, some say it’s the end
Some say apocalypse and others seek to ascend

No matter what you think 2012 will be
It’s time to shine, to be authentic and free
The hibernation is over, let our light be shown
Body, Mind and Spirit, this is the TRI-LIGHT ZONE

The fears coming up have some people frightened
But it’s only what is not of the light coming up to be en-LIGHT-ened
If we embrace all of us, even that which is dark
The LOVE that we are will light off a spark

Let’s let go of the old, the hurt, anger and blame
And get ourselves into living the joyful human game
The higher vibrations are calling us to transform
And live the higher agreements we made before being born

It's time to create and live our passion
2012 is the year of ACTION
Let go of the doubts, no need to ask why
Our fine, divine selves are ready to FLY

It’s knowing we are of the stars while having our feet on the Earth
It’s having balance in all things while creation gives birth
We see the big picture and the little picture too
We embrace that we are human and also Spirit through and through

It’s knowing beyond all else is the Law of Highest Good
This is when we KNOW everything happens just as it should
We relax into divine orchestration, we let it all go
We have faith, we have trust and go with the flow

It’s balancing and caring for our bodies, spirit and mind
It’s being loving and open, compassionate and kind
This is the new Human Blueprint that is coming to view
It’s not just for everyone else, this means you too!

Give up the old patterns, there is nothing to fight
Let's be who we are, Human Beings of Light
It's all up to us, the Shift is Within
When ONE embraces their divinity, we ALL win

The days of separation are ending, you are not on your own
We are all in this together, in the TRI-LIGHT ZONE
United we stand for balance, joy, peace and love
As above so below, as below so above

Out with the old and in with the new
A whole new year of miracles is waiting for you
We laughed and we cried, we love you 2011
And in 2012 we will bring down heaven!

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!
2012 IS HERE!!!!

My Statements of Being for 2012 - HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2011-12-30T07:57:00.000-08:00

(I wrote this for New Years 2010 and with a few tweaks, it is ready for 2012!)

Ah, New Year’s Resolutions… how many have we made… and broken over the years? This year making “resolutions” didn’t seem to resonate with me. I want to step further into the ME that my inner/higher self IS. I am becoming more of who I really am. So I decided instead to write “Statements of Being”. Statements of Who I Am and Who I Am Becoming.

I’ve done a lot of seeking. I know the teachings of many great teachers. I’ve done a lot of searching for the fundamental questions I had, like who am I and why am I here? I already know the answers. Now it’s time to not only KNOW these teachings on an intellectual level, but to BECOME them, EMBODY them, LIVE them. In every moment possible.

I write these Statements of Being not only as a statement to the Universe of Who I Really Am, but also as a reminder to myself on days that I seem to forget or find myself really bored and disconnected. Kind of like a spiritual cheat sheet. LOL. It happens to the very best of us… after all, we DID come here for the human experience. So when I find myself lost in my human experience, oblivious to my role as the Observer, temporarily forgetting why I am here and WHO I REALLY AM, I shall read my Statements of Being and remember… once again.

It is the gift I give to myself that will keep on giving, just when I need it.

When I am focused on my connection to All that Is, all these things just happen naturally, I AM BEING my higher self and I don’t have to read a list to remember how to be and who I am. But it’s when I am a little off kilter that these Statements will serve me well as reminders that beam me back up to my heart connection.

I fully believe in the power of writing things down as it sends my passionate desires and statements of being into the Ethers of the Universe and also serves to get me into the feeling/becoming place. It has always worked for me. I keep a Master List such as the one below and then create more detailed lists about various subjects that I break out from the Master List (abundance, health, relationships, homes, careers, etc.) So, I shall continue for this year of 2012, the year of the Big Shift. The year of ACTION!!

• I expect the best possible outcome. And so it is.

• Everything always works out for me.

• I am lucky, I am blessed, I am divinely guided at all times.

• I follow my own guidance; I always go with what feels best to me, no matter what others say.

• I know that divine orchestration and divine timing is always in play.

• I let go of limiting relationships and beliefs with ease.

• I came here for the human game, and I play it with joy.

• I do not depend upon other people, places, things, surroundings events for my happiness. Only I am responsible for my happiness. And that gives me all the power over my experience.

• I see others through my broad Source Perspective of Love.

• I know that in any given moment, I have the choice of how I feel, and I choose the higher, broader, perspective of love and well being.

• I notice and appreciate the synchronicities, I notice and appreciate the magic, I notice and appreciate the divine love and well being in everything.

• I take what resonates for me and become it NOW. I release the rest with ease.

• I ask myself “What are the unlimited beliefs I can hold about this and why not think them now?”

• I know that passion creates manifestation, so I acknowledge what makes me passionate and focus on THAT!

• I take complete and total responsibility for anything I create in my reality, and when I perceive something that I have created as not wanted, I look at it as an opportunity to show me what I do want and grab the golden nuggets. And then I focus on and get passionate about THOSE.

• I always know exactly where I am vibrating and what my beliefs are in any given situation by looking at my checking account, my relationships, what I am manifesting, and if they are not where I want them to be, I do the vibrational/belief work to shift them.

• Just as I want others to allow me to be, I allow others to be. And I BE ME. True to myself. My authentic self. Always.

• I ask myself…. “Is what I am thinking right now what I want in my reality? Is what I am thinking in alignment with who I really am?” If yes, continue thought process, if no, it’s thought shift time.

• Thou shalt follow my bliss.

• I remember to reference these Statements of Being when I need them.

• Joy is the balance point and I easily release anything else that takes me off balance.

• I am in my heart space and step out for no one and nothing. It feels too good in here!

• This is the year of ACTION. 2012 is the best year EVER!

• Before writing, talking, acting… I ask, “Does this come from a place of inspiration, from a place of love, does this serve me and others?”

• I am living out loud and singing out loud.

• I bask in my uniqueness. It’s fun to be freaky!!

• I love myself unconditionally and know that I am worthy of all my desires.

• I am keeping my thoughts in the NOW. If I find my thoughts wandering, I gently bring them back to NOW. Like a waking meditation. All the time.

• I am pure source energy expressing in a human body and I fully embrace my human experience.

• I hold the vibrations of pure love and appreciation.

• I am more cat-like… including taking cat naps when my body asks for them and stretching like a cat.

• I act from inspiration, not shoulds.

• When I get comfortable in my life and creations, and especially then, I remember to continue expanding through the ways that work for me. After all, we never get it done.

• I am applying the unlimiting beliefs I have about things I already do and manifest well to the areas in my life where I want to create unlimited beliefs.

• I feel first, then think.

• I speak of only possibilities instead of arguing for limitations.

• My beliefs are only thoughts I keep thinking. I can change my beliefs by changing my thoughts and emotional response to them. One by one, or bunches at a time.

• I am thinking the thoughts that match what I want until I believe them. I use my imagination and visualization to FEEL FORWARD until it is TRUE.

• I am laughing… a lot

• When I find myself beginning to resist things that are working for me (listening to affirmations at night, reading a particular book, or whatever), I remember that it is my limiting beliefs fighting for their lives causing the resistance. I remember why I want to change these beliefs, keep doing what is working for me for at least 17 days, and therefore create new unlimited beliefs by rewiring my brain.

• I am of divine service to others, not out of obligation, but from inspiration.

• I am dancing as if no one is watching

Sarah Stewart Interviews Sierra Goodman on Weight Loss, Dolphins and Whales, Law of Attraction, the Observer and More!

2011-12-19T06:28:00.000-08:00

Oceans of Inspiration Dolphin and Whale Screensavers, Posters, T-shirts

2011-12-18T14:16:00.001-08:00

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Dive into the Divine Dolphin's Oceans of Inspiration, SierraGoodman’s effort of Love with 88 up close and intimate photos of dolphins andwhales taken on her tours in DrakeBay, Costa Rica; Bimini,Bahamas and SilverBank, Dominican Republic. The photos are available as a high quality,high definition screensaver (scroll below for a FREE trial!) and also at our CafePressStore in t-shirts, mugs, mouse pads, reusable bags and more!

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Enjoy this sample of the Oceans of Inspiration Photos.

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The YOUniversity of Life: Lessons from the School of Hard Knocks and Clue by Fours

2011-11-28T07:03:00.001-08:00

Having many, many people come to my property in the rainforest of Costa Rica over the years to “volunteer” or work, I have learned to be VERY clear about what it is, what it isn’t and what is expected before people arrive. And so it was with the yoga instructor, the sound healer and their three year old child who came to stay with me at the beginning of November after many emails. It was the most clear I have ever been. They needed to work 2 hours each a day, 4 hours total, five days a week. 20 hours a week for a family of three to live in paradise. Such a deal!! But I really wanted the yoga instruction and of course the massage and sound healing so I thought it would be a great trade. An hour yoga class counted as 2 hours. Sound healing/massage, 2 hours. So on the days we had yoga or sound healing, they only needed to work 2 more hours in the garden or whatever needed to be done.

On the second day I took them for a walk around the property, showing them what needed to be done in the garden, where the tools are, ask me if you have any questions. I showed them how to cut the heliconias that were done flowering, what needed trimming etc.

After about a week of seeing nothing happening, I sent her an email reminding her of our emails and their agreement with me, wanting things in writing, learning from the past. After she received it, we sat down and talked to get even clearer and I said I wanted yoga every other day, massage/sound healing every other day and the rest in gardening. They agreed. I told them how in the past people came here with great intentions but beach/jungle fever takes over and it becomes party vacation time and that I would not let that happen again. They agreed. Yes, Yes, we understand.

But the days went on and there was time for the beach, time for play, but nothing was happening in the garden except the one hour he worked and cut a bunch of heliconias that hadn’t flowered yet. NOT what I had asked them to do. Ahem. I got sound healing and shiatsu massage here and there, but after three yoga sessions it rained a few mornings and she said she didn’t want to do yoga and then she was going through a “healing transformation” and all in all, there have only been 3 yoga classes since they arrived almost a month ago.

After the second week, I started to feel used, taken advantage of, disrespected. I had been so clear!! I had been so upfront and honest and forthcoming!! How could they just blatantly ignore their agreement and act like they were on vacation and with an attitude that their presence was doing me a favor? I had been sooooo clear! I had done it right this time, why wasn’t it working??

I gotta say, a family of three made a big impact here. And if the agreement would have been kept, all the little things wouldn’t have bothered me so much. But once it became obvious that they did not want to work and they expected me to finance their vacation, I started to do the broken record mind spin. All the “things” were going through my head and they were constant and many. Like walking into the kitchen and finding the bare assed three year old sitting on the kitchen counter where we prepare food. Or putting a dripping wet towel on the line right over the mattress we had put out in the sun to air out. Or coming to the dehydrator to flip my coconut wraps over and finding they had moved them around, put their own stuff in the dehydrator and it was now turned up to 125 degrees. (Things lose their enzymes and are no longer raw when cooked at over 118 degrees) Or finding my cloth bag of pink Himalayan rock crystal salt that I had placed on top of the dehydrator with a towel on top of it to dry it out with the towel gone and the whole bag exposed to the humid air. Or taking things and not putting them back. Or breaking my ceramic knife and not saying a word. Or giving the baby my expensive professional hoola hoop to play with and scratching it up. Or the dinner dishes piled on top of the lunch dishes on top of the breakfast dishes in the dish drainer so there was always a scummy film of dirty water at the bottom and putting clean dishes on top of that. Or the use of my Blendtec blender. Let me tell you the blender story…

I have never in my life spent $400 on a kitchen appliance, and my Blendtec blender is my baby. I use it 2-3 times per day and it is an integral part of my raw foods diet. I brought here from my storage unit last January and after it getting overfilled and liquid going all over it and it now having a short (I wont mention any names Dana J) I decided that it was not for community use and it would be my personal appliance. There is a regular Black and Decker blender for community use plus my juicer and my dehydrator. So on the first day, I showed them around the kitchen and where the community blender is. I also showed them where my personal things were, which included the Blendtec. So I was quite surprised when I came into the kitchen to find them using my Blendtec. Grrrrrrr.

All these things were going on and for the first week and a half I was so proud of myself for breathing through it, being allowing, saying what I needed to say with love and a smile, like “Can you please not put your baby’s bare ass on the kitchen counter?” And I would have continued that way if the agreement was being kept, but all these things were going on and no work was getting done. It was just beach, eat, rest, beach, eat, rest. There was no feeling of community, doing what is best for the highest good of all. It was all about their needs, their timing. And I was getting more and more angry and frustrated.

Under other circumstances, I would have just asked them to leave, but I am leaving for the States the first week of December and I was just trying to breathe through it and last until I left so that there would be people here besides my regular worker while I was gone. But in trying to “get through it” I was getting angrier and angrier and feeling more and more taken advantage of. Every time I saw them waltz down to the beach, or walked into the kitchen to see the mess or heard the baby screaming I could feel my blood pressure rise up and I would keep taking deep deep breaths. If it hadn’t been for running on my treadmill, I might have blown up but I was able to release some of the anger through running like a wild woman.

My usual shifting tools would help for a short time and I’d get my mind out of the broken record loop, but then something else would happen and the merry go round of thoughts and angry, frustrated feelings would come up again.

One morning my mind was doing the broken record of how they were taking advantage and doing this and not doing that and I cut my finger very deeply while opening up a coconut. It took me almost an hour to stop the bleeding. I knew I had to relax or I was really going to hurt myself. Once the bleeding completely stopped, I got on the treadmill and started to run and even with my running high and good music, so did my mind again. Then I don’t know exactly how it happened, but the next thing I knew, I was flying through the air and the moving belt rubbing against my ankle. Luckily, even though I didn’t have the safety clip on, somehow when I was falling I must have caught the string that leads to the safety and the treadmill stopped… but not before I had road rash. I got up, glanced at my scraped leg and my now once again dripping finger and turned the treadmill back on and kept running because I was right at that point of the highest runner’s high and I wanted/needed more.

I finished with the treadmill and went to tend my leg. Oooops, it was worse than I thought when I had just glanced down. I knew that my anger and frustration was going to get me seriously hurt and already had. It became so clear to me that no longer could I do things the way I used to. Shutting down communication once I was misunderstood was my old way of doing things, but it had crept back in again. I had been really clear, but when things then didn’t go as I expected them to even after my clarity, I shut down, reverted and went into mind fuck mode. I needed to get to the heart of this NOW before I broke a bone or worse!!!

I started looking for my golden nuggets in the situation. What was this about? What was really bothering me? First of all, it was that I had been SO CLEAR. I had been so so clear about what was expected before they even came. I had taken all my lessons from people in the past coming, everything that went right and everything that went wrong and used those experiences to create this one. I had spoken my truth but it still didn’t work out how I wanted it to. I HAD EXPECTATIONS ABOUT SPEAKING MY TRUTH!!! That’s when I asked for guidance and received this:

“When we clearly speak our truth from the heart, others still have their own filters and perceptions through which they hear it. People hear only what they can and want to hear. So speak your heart truth and let go of how it is received. Speak your heart truth for you and then trust in the outcome even when it’s not what you thought it might be. When spoken from the heart, your truth will always create the highest possible outcome.”

I was sooooooo attached to the outcome!! I had spoken my truth and it did NOT turn out how I wanted it to. And it pissed me off!!! Anger was running through my veins. The same thing happened even when I had been clear. Hippie vacationers. My mind was doing a total running mind fuck. I needed to let it go because it was obvious what the anger was doing to my body. This was instant physical manifestation of my anger.

How had speaking my truth created the highest outcome? I wasn’t seeing it yet, but I always know it’s there. I breathed. I looked within and at the broader perspective. I realized that I was settling. I was putting up with all of this because I was leaving and wanted them here while I was gone. But with all that was going on and the effect of the anger on me, I thought it might be best to just ask them to go. The worst that will happen is that David, my regular Costa Rican worker, will be here alone while I am gone again. Nothing gets done, and he just hangs out smoking pot with his friends, but my cat gets fed, nothing gets stolen and it’s only three weeks this time. I knew that was the right answer. It is what made me feel lighter, happier. It was my truth.

And I just knew there had to be something even better. I never ever EVER have to settle for anything less than a divinely desirable situation. There is always a perfect solution. So I demanded it!!! I said, HEY UNIVERSE, THIS IS NOT WORKING. I WANT, DESERVE, DEMAND SOMETHING BETTER. SHOW ME WHAT TO DO, WHAT IS NEXT GIVE ME A SIGN NOWWWWWWWW!!!

Within three minutes I received an email from a FB friend whom I didn’t know (imagine that!). He was in Costa Rica and wrote “I am a Body worker with an emphasis on cranial sacral manipulation/Energy worker, carpenter, plumber, electrician, gardening. There is really nothing i cant do. Self taught raw food nutritional therapy. I’m really into Raw Cacao as Medicine and will set up a raw Cacao process somewhere, want to get locals involved. Also raw Coconut products.”

Imagine that!!!

We messaged back and forth and somewhere in there came the big wink from the Universe. He wrote, “Shall I bring my blender?” Ha!! Oh how I love how the Universe plays with me to let me know they got my back. It was a divine message of the divine orchestration and timing going on. I told him no, he could use mine. :)

That’s when I posted this status: I had the amazing experience today of demanding something better from the Universe regarding a certain situation... and an email coming not even five minutes later with something MUCH better!! Oh how I love shopping at U-Mart, where the Blue Light Specials never end!!

It was the most amazing unfolding. He heard my call!! And he got here within two days!!

I took that time to do some more processing, being the observer where I can get my core, grounded, divine guidance and perspective. I still had this couple here and I needed to get to the root and release and create resolution. Every time something would happen with them, my leg would get worse and was infected. I was chugging chaga mushroom extract and applying it directly, I was using hydrogen peroxide and my zero point cream and laser, but nothing can help a festering physical manifestation when your thoughts are festering. Simmering, boiling, festering, non-communications and anger are toxic for our bodies and for our souls. This is not about not getting mad. It’s okay to get angry and express your feelings, in fact it’s essential. What is toxic and causes illness is the unchecked, running anger.

When I got an email from her letting me know that usually when they go places, their presence alone was enough, my finger, which had been closed for two days, started to bleed again without me even touching it. When the guy came to my room and said I could give him a list of things I wanted done and he’d look at it and do what he wanted to do when he wanted to do it, if he wanted to do it, my leg throbbed.

The Universe’s message to me was strong. There would be no more getting away with any of my old, unserving behaviors of shutting down, withdrawing from communication, letting anger and frustration run wild. It is STAY ON YOUR TOES OR FALL ON YOUR ASS!! With my bruised and bleeding body as physical evidence of painful manifestations, the message could not be denied. I know when painful manifestations come up, it is like a clue-by-four from the Universe to DEAL WITH IT SIERRA.

Ok. First of all was the disappointment. I was so looking forward to the yoga and the sound healing and the massage and gathering my tribe and getting things moving towards the YOUniversity I want to create here. And the thing that made it hard, was that they are really nice people. They have no bad intentions, they just have a different way of seeing things and didn’t fulfill their agreement, but they are kind people. I might not agree with their way of doing things in the kitchen, with the laundry, with the work they didn’t do but I still liked them as people, especially if I didn’t have to live with them. So there was sadness and disappointment going on.

Then there was the anger and frustration. The anger was about not being heard, being disrespected, this whole thing happening again when I had taken every precaution to prevent it and frustrated because I could not understand how they could so blatantly ignore our agreement. Like… what were they thinking??? I did not want to be mother, boss, policeman. I wanted people who could work on their own, clean up after themselves, take the initiative. And they were NOT that.

Then there was the feeling stuck by circumstances, and this was the key. Feeling stuck. I couldn’t move through the disappointment, sadness, anger and frustration because I was feeling stuck because I wanted them to stay while I was gone and thinking I really just had to put up with this and survive the best way I could until I left for California. I really thought about this. How often do we put off doing what we know is right, what we know is the logical step, what feels good until the perfect circumstances arise?

The ongoing mind fuck anger happens when we feel we do not have a choice and are stuck. Oh but that is ALWAYS an illusion. There is always choice, always options and always the right time to do what feels right is NOW. Not when I get back from California, not when I have someone else lined up, not later. NOW!!!! I could not wait for change, I had to make the change. I knew what I needed to do and if I didn’t do it now, I was going to have a very bumpy ride.

And there was my pattern of behavior of shutting down from communication when I am misunderstood, ignored and things are not going my way. I thought I had gotten past that a long time ago, but it came up again and it was time to dissolve it. When did I shut down? I started to shut down a few days after our meeting after they had been here a week. The one where we had made clear, again, what was expected and which they agreed to. Once I felt I had been really, really clear and still unheard and ignored, I shut down communication. That’s when I started to feel stuck, that I was going to have put up with this for two more weeks because I was leaving for California. The moment I knew it wasn’t going to work out and decided to settle and put up with it is when I shut down and the painful manifestations started. Feeling stuck leads to self-destructive behaviors because we are not doing for ourselves what we know is the right, divine, feel good thing for us.

My new friend arrived, and the difference in energy was staggering. “How can I help you, Sierra?” And once he had walked around and figured things out he started getting inspired and coming up with ideas and plans and has a whole list of things he will do. It was like night and day!! It was a sign from the Universe that I never ever ever ever ever have to settle for less than everything I desire. It was like HERE SIERRA, THIS IS WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR AND WE HAVE DELIVERED IT IN FIVE MINUTES FROM YOU ASKING. Yesssssssss!!! He is my kind of people. My soul pod. The perfect blend of spirituality and practical common sense, groundedness, initiative, inspiration, intelligence and humor.

This also helped me to get really clear about further screening of people before they come. There are people who are not spiritual at all, there are people who are only spiritual and then there is the perfect blend who are my kind of people. I have no judgments about those who are not a match. They are perfect for them. There is a difference between judgment and observation and clarity. I have observed the kind of people who are a match to me and that clarity will bring them to me.

Why did I ever think I had to settle? How could I ever doubt that my beloved, benevolent Universe would provide everything I need just when I need it? How did I end up in these old patterns? I remembered that things really started to go wrong after 11/11/11 and how my guides had told me that everything that needs to be cleaned up is going to be coming up because it is no longer a match and cannot survive in the new higher energies. All my old crap that still needed to be resolved and released came up into the light for me to see and boy did I see it!! All I had to do is look down at my finger and leg to be reminded.

My new friend had to go back to San Jose to get the rest of his stuff. In the morning before he left we saw a beautiful rainbow as the sun came up. I let the couple know that I needed them to go before I left for California. I felt deep, deep, relief and release. I had spoken my truth. I felt my whole body, mind and spirit rejoice. At sunset, another beautiful rainbow was a beautiful wink and smile to let me know that all was in perfect divine order.

The Universe had one more reminder for me through this experience. One of the reasons I was feeling stuck in keeping the family here is that they have a three year old and I couldn’t just throw them out into the jungle, I had to give them sufficient notice about leaving. But as divine orchestration would have it, the very next day after I let them know they had to leave, they ended up going right next door to my neighbors which is a much better match for them. By allowing my highest good, they received their highest good. Everyone got their highest good!! How could it ever be any other way? We had a GREAT talk, lots of hugs and laughter and insights and now I have more cool neighbors and friends. WINNING!!!

Oh how I love this Divine, Benevolent Universe and the YOUniversity of Life… even when I take a class at the College of Hard Knocks and Clue by Fours. Those seem to be the classes I don’t easily forget.

New Beginnings: It's Show Time!

2011-10-29T11:16:00.000-07:00

According to many calculations, today ends the 9th Wave of the Mayan calendar and a 26,000 year cycle. It is a day of the ending of the old and the beginning of the new. It also marks two weeks until the 11~11~11 Stargate opening. Whether you believe in these things are not, many people do, and that alone creates consciousness waves so you might as well catch it!!

The next two weeks is an opportunity like there has never been before to let go of the old and BECOME the new.

Let us affirm: "I now quickly and easily release all that no longer serves me. I let go of all old baggage that is not for my highest good. I fully release all blame, anger and unworthiness and fully embrace my divinity. I now live from my heart space and treat myself and others with love and kindness. I hear and listen to my inner guidance. I am deeply connected to Spirit at all times. I gracefully and easily step into Who I Really AM and shine my brightest light. And so it is."

ONE People ♥ ONE Planet ♥ ONE LOVE ♥ Occupy Earth. Together.

2011-10-16T09:38:00.000-07:00

Can you feel it? There is something really amazing going on. There is passionate energy swirling around the planet as people awaken and remember their power and take action towards their dreams and desires. This is much bigger than about Occupy Wall Street. This is about Occupy Your Heart. Occupy Your Power. Occupy Compassion and Love. Occupy Together.

While some of the blaming and pushing against in the Occupy Wall Street movement is the old paradigm way of doing things, as more and more remember their power and embrace it, there will be no more need for blame, for in blame there is powerlessness. It will quickly move past the old way of doing things into the new paradigm of personal power and unity, of love and community. As more and more awakened beings come together in our mutual desires for the world in which we live, the more powerful we become. Together.

One of the benefits coming from the demonstrations around the United States is that people in other countries are seeing that the majority of the American people are not the actions of their government and in some ways are similarly controlled by the government and currency system. And just like them, Americans want their freedom and right to live a peaceful, abundant and harmonious life on this beautiful planet we all share. This will allow more global unification instead of separation. This is becoming a truly global movement not AGAINST the machine but FOR the world we wish to see as we embrace that we truly are all ONE.

This, my friends, is what we have been waiting for. WE are who we have been waiting for. And the time is NOW! Stand up for what you believe in and desire. Stand up for who you are. Become a part of this Movement of Awakening and Love and Evolution… if not in the streets, in your own home. EMBRACE your power and KNOW that the world we dream of is with-IN our reach NOW!

ONE People ♥ ONE Planet ♥ ONE LOVE ♥ Let us Occupy Earth. Together.

NOTES FROM THE FIELD: OCCUPY RAINFOREST

2011-10-16T09:14:00.000-07:00

Rainforest Animals in their Occupy Rainforest Pre-Planning Meeting last August

The residents of the rainforest showed unprecedented support for the worldwide Occupy movement today in an gathering of all species. From frogs to fireflies and from monkeys to macaws all wanted their voices to be heard and their demands added to the Occupy agenda. The animals' list of desires includes clean air free from chemicals and pollution, clean rivers and lakes to drink from and an immediate moratorium on clear cutting activities around the world. Chants of "WE ARE THE 99%, HUMANS ARE THE 1%" could be heard echoing through the trees.

The gathering was peaceful and calm except for one skirmish between a monkey and a jaguar who apparently had one fermented mango too many and a friendly game of "I'm the King of the Jungle" got out of hand. However the spectators quickly pulled them apart and peace prevailed for the rest of the day.

My Favorite Law of Attraction & Weight Loss Affirmations

2011-08-21T14:31:00.000-07:00

In my upcoming book, Becoming Thin, I give people the step by step tools to manifest the life and body of their dreams and part of those tools are affirmations. Here are some of my favorites to get you started! First, the big one:

The Divine Plan of my life is Manifesting for me now, quickly and in peace.

Thank You. Thank You. Thank You.

I use this affirmation to call my Divine Path into Divine Order and timing. This affirmation has created new careers, relationships and brought things to me that I never imagined possible. You are saying that you are ready and open to manifest your dream life, to live your Divine Path, whatever that might be.

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The _________ I am seeking is seeking me, and the Law of Good draw us together with love and understanding.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.

Use this affirmation whenever you want to attract something to you, such as a house, a car, a new relationship, anything you want to draw and attract in.

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I cannot do this by myself, but God can and is creating miracles here and now.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.

You can use this affirmation whenever you feel overwhelmed by a situation or what you are asking for. You can write it as many times on as many pages as you want as you create your journal and your life.

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The moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one which would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would come his way. Thomas Murray

Marilyn gave me this quote the first day I went to see her. It reminds me that MIRACLES HAPPEN when we commit to ourselves to something, when we are consciously creating our dream lives. It reminds me not to worry about HOW it will come, but to just EXPECT MIRACLES!

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I now bless what I have previously condemned. My act of blessing can bring rewarding results in the way of increased health, wealth and happiness in my life. Yes, every area of my life can improve as I practice blessing it.

You will be amazed at how people and situations will change when you bless them instead of cursing them. Use the Act of Blessing every single day and you will see incredible results in your life.

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Within me is the wisdom of the ages. That wisdom now shows me how to expand my life. That wisdom now shows me how to prosper and be free. I am divinely guided in all situations and decisions. Everything I need to know about __________ is revealed to me now.

I use this affirmation when I have a question about something and need guidance on which road to take. For example, when I first started writing this book, I was not sure if I should make it specifically about weight loss or about my life and the Law of Attraction in general. I wrote this affirmation in my journal and put “my book” in the blank. That very same evening, I just happened to click on a radio interview that Oprah did and she was saying how someone needs to write about using the Law of Attraction specifically to weight loss. There was my answer, from Oprah herself! It is all part of watching for the signs after you ask, because they can come in various ways that you might not be expecting. Who would have thought that Oprah would be the Messenger to tell me the route to take with my book?

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I now let go of worn out things, worn out conditions and worn out relationships. Divine Order is now established and maintained in my life. The inflow and outflow of everything in my life is established in divine order.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

This affirmation helps to let go of things that no longer server you. As you travel on the conscious creating path, you will find that you are no longer attracted to certain people or things and become very attracted to other people and things. This is part of the natural flow of living the life of your dreams. Your instincts are telling you the people, places and things that you need to connect with to achieve what you want. Listen to your instincts and follow them.

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I do not depend upon persons or conditions for my prosperity. God is the source of all my prosperity and provides His own channels of supply to me now. I can clearly see that nothing or no one can stand between me and my Good. I dissolve in my mind and in the minds of all others any idea that my own can be withheld from me. That which is for my highest Good comes to me now and in my clear perception of truth, I welcome it! I now accomplish great things with ease. My life cannot be limited. My financial income cannot be limited. God in me now frees me from all limitation. I am rich in mind and manifestation now!

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

This affirmation is a great reminder that no one or nothing can limit us or hold back our Good. We are free from limitation as we are all Children of God, we are all Divine Spiritual Beings!

Lost At Sea Was Not Meant to Be - Propelled by Divine Timing and Orchestration

2011-08-16T12:08:00.000-07:00

The day started out like any other day... toucans singing in the trees, birds and butterflies in the garden, Ma'nolo the hawk watching over it all. My captain, my worker David, and my boat went to pick up the guests we were taking on a dolphin and whale tour today and I waited on the beach, deciding to take a nice swim in the ocean.

As I swam, I connected with the whales and what came to me was the eye of the humpback whale, a big eye looking at me. We would see whales today for sure. I just knew it. We were connected.

The boat returned with the guests, David got off and I got on and off we went into the wild blue yonder. We traveled along the coast where we saw humpback whales the other day and came across a large school of orange fish and we stopped to watch them. After they passed by, Gato, my captain put the boat in gear and it wouldn't go anywhere. He put it in reverse and it wouldn't go anywhere.

We walked to the back of the boat, raised the engine and THERE WAS NO PROPELLER!!! It had somehow come off and dropped into the ocean. Propellers have pins and safeties on them, they are not supposed to just fall off! But it did.

I took a deep breath, checked our position, we were not far from the San Pedrillo Ranger Station of Corcovado National Park so we started calling on the radio. No answer. We called and called, no answer. We called the nearest hotel, no answer. We called the Coast Guard, no answer.

I was not afraid we would be lost at sea as sooner or later a boat would come by and I knew that by 1 or 2 pm the boats would be returning to Corcovado and we would flag them down, and luckily the tide was going out so the danger of being thrown into the rocks at the shore was not present... at least for now.

Gratefully our guests were very calm and good natured and we laughed a bit about it and drank some water, but not much, the unspoken thought was "we better ration just in case."

I prayed. I prayed for a boat, I prayed for someone to answer on the radio, I prayed for a whale to come by and keep us company.

Within 15 minutes we saw a boat heading straight towards us. Yay!!! They got close, we waved them over... they had come over because they thought we had whales. It was a family of four who had come all the way from Poland to see the whales and I felt so bad, but knew they had to help us and take time out of their tour. I could tell the kids were a bit disappointed, this was not the whale watching tour they had planned and it would take at least an hour out of their tour to help us.

We threw the other boat a rope and they proceeded to haul us back towards where we could get help. We asked the captain to take us to San Josecito beach where at least we could tie our boat up and call for someone else to come and help us and let this family get on with their tour.

As we slowly went along the coast, I got in touch with the whales and prayed for a miracle for this family who had helped us.

Almost arriving to San Josesito, we saw the blows and splashes. There was a mom and baby humpback!! The baby proceeded to tail slap, roll over, breach and mostly was laying on it's back, belly up, flapping it's pectoral fins into the water.The other boat turned it's motor off and there we sat for over an hour, our boat tied to the other boat, watching the most amazing spectacular display of JOY!! It was truly a miracle.

During all this I had brought out my phone even though I knew there was never a signal where we were and amazingly I had all five bars and full signal!!! Another miracle!! I called a boat in town and they were now on their way to come and tow us back to my beach. I also called my mechanic and had him send another propeller to me so that we can do the full tour tomorrow. Everything was falling perfectly into place.

As the other boat was arriving to tow us back to my beach, the baby whale came up right next to the other boat, and I mean if they had leaned over, they could have touched him and I saw the complete and totally JOY of the family, they were almost in tears, and again thanked us profusely for asking them to "save" us. The mom told me that this was their only chance to see whales, that they had come all the way from Poland to see them and how grateful they were to us for "finding them" for them.

Isn't that an interesting turn of events? Doesn't it go to show how helping others helps us too? They could have been very upset about having to tow us and I truly believe that the whales were showing them (and us) appreciation for helping us, all propelled by everyone's good attitude about what was going on, everyone trusting that everything was unfolding just as it should.

When I look at the grand picture, I see so many levels and avenues to why this happened. For sure the family from Poland attracted to them an awesome whale tour, as did my guests. No one would have seen this amazing display if everyone had kept going in the direction they were going. And while I lost a propeller, this gave me an answer to a question I asked the Universe yesterday:

"Should I go to the police and get my big boat back?" Here's the very story on that. When I left Costa Rica for a year and a half, I had left my 28 foot boat with my mechanic on his property. At some point he decided I wasn't coming back and sold my boat without my permission. When I came back, everyone told me what had happened and when I confronted him, he finally admitted it (denying it at first). I had a choice, to go to the police and turn him in or work out a deal with him. Because he has a family and because he is the only good mechanic in the area, I decided to make a deal with him which is basically free mechanic services forever more. He knows I could have sent him to jail and he is appreciative to me that I didn't, so whenever my boat needs work, it's free and quick and easy.

However, in the past week, people have told me that the person who bought my boat from the mechanic has been working on it and fixing it up (it was painted green to disguise it) and that it was my last chance to get it back because once he registers it with another name, it will be much harder to prove that it was my boat.

I have been going back and forth about this for days now. I LOVE that boat. It was the boat I used for tours, much bigger and more comfortable than the one I am using now. I really want it back. But that would mean turning in my mechanic who has already done lots of work on my current motor and when I called him to send a propeller, he got right on it for me. It's nice to have him on my side and by going after my boat and going to the police, I would have an enemy for sure. But it's my boat and I want it back. What do I do, Universe?

This event today pretty much sealed up for me to just let it go. Take my free mechanic services and let the Universe deliver me a new, better boat in divine timing. Just like this day had been, one divinely timed and orchestrated event after the other.

Another thing that happened is that while we were sitting and waiting to be rescued, the two girls on my boat decided to come on my Summer Solstice 2012 Human/Dolphin Celebration Bimini Trip and if we hadn't had that time, the conversation would not have come up.

I know there are many reasons on many levels why this day turned out like it did. In reality, it turned out perfectly, everyone got to see whales VERY close, we are safe, we were in the perfect place to get help and not much further out or closer to the rocks. I feel so protected and loved and trusting in the divine orchestration and timing of it all.

I am truly Propelled by Divine Timing and Orchestration and when I stay calm and trust that, things easily and quickly fall into place.

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, Oh Divine Universe!!!

From Paralegal to Paradise ~ Miracles and Manifestations

2011-07-29T14:07:00.000-07:00

Part I - A Circle of Dolphins
I have always told people, "Before I die, I will swim with dolphins." So when the postcard came announcing a dolphin swim with Penelope Smith (the "Mother of Interspecies Telepathic Communication"), I knew that my time had come to take the plunge!

I didn't know how I was going to pay for it, so I told the universe, "If I am meant to go on this trip, let the $500 deposit appear now!" In a few days, I received a $500 bonus from my work I was not expecting because I had not worked there for long. The universe had spoken!!! As I continued to tithe and do spiritual work around the trip, the rest of the money came from magical places. The dolphins made sure I was able to be with them at this time!

In the couple of weeks before the trip, I entered a dream state, wherein psychic experiences were frequent and strong. I felt an inner pull that at the time, I could not explain. I was calm and happy and didn't go through the usual "going on a trip" stress I have felt when I've gone away for much shorter periods of time. My animals were fine with my leaving. They knew why I was going and were anxious to do some healing work on my friend who was taking care of them while I was gone.

I brought along a new journal to keep careful notes of all that went on. I also brought along my Medicine Woman cards which have been so helpful in guiding me on my path. I chose a card each night.

Following are my (censored) journal entries from our dolphin journey.

June 13, 1997 - I met people from the first dolphin trip at the hotel. They are glowing, dreamy eyed and can hardly talk about their experience. I wonder if I will be like that too...I hope so! Tonight we had our orientation meeting around the pool at the hotel. As I looked around at the faces of my fellow dolphin seekers, I saw many people that I recognized! I asked at least five people if I had met them at one of Penelope's workshops, and they said no. I realized that my deja vu experiences were continuing...and getting stronger!
I sat around our hotel room with my roommate, Kim, and we each picked a Medicine Woman card. Here's mine:

Apprentice of Pipes - Channeling the Light. "Open to the messages within. Pause and reflect and renew my journey. I will inspire others by being who I am and channel my light to them. I will be working with a true master who will help me deliver my message to the world. I am a student filled with grace."

I am ready! Bring on the master(s)!!

June 14, 1997 - We got on the boat at 7:30 am. Since I am in a weird time dimension, I'm not sure how long it was, but it seems like10 minutes after we lost sight of land, a very large pod of bottlenose dolphins were all around our boat. Penelope read to us the transmission she got from them. They circled us three times and "brought us into their circle." I felt safe and protected from this giant dolphin hug. What a great start!

After a calm ride through the Gulf Stream, we went through customs at West End, Grand Bahama, which took about 1/2 hour. We went for about a 30 minute ride and then anchored the boat. It was time for our first swim in the warm turquoise waters of the Bahamas. What an incredible experience! I saw the most beautiful fish, some like I used to have in a fish tank several years ago. I'll never have one again knowing where they are taken from! Lots of bright purple coral and sea grass. The water feels like a warm bath where I could stay forever!
At our meeting after lunch we all chose new names for the trip since we are going on a spiritual adventure and are becoming new people. I kept Sierra, but added "Lady of the Dolphins". Penelope is "Peace", Alex is "El", Laura is "Alehia", Kim is Anghk, etc. I think my favorite name is "Shimmer Coo" which a lady named Deanna chose. I really like everyone I have met and can already tell that there will be lasting friendships after the trip is over.

Medicine Woman Card for today: Nine of Arrows - Overcome Doubt and Fear: "The mental concepts, the attitudes, the beliefs I hold, I cherish for what they have allowed me to do. But I also see that they are simply ways of perceiving reality and not reality itself. The only reality is ultimate harmony, and troubles are simply trips the mind is taking. As I stumble on the path, I put myself down and pick myself up by the way I value each step. I am way above the rules, though not above using them. I am deeply respectful of all that is; I laugh at all that isn't. I do not need to see all the answers and have all solutions before I act. Just point my heart toward good. It may seem as though I am shooting in the dark, but go ahead. Use the skills I have been working to develop. This is their supreme test."

I then closed my eyes and got this message from the dolphins:

Come enter our world of
Crystal Blue waters
and pastel corals
But come with a pure heart
and ready for fun
Let us show you the way -
our way of life
And when you leave
You will take us with you
in your heart
and we will never leave you.

I sent telepathic messages to Peter and Annette back at home tonight. I mostly sent them the blue of the water. It will be interesting to see if they receive a color!

June 15, 1997 - I didn't sleep last night. I tried and tried and finally went outside. It was incredible! Straight above the sky was clear and I could see stars, but all around me was lightning. So much energy everywhere, no wonder I couldn't sleep. I tried again to go to bed and put my meditation tape in my Walkman. I usually am asleep within 10 minutes, but last night I finally heard the whole tape! I came back outside and just enjoyed it because I was not tired. Today I feel just great, I am definitely running on dolphin energy!

Two dolphins appeared today but they left right away. Peace said that they wanted us to leave, that we were not in the right spot. They are waiting for us elsewhere. We cruised around the ocean looking for dolphins, but didn't see any, so we stopped and just went snorkeling around. We danced to Ho's drumming tonight, it was great!

Medicine Woman Card: Four of Bowls - Materialization of Love. "To my mind, as I am at rest, comes wonderful thoughts of things I shall like to create for others to show my love for them. In my mind when I am at peace, Creator tells me of what it is I have to share. It is through my own talents and abilities, through my own use of these in time, that I create those gifts I imagined. Now I give form to the love I feel for another. Now I create my gift in a material way, expressing those intangible feelings that draw me to my people."

June 16, 1997 - Still haven't really slept, maybe 2 hours last night. This morning as I was getting ready to go swimming, I sat down next to Peace. I could feel her reading me and she told me that it was a time of high vision for me and that I should be drawing to get it out. I told her that I was keeping a journal and she said that was good. I didn't know that Peace was so afraid of the water, but coming on this trip was a major step for her. She used to be photosensitive to the sun and couldn't take the heat. I guess El has been asking her to go for quite a while and she never wanted to go before. But the fire has totally changed her body's way of reacting to things, it's really quite incredible. She was very sick for two weeks before the trip and wasn't even sure she was going to make it, but she said the dolphins gave her energy on the day before the trip.
Still no dolphins today. I feel like they are waiting for something...but what? Peace says that they are preparing us for a special encounter. She told us to be aware of the other beings, the spirits, devas and angels that are all around us.

Medicine Woman Card: Eight of Bowls - Journey of Love: "With the foundation of love that we have built together, we know we can now accept a caring role in the lives of others. Great Spirit, guide us on our way to the fulfillment of our spiritual vessels. We no longer have need of mere pleasures for self alone, but seek to find pleasure as we give love, healing, and service to those who most need our care. Let us know where to serve. We are ready."
The strangest thing happened tonight. I was finally tired and went to the cabin to sleep before my roommate, Kim. I slept on the bottom bunk and the door was right next to me. For some reason, out of a dead sleep, I reached over and opened the door for her as she walked up to it from outside. She laughed because she thought I was getting up again, but then she realized how bewildered I was. I have no idea why I opened the door for her, and I just went right back to sleep.

June 17, 1997 - This morning I woke up and wrote the following prayer in my journal:

Dear God, Angels and Guides,
I am here in the Bahamas to learn whatever lessons you want me to learn and get whatever messages you want me to get. I am open to receive. Please let me swim with dolphins today. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

After coming in from swimming this morning, I heard that Jay, one of our passengers was having heart trouble and that we needed to take him back to Grand Bahama and get him to the hospital. We held a meeting and sent him healing energy as the boat started up and took us back to port. We all felt so bad for Jay and his wife Vicki, and also were sorry that we had to go back. Stewart, our captain, told us that it might be possible to go through customs now instead of on Thursday, which would mean we wouldn't lose any time. We got to the port and a taxi took Jay and Vicki to the nearest hospital. Since we were going through customs, we had to stay about 2 hours, so we walked to a little beach where the water was so warm and clear. I noticed that Peace was very comfortable here, probably because it was so shallow and close to shore. Each time I saw her in the water, she looked more and more relaxed and confident.

We got back on the boat and as soon as I boarded, I could feel that the energy had totally changed, a big weight had been lifted. This is what the dolphins had been waiting for! I KNEW that we would soon encounter dolphins. About half an hour out of Grand Bahama, I got chills up and down my body and I knew they were near. We started to drum and flute and otherwise call out to them and then suddenly, DOLPHINS!!!

Since I was usually the first person in the water to go snorkeling, Kaz, the divemaster on the boat, let me be one of the first two people to jump in. I dove in just as a female dolphin passed by. For about ten seconds, we swam next to each other in unison. I felt my heart about to explode and I had to remind myself to keep breathing!

All of a sudden there were 16 dolphins dancing and twirling all around us. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. There was even a baby dolphin with them! They stayed with us for several minutes but then started swimming out further and only a couple people from our group could keep up with them. Then they were gone.

When I got back to the boat, I sat down on the bench and cried tears of pure joy and happiness. I felt so released, like I had come home. Words cannot communicate exactly how I felt in that moment, but I will never forget it!

After everyone was out of the water, Peace told us that there were dolphins in this group that had never swam with humans before and that they were just as excited as we were. She said that just as we were meeting to discuss what had happened and what to do and not do next time, they were doing the same thing! Stewart told us that it was the most dolphins he had swam with at one time in more than a year.

I decided that the next time I see the dolphins, I'm not going to bring my camera because I found myself spending so much time trying to take pictures instead of just being with them in the moment.

It is storming tonight, quite an appropriate end to an incredible day!

Not too amazingly, I chose the Totem of the Bowls - Dolphins, the Swimmers today. "Straightforward I travel, speaking the truth as I know it. I am here not only to console, but to give to others the tools with which they might lift themselves up. I will offer the ideas that free the mind and body and the heart from pain. My life will be lived as an example of harmony and balance among the creatures of the Earth. Always, I will seek to live in higher consciousness, the awareness of your presence in all that is. I will act as a warrior on the path of peace. My soul shall be impeccable.

Learn from the swimmers. Consider the dolphins, the whales, their patient and persistent love. Go to the ocean or a stream. Float on a still pond. Imagine yourself floating in Great Mother's arms, surrounded by liquid love in the sea of life.

Empty your mind, Let the glistening fish colors, the soft shell shades, the gleaming, subtle rock forms pervade your consciousness. Listen to the sound of the water, water creature. Be cleansed. Dissolve all obstacles. Absolve all friendships of any need for guilt. Let go. Feel your body weightless. Glide. Dive deeper into the pool of love. Watch the sun sparkle on the water until the scene becomes another enchanted world. Play with the waves. See the correlation of all things with your life. Be a fish. Become at home in the water element. Become at home in the easy push and pull of the waves of love. Learn to live as if life were a stream constantly nourishing. Be content in the here and now."

June 18, 1997 - Another beautiful sunrise. I am glad I'm an early riser and get to see Sister Sun wake up. Usually there are just a few other people out there with me. Zephyr Spirit, Dottie, Ro, and Tom are usually around to see it.

We swam with dolphins again in the morning. They didn't stay long and I got the feeling I should get out. As I was standing on the deck, I looked on the other side of the boat and there were five dolphins. I jumped in and swam with them as the rest of the group came over to where we were. The dolphins raced to the front of the boat and did a dance around the anchor. After they left, several of us felt drawn to the anchor rope and held on to it. The dolphins had energized it! Later Angkh and a few other people said they saw the rope and anchor glowing with a blue light.
About 4:00 pm I was laying on the deck in the sun and felt a strong call to get into the water. I got in and swam around and when I looked up, I saw that Peace, El, Yalo and Aleih had all gotten in too. "Dolphins are coming," I thought. But this was to be a test for me. The dolphins told me that I needed to trust, and know that they were there without seeing their bodies. I was told to just relax in the water, close my eyes, and receive the dolphin energy. I felt them as strongly as if they were swimming next to me! Later when I talked with Peace, she said that she too was called out into the water at that time and had felt the dolphin energy.

After dinner Peace sat down in front of the group and told us about her childhood, her fears and how the fire had changed so many things in her life. (Penelope's home in Point Reyes, California was burnt to the ground in the fire of October 3, 1995) She really opened up to us and it was very touching. After her talk, Ho played the drums while Peace did what I can only describe as a "spirit dance." She danced with her body and her soul. It was quite hypnotic! Peace is a different person than the one I used to know. She is fun to be around and totally open!! I'm really glad I am getting to know her better, as this was one of the things I was hoping would come out of this trip.

Thank you dolphins, for all you have given us.

Medicine Woman Card: 17 The Grandfathers - Ascension, "A light shines forth like a star from the heavens, revealing the wisdom of the ancient ones. I rest on the sturdy foundation of knowledge that comes from a past wholly lived, and I feel supported.

The Card Speaks: We are a new hope within you. The old patterns of interference have been broken; you have reached a new level of communication with the ancestral energy of Self. As a result, you can now experience renewed health and vitality. Through meditation, you have found your roots, your source of cosmic nourishment.

We are the Grandfathers. We have walked on the ground upon which you now walk. You are beginning to realize the meaning of our lives and are able to continue in our footsteps. We will begin to teach you of your spiritual heritage, for you carry within you a particular way of walking on the sacred path.

It is your destiny to carry on from where we have led you. You drink from the waters of Earth and now from those of the heavens as well. You are able to take our highest vision and bring it into reality. You, who have a foot in both worlds, are the only one able to lift the consciousness of the human beings once again to a level of hope. It is you who can build anew. It is you who can walk in beauty within the created world.

Explore now the beauty of your bare soul, this soul you have found in your spiritual search. Take time now to concentrate on the relationship of yourself and nature, yourself and God, the Great Spirit Within All. We will help you. We will offer what we have learned, that you might learn from our experiences. Speak with us and we will answer."

June 19,1997 - I woke up early as usual, and went outside to see the sunrise. I was joined by Tom, Zephyr Spirit and a few others. The sunrise was amazing as usual, I felt so content and blissed out!! And then all of a sudden Tom pointed and said "Dolphins!". Sure enough, there were several dolphins right next to the boat. In fact, there were dolphins all around the boat, circling us. My first reaction was to jump in, but it was still dawn and I got a message from the dolphins to let them "supercharge" the water before we got in. We watched in amazement as the dolphin circle went out further and further from the boat until we could see dolphins all around us on the horizon. They did a supercharging ritual as they hunted for their morning meal, jumping out of the water to excite us and play with each other. As I watched the dolphins dance in a circle around us in the turquoise waters with the sun rising behind them, I got the following message:

Circle Circle Circle
Circle of Life
Circle of Love
Circle of One
We embrace you, human fish
Our spirits are wild and free
And so joyous, like you
We circle you now....
And forever

My whole body and soul was signing with joy as we watched this go on for at least 45 minutes until the dolphins slowly started to come back in closer. That's when one of the crew yelled "Dolphins!" and I knew it was time to get in with them.

I ran downstairs and got my gear on and jumped in. As I dove down, two dolphins came straight at me and then around me as they looked me in the eye. And then they were gone! The water was totally charged and I didn't want to get out of it, ever. I found myself wishing I could grow a tail and become a mermaid so I would never have to leave!

The boat went cruising again and we saw more dolphins. We jumped in, but they didn't want to stay, so we got back on board and when we found them again, we went to the front of the boat and watched them ride the bow of the ship as we moved. It was great to see that. The dolphins are so joyful and just wanna have fun!

As if the day wasn't already perfect enough, the Bottom Time II offers a "Resort Course" in SCUBA diving, which means you take a short class and then can take a dive with the instructor. We went to a place called "Sugar Wreck" and I went SCUBA diving for the first time in my life. To be able to breath underwater is so freeing, you feel like you are a citizen of another planet! I saw incredible coral and fish in the wreck. There were sharks, barracudas and I even saw a turtle. I am now hooked on diving and will get certified over the summer.

After dinner we did a beautiful meditation focusing on the newly created vortex Aleih had told us about. El then asked us all to write a message, not to anyone in particular, but to the group, on a piece of paper. We then placed each message in a basket. The basket was then passed around and you were to randomly take one of the messages out and read it. When I opened the message I had chosen, I had another strong deja vu. I had seen and read these words before, in that exact writing. The note said:

Thank you for being you and for the role you've played for me on this trip. May your life be full of love, joy and happiness. Much love always!

When I read my message to the group, I mentioned that I had seen it before in a dream. As we left the dining hall, Sapphire (Georgia) stopped me and told me that she had misunderstood what El had said and thought we were supposed to write a note to a specific person. She had written the message that I had picked for me and was hoping that I would get it, which I did. I was so amazed I couldn't say anything else to her at the time.

We put on some music and danced up on the second deck (we did "the seaweed" and "the algae", but don't try this at home!) We were having a great time when someone suggested going night swimming. It was our last night in these beautiful waters and quite warm, so a bunch of us decided to go in ... naked! It was so much fun and even the new Esther Williams, also known as Peace, got in with us. We had a total blast! We laughed and giggled and it felt exhilarating! We were not surprised at all when Celia called out from the second deck that she was pretty sure she had seen a dolphin jump out of the water in the distance. We were totally caught up in dolphin silliness and they wanted to be around to witness the silly frenzy they had created in us.

Medicine Woman Card: Two of Stones - Reflecting on Potential Use of Resources, "The fertile ground of nature surrounds me now, waiting with her gifts for me to notice. The Great Spirit within stands ready in my soul to activate whatever abilities I choose. Which will it be? What can I offer to the world that will bring my earthly reward and soothe my soul? I reflect now on myself and where I am. What can I do for this land around me? What can I do for my people? As I activate myself in a chosen direction, the road to prosperity is cleared."

June 20, 1997 - Our last day on the beautiful boat. I don't want to go! This morning I saw Sapphire sitting by herself and I asked her about the note she had written to me. She said that like me, she is from Atlantis and that we have had a competition thing going on between us for several lifetimes. As we talked more we realized how much we had in common and knew that we would become good friends (again). So many connections on this trip...so many people I have known before, I feel like I'm in the twilight zone. I'm in the dolphin zone!!

We all reluctantly left the dock and went back to our hotel. It is so strange to walk on land, I feel like I'm still moving back and forth. We had a closing meeting at the hotel and shared how we were feeling. Stewart came in as we finished a meditation. We had forgotten some camera equipment on the boat. Everyone was really happy to see him, I think he enchanted the whole boat!

After everyone chose a dolphin necklace that El offered as a gift, Shimmer Coo asked Peace if she would answer a couple of questions that people back home had wanted answered. Luckily, Raj taped this session and I have transcribed it below.

Do dolphins ever get cold? And what do they do if they get cold?
"I hear laughter on the first question. Of course we get cold. We know how to generate the heat within our bodies, it's taught to us at a very young age. We work on generating the heat from the inside outward all the way to the ends of our bodies. The only time that coldness sets in within our ocean domain is when we are dying and then we let the heat go out the top of our bodies and we leave."

What information can the dolphins give us about what we can do to assist the ecosystem?
"Oh wow, these are the ones that came to us, the group that we got to swim with. And it's the baby that is here, and the baby is considered a master who has come in, and is a master dolphin who is also a whale, who also carries the whale energy. And this is why this baby was allowed to swim free and actually move away from it's mother for a short time in order to grasp the whole human pod as assembled. And then I get a clear picture of me still in the boat, and he said "we didn't miss the one above who is connected with me." This baby is a master being. I see him through this white light all around the baby in a circle in the water.

"All you have to do all around is to let that sweetness, that light, that nourishment of your soul, (that milk that you see is the white light from the soul, that feeds the soul,) is to send that light out wherever you go. You can, by your very nature, just as I do, just as all the dolphin brothers and sisters do, be in the water and clear it, and clear it of all things by the same method that I am showing you. By clearing it in the same method which is sending out the milk of the soul. And when you send out the milk of the soul, it nourishes all souls. All energies align around it in a pure light. If you send this out enough times and with enough people, what happens is that the consciousness of people who are unconscious, who are ignorant of their connection to others, changes. They go into that same trance that you felt, and what happens to them is that their love is realigned so that they cannot put anything out but the milk of pure love.

Do not underestimate your own ability to put out that spiritual force. All of you have been charged in the waters of love. I was brought here by my dolphin and whale brothers; the entire pod actually was there to hold me in space so that I could send this all all to you. Now feel the energy that comes from your own body no matter what infirmities or what impurities, you feel you have. Feel the milk of pure sweetness and love radiating in the vortex all around you. Now as you feel that energy, you will feel yourself dwelling in the ocean of pure love. The ocean of pure love is that which surrounds us at all times and connects us to all life. You will see in that ocean there is everything that is on this planet and in other realms. There are impurities, there is beauty, there is love. Send that milk that sustains your soul out into that ocean and as you increase that in magnitude and quantity, the entire quality of the ocean changes. Both the physical ocean that you see with your body's eyes, and the ocean of pure love that sustains us and in which we all dwell. This is the secret. All the technological wonders of this world are pale in comparison. This encompasses all those technological details that humans love to wear as part of their minds.

I charge all of you now in this room, and all of you who have gone on these trips, and especially this group which I was sent to be with, I charge you now with the service, with the solution of sending out the milk of pure love and soul into the ocean. I promise you will see, all things will grow. The whales, as you have said, will return, the dolphins will multiply in number. The ocean will be sweet to all those who drink it, and the earth itself will be mature and expand in this new richness from the bottom of the ocean all the way to the tallest mountain. Never forget these words. It is not these words that I charge you with, I charge you with entering pure love. That is each of your mission, and it is why I came here to this place and why we now go forth into the world. You have all been touched and changed. You will never be the same. We love you. We are with you. You are the same as us. We are you. You. You."

As Peace was transmitting this message from the baby master dolphin, I had chills from my head to my toes. I saw dolphins swirling all around the room in a circle and then all around my bed at home. I felt as if I was in a twirling mass of love...and dolphins! Right after this and for the next few days, I kept getting visions, but they would come to me in an unusual way. I would feel like I had my snorkeling mask on and it was full of water and I couldn't see. Then, the water would drain out and everything would be clear and I'd see dolphins, my house, places and people I didn't know, people I had met, and other unusual sights.

I remembered that in the many hours I had spent in the water during our trip, I had sent love out into the ocean. I would start with my hands on my heart and concentrate on sending love. I would then push my hands and arms out and around my body in a circle to send love waves through the ocean world. At the time, I wasn't sure why I was doing this, but now I knew why!
Everyone hugged good-bye. I will miss these beautiful people so much...but I know I will see many of them again.

Angkh has asked me if I want to stay with her here in Florida. She is going to rent a car and go to the Florida Keys. I called home and everything is okay. Cecil said the animals are fine and he's enjoying being there. Luckily I had the foresight to know that I would not be ready to go right back to work after a trip such as this, and I have the following week off work. I have the money (sort of).....I'm staying!!!

How strange it is for me not to want to go home. I am such a homebody, always so content and happy in my little cabin on the creek in the redwoods...and the animals! I've hardly thought about them except when I've checked in with them a few times. What is happening??? I'm not ready to go home!

I am in such an altered state tonight, I don't feel like picking a card!!

June 21, 1997, Summer Solstice - My first thought when I woke up was "The boat must be docked, it isn't rocking", and then I realized I was in a hotel room. Damn!
I wrote a letter to Sapphire last night and was glad to run into her in the lobby so I could give it to her.

Angkh and I rented a car and we were off for the Keys! We found a great vegetarian restaurant for dinner and stopped here and there to look at beautiful sites. We ended up staying at an amazing campground on Fiesta Key. It is right on the ocean, has a fresh water pool and lots going on. We went to town but it was getting near sunset and since it was Summer Solstice, I HAD to watch the sun set on the ocean. We went down some residential street until we found ocean access. As I watched the sun touch the water, I looked over at the dock and saw a young girl, about 10 or 11 years old doing a "spirit dance" on the end of the dock to the sunset. She even did a swim move! She was a free spirit dancing to her heart's content. I wanted to go hug her, but by the time I got close, she was gone.

I couldn't sleep again tonight. I went swimming and did somersaults and dolphin moves in the pool. Feels great to be in the water, I just can't get enough! I walked the large campground four times, sat on the wall looking out into the ocean for about an hour and then sat down to write in my journal. I decided it was time to ask the dolphins the life questions I had come with on this trip. Sharon Callahan, my animal communicator/psychic, had told me that many pieces of the puzzle would be put together for me on this trip. She also had told me that the dolphins wanted me to go with questions, but major life questions...and the dolphins would answer them. I had written them on the first pages of my journal before I left and got the following messages tonight:

1. What is my life path?
You have come so far already, thank you for taking the lessons you have been given with a sense of humor (for the most part) and especially for keeping the faith. Going on this trip was the start of the next road on your life path...that is why everything fell into place, you were guided and protected so that you would be here at this time, on this trip. You are going to introduce many, many people to our world and we needed you to experience it now. The time is right. You are where you should be, follow your intuition and your heart...we will guide you.

2. Where do I go from here?
Plan spiritual dolphin trips with the facilitators you are thinking about and that will come to you. We'll take care of the rest. Start writing your book.

3. How can I do the most good for this world and best serve God?
Do the web site you have been thinking about. Tell others about the Universal Laws you have learned and how you have used them for the highest good for all. Tell them of the miracles you have seen. Write the book you have been thinking about and taking notes for. We have been sending you ideas, be sure to write them down.

4. Is there a spiritual significance to the blonde streak in my hair?
I hear laughter as I ask this question. "We know you were embarrassed to ask this question because you felt it was vain, but we are glad you asked. Yes, you are spotted, like the spotted dolphin, marked to remind you who you are so even when you go through dark times, somewhere inside you, when you look in the mirror, you will remember the path you have chosen for this lifetime. We need you to carry out our work and we couldn't let you stray too far as you learned your life lessons. Your unique blonde streak is a kiss from Spirit."
I don't trust these answers too much because I feel they are dolphin slanted. However, they came through pretty clear. I am still too high from the trip, and have "dolphin brain", I'm going to have to check it out with Sharon when I get home. Could it really be that I am meant to take others on dolphin swims? Could that be my life path? Could life possibly be that grand? As I looked out onto the beautiful Atlantic Ocean, I decided that, yes, life can and will be everything I want it to be!

June 22, 1997 - Angkh and I stopped at the Dolphin Research Center on Grassy Key. When we walked out to where the tour starts, there was a dolphin swimming along the line of people. I watched as she looked each and every person in the eye as she slowly swam by, sometimes stopping and staring. I sent her the white light of love from my soul and to all the dolphins at the Center. I connected with her and she told me, "While no dolphins should be kept captive, we understand that a center such as this can save our lives because it helps people to become aware. We long for the day when such a center is not needed, and it is coming. I look each person in the eye and into their souls and search for the good in them and bring it out so they will learn to love all that is. I make a connection with people so that they will respect and protect my kind and the ocean. I love the children, they give us all hope for our future. I love meeting them! We here know where you have been and thank you for bringing that energy and message here to us. Have fun!"

I later found out that Marina is pregnant. The tour started and the dolphins in this pen performed various "tricks." What I liked is that two of the dolphins had babies with them and the staff did not ask them to perform or even interact with us, but they did anyway! They work with autistic and otherwise handicapped children here and I feel that the dolphins really enjoy that work. After swimming with dolphins in the wild, I am the last person to want to see them in a place such as this, but if they have to be held captive, I think Dolphin Research Center is an okay place.
We walked around to various "pens" where different dolphins were kept together for different reasons. These dolphins were not asked to perform, but did anyway and the tour guide could not stop laughing. I was standing in front of two volunteers and I heard them commenting how silly and playful the dolphins were being today and how great it was. Angkh and I sent love to all the dolphins and we received a lot back! After the tour was over, the guide said that she had been giving these tours for 1 and 1/2 years and this was the best tour she had ever given! Angkh and I knew why, they had put on a special show for us!

We stayed on Sugarloaf Key, too many mosquitoes here!

June 23, 1997 - Key West. Tonight we went on a snorkeling/sunset cruise on a catamaran. The snorkeling was incredible, we went to a reef where there were tons of beautiful fish. On the way back, as we watched the sunset, a twister touched down to the ocean next to the sun on the horizon. That was awesome!

We set up camp at a campground right in town and hit the night life of Key West. It was pretty hopping for a Tuesday night, lots of good music.

June 24, 1997 - We went out on a sailboat called "The Danger" today for a three hour tour (seriously). First we stopped at an uninhabitable key and got in the kayaks and paddled right through the middle! We saw lots of nurse sharks and other fish. We got caught in a storm, I thought it was great! We went to another wreck to snorkel, it was okay, not the best place I've been.
On the way to find a place to stay for the night, we stopped at Big Pine Key to see the dwarf deer that live there. The brochures all say to go at dawn or dusk, the deer sleep during the day, so I was a little annoyed (and very tired) when Angkh said she wanted to pull off and try to see deer. She turned onto an unpaved road and I took a deep breath to relax. Just a little way down the road Angkh said, "I smell sweetgrass burning" and so did I. We drove a little further...and found a fire! We backed out and went back to where we had seen the Ranger Station. I ran to the door but it was locked, so I pounded on it. A ranger finally came and I told him where the fire was. Anghk and I drove back so as to direct people where to go. The ranger came racing by on his radio, soon a fire truck and police were there. The police asked us if we had seen anyone, that they think it is young kids. We hadn't. The ranger thanked us for finding the fire and reporting it.

I learned a good lesson because if I had had my way, we never would have gone down that street and maybe a lot more deer habitat would have been burned. Oh yes, I am humbled!
We then stopped at Hawk's Cay Resort because there was a sign that said "dolphin facility" on the road. What we found there I hope I never have to see again. These are dolphins that are not happy at all. They hardly move. They told me that they constantly leave their bodies and go to other dimensions, because that is the only way they can stay living. Their bodies are empty shells, they said, and it looked like it too! "We are here for profit and greed. The one who takes care of us, she truly loves us, but it is not enough." I just wanted to get out of there and so did they!

Since I have to be at the airport by 1:00 tomorrow, we drove out of the Keys and stayed at a motel. Thank you, thank you, thank you! I didn't come prepared to camp and I was ready for a real pillow!!!

June 25, 1997 - It was sad to leave the dolphins , the Bahamas and Anghk behind but I was ready to go home now. As I was walking off the plane, talking about dolphins to someone, a lady turned around and I saw the dreamy dolphin look in her eyes. She smiled and showed me her dolphin necklace, similar to mine. We started comparing jewelry and we had several similar dolphin pieces! She had just gotten back from a four day trip off of Key West. She said that the pod of dolphins that came everyday was very familiar with the captain and the boat, they had been working together for 10 years. At first I was so bummed, because if I had known about this place while I was on Key West, I would have gone, but then I realized that this was just another sign that I was meant to go back again.

Seeing the redwoods again made me happy, but getting home was so strange. I still felt disconnected from my animals. When I drove up, the dogs, cats, birds, etc. all wanted my attention at the same time and my ex-boyfriend was waiting on my doorstep. I felt like I was going to overload and explode! I asked the animals (including my ex) to please lay back for a while and let me get used to being home again. Luckily, they all understood and gave me my space.
When I checked the mail, there was a letter from Sapphire on beautiful dolphin stationary. It was so great to have that connection to the trip so soon after getting home.

Jacques Cousteau died today. How strange that he left this world on the day I got back from learning about his world.

When I got into bed, I remembered the dolphins I had seen swirling above it during the transmission from the baby dolphin. Just then, Kisa, my beautiful black cat, looked up and all around my bed and told me that she saw them too! Yeah, the dolphins are here!

June 27, 1997 - I got the pictures back from the trip. I have some incredible shots of dolphins! As I was putting the photos into an album and totally re-living the trip in dolphin dream state, Penelope called. She said that more dolphin trips are being planned!

July 1, 1997 - I finally talked to Sharon Callahan today for our "dolphin debriefing". I told her all about the trip and the answers the dolphins had given me to my life questions. She got in touch with the dolphins and told me that I was right on with all the answers, except that I missed some things. I am meant to do dolphin trips and that is one of my next steps, but not to limit myself to that. "Yes, the dolphin swims are a good direction, but the real goal is union with God and to help people experience that through animals. You are headed in the right direction, but keep reminding yourself that it is only a step. Anything that you can imagine, it's not the total picture...it's bigger and better than that!" The dolphins also told me not to forget to bring it all back to myself. Not to forget that by expanding my own spiritual development, I am helping others.

"The book seems to be a dominating thing. You will open up a huge number of people to other realms that might have never gotten this information elsewhere." She said that I was totally correct with the information I got about my blonde streak. Cool!

I told her that I didn't feel as connected with my own animals since I got back. "You probably never will. Something has been freed in you that needed to be freed. While it may be a little hard on them at first, they understand the shift in you and would never hold you back from your life path. While you will always need to come back to the redwoods to ground yourself, I see you doing a lot of traveling and your life will be totally different."

Wow, that's a lot to think about. I remember Marilyn, another spiritual advisor of mine, told me a few months ago that I would soon meet a man, give up my animals and go traveling with him. At the time, I thought she was totally off, but now, while I don't think I could ever give up all my animals, I feel an opening that wasn't there before. I never wanted to travel, and now I do! But where's the man??!?

When I said "Before I die, I will swim with dolphins," I didn't know how true that statement would prove to be. A big part of me did die somewhere out there in the Bahamas, but something else has been born and I can't wait to live it out! The dolphins have given me so much; body, soul, mind and spirit. I know I will be back soon to see them in their beautiful home and I hope some of you will be with me!

PART II – TOUCHED BY DOLPHINS
So much has happened since my first dolphin swim in June of 1997! (See Circle of Dolphins) After returning home from that trip, I knew that everything had changed and my life with the dolphins was only beginning. I immediately began to organize dolphin swims so that I could take others out to meet the wild dolphins of the Bahamas and let them experience the spiritual growth, joy and love that the dolphins had given me.

After returning from the dolphin trips in December that I had organized, I felt so empty because I wanted to be with the dolphins and in the Bahamas again. I watched the movie Zuess and Roxanne, about a dolphin and a dog, which was filmed in the Bahamas, and when I saw that turquoise water and the dolphins, I began to cry, actually sob, from a very deep place. The dolphins were calling me!!! I didn't know how or where, but I knew that I would soon be moving, and started to get rid of things I didn't need. "If you lived in the Bahamas, would you need this?" I kept asking myself, which made it very easy to go through and sort out the unnecessary items. I wondered how I would feel leaving the beautiful redwood forest and creek that I now lived on. "You can always visit the redwoods, just like you now visit the dolphins," my friend Susan told me.

I had become good friends with the owner and captain of the boat I had used for some dolphin swims, and met with him in Florida on my way back from swimming with the whales in the Dominican Republic. "You need an assistant," I told him at dinner, in a joking way, but not really joking! After returning from the whale swim, I was even more determined to move and continued to dispose of unneeded items. I gave two and one half months notice at my job as a paralegal, telling them that in May I would be gone for five weeks to the Bahamas, and that I would move soon after returning.

Wow, I was really going to do it!! I had given notice at my job, even if it was a very long notice. As soon as I had made the commitment in my mind and actually gave notice, Geoff called that very day and said, "Let's get you moved out here as soon as possible and you will be my assistant." I told my boss that I was now giving a two week notice, and less if possible!!! My last day of work in an office was on my birthday, March 26, 1998.

On April 1, 1998, within 4 weeks of returning from the whale trip, I had all my belongings (what was left of them), my four cats, wolf dog and Greenwing Macaw packed into a Ryder truck, towing my car behind, and drove from California to Florida to start my new life. I had lived in California since I was born, my friends and family are there, but I knew my path was now in Florida and the Bahamas.

As I drove across the country, I thought about the dolphins and all that had happened in the past year. The dolphins had taught me to only do things that bring me joy. To "go with the flow" and to "ride the waves." You can fight or you can flow. If you are listening to life's messages and following your divine path, life becomes easy and effortless. If you choose to ignore the path that has been given to you, life can become a real struggle. And I was definitely on my path, because everything had just flowed into place, with little effort on my part. Of course, I always say affirmations and write down, very specifically, what I'd like to manifest in my life. This I had first learned from my friend Marilyn Umbach. My favorite affirmation is: "The Divine Plan of my life is manifesting for me now, quickly and in peace, Thank You ,Thank You, Thank You!!" When I say this affirmation, things can change very quickly, like jobs, living arrangements, relationships, etc. If nothing at all happens, I know I am on my path!! I had said this affirmation a lot during the past months as well as making specific lists of what I would like to manifest. Now it was all coming to pass!

I arrived in Florida, got settled in, and got ready for the first dolphin swim of the season. I had gone on several other dolphin swims during the past year, some organized by me, and some organized by others. I couldn't get enough! Every trip was special and amazing in its own way. I could write extensively about each trip, however, this is about my one year anniversary trip in June 1998.

I had been excited about the Summer Solstice trip as soon as I had started organizing it. It was during the Solstice, several of my good friends were coming, it was my one year dolphin anniversary and it was on the same boat that my first trip had been on. (I am now working with Geoff, but this boat is very special to me, for obvious reasons!)

Before this trip began, I had two other dolphin trips that I had organized in May. Both of these trips were totally amazing, with incredible encounters with the dolphins. It was sooooo great to be out with the dolphins again after a several month hiatis. (We do not conduct dolphin swims during the months of January-April due to weather) Again, every participant went home touched by the dolphins, feeling as if their lives had been changed forever. This made me feel so good, because I knew that I was doing what I have always wanted to do, have a positive affect on people's lives, and what a way to do it! Of course, the dolphins were doing the major work, I was only getting people there, but I still feel really good about it!!

We had a much needed eight day break before the Summer Solstice trip began. My friends, Danielle and Terry from California came in the day before the trip started, and we went out for lunch. Terry told me about some psychic experiences he was having the week before the trip and Danielle also mentioned that she felt her psychic powers were hightened. I know this well. It always happens to me before the trips and it was fun to hear about it from my friends.
The next day we went to the hotel to meet the other participants, including my good friend Sherri, whom I had met since moving to Florida. As with my first dolphin trip, upon seeing the group, I felt as if I had met many of them before, and Danielle and Terry mentioned the same thing. At our meeting at the hotel pool, I told everyone what to expect and answered their questions, and make sure everyone knew what time to meet in the lobby the next morning. Again, for this dolphin swim, I kept a journal and so following are my entries from my journal. I again brought my Medicine Woman cards with me, so the cards that I picked are included also.

June 14, 1998 - (Evening, in my hotel room) The first dolphin trip this year was pretty intense for me, the second so light, I feel as if this trip will be the balancing trip for me. We went to dinner at the hotel, and had our group meeting. Right before I went to bed, Sherri and I each chose a Medicine Woman card. These cards are so amazing because the card that I chose was Balance.

Balance - "The Restoration of Nature's Balance" - Divine justice works within me, eliminating all that is unnecessary from my thoughts and granting to me all that is good. I walk in balance, knowing Earth's Care. Indeed this trip was about Balance!!! The cards suggested that for the next week, every time I had a negative thought to change it into a positive one. Sort of a mental diet. Since I believe you create your life with your thoughts, this would be a very good exercise for me! It is time to shed the things that do not promote my growth, getting my life into balance. I kept getting an image of my arms open wide, embracing the earth. "Open your arms, open your heart and open your eyes. Embrace it all!" I heard in my mind as I saw the image.

June 15, 1998 - We all loaded up into the hotel vans to go to the boat. I was so happy to be with my good friends, and soon to be good friends! When we drove up and saw the BottomTime II, my heart sang! We boarded the boat at Port Everglades, filled out the necessary paperwork and we were off to Bimini! The ride across (it is about 50 miles) took about 2 1/2 hours and it was a very smooth ride. We docked in Bimini to go through customs, and then we were off to the dolphin grounds. The plan was to let everyone get into the water so that KAZ, the divemaster on the boat, could check out everyone's snorkeling skills and give instruction to those who needed it. But, the dolphins had other plans for us. No sooner did we enter the area where dolphins hang out, there they were. "DOLPHINS!" I jumped into the water for our first of many encounters this week.

We swam with a mom and dolphin baby for more than an hour, and then were joined by three other pairs of dolphins for another hour and a half. It was fun to watch my friends (old and new) swim with dolphins for the first time! Everyone was so excited as the dolphins weaved their magic in and out of the people in the water. The dolphins were spreading love, staying together in pairs and opening hearts for the coming week.

I had an amazing encounter today. Two dolphins were vertical, heads up toward the surface, in the water below me. I dove straight down to them so that we were head to head and they both started to zap me with their sonar. I felt their sonar go through my body and I felt as if they were doing some kind of cell restructuring on me, as well as helping me to release mental and emotional blocks that were holding me back from being all I can be. Instantaneously. Wow!
In the past few weeks out here, we have seen this vertical stance over and over with the dolphins. Were they just trying to imitate us, or was there more to it? I felt there was more to it, I just didn't understand it yet.

Resources - "I am a resource of the eternally creating and sustaining Spirit of Life. All that I need to carry out the divine plan is before me. I refuse to give my attention to things that limit me or deny my wholeness. To all life I am connected. I let go of those things that I no longer value, keeping that which I love and for which I can care. These things bring me comfort, support and help according to their purpose."

June 16, 1998 - Talk about an incredible encounter!!! We were all swimming with several dolphins. Sherri and I were about three feet apart from each other, and a dolphin came up between us, in the vertical position, and stayed there, totally still, only raising himself out of the water enough to catch a breath, and then drop back down. He stayed like this with us for several minutes until someone swam up to us and he left. Sherri and I felt lost in time and space, it was such a quiet, peaceful moment with this dolphin. He was looking at both of us, totally trusting and full of love. The dolphins are all about love!! We watched over and over as the dolphins rubbed up against each other and would touch fins as they swam around. They are constantly touching and caressing each other, and it is so beautiful to be in the water with them and feel the love that they have for each other and for all.

Ten of Pipes - Coming Home: Your life has been a series of adventures. You have earned health and a wealth of experience. Now you come home to rest and integrate the many experiences you have collected. You are full of ideas, so many you may not know where to begin to implement them all. You want to give back to the world, to each others, to pass on your knowledge accumulated so far.

June 17, 1998 - ONE YEAR DOLPHIN ANNIVERSARY! Today it has been exactly one year since the first time I swam with wild dolphins. I awoke at about 5:00 am to thunder and rain hitting hard on the porthole in my cabin. I went outside to watch the storm, and there was Danielle, Terry and Sherri. I am so glad that they are here with me on this trip! The lightening was exciting to watch and we all sat in silence marveling at the power of nature. I felt as if the storm was washing away all residues of unwanted mental baggage we were carrying in order to prepare us for another intense encounter with the dolphins. After about an hour, the skies cleared until all that was left were a few clouds and a spectacular rainbow that carried intense colors from violet to bright yellow. And it stayed in the sky for a very long time, long after the rain was gone. What a great start to what I knew would be a most powerful day!

Out here where the dolphins are wild, we can never guarantee that we will see them, but I wanted so much to have a great connection today, on our anniversary. At about 3:00 pm (many times out here in Bimini we don't see the dolphins until later in the afternoon) two dolphins appeared and we got into the water with them. They swam around us, as if to check us out, and then left, only returning a few moments later with more of their friends. Many times we find that "scout dolphins" will check out our group and upon finding that we are "okay", will bring back more dolphins. Soon we found ourselves surrounded by 13 dolphins!!! We all had incredible encounters today, with lots of eye contact, I love all the diving and turning and playful things the dolphins do with me, but one of my favorite things is when two more more dolphins just let me slowly swim with them, near the surface, a dolphin on each side of me, like I am part of their pod. I just LOVE that!! That happened several times today and since there were so many dolphins, everyone got lots of one on one contact with the dolphins. I found myself once again moved to tears as the dolphins weaved their love, joy and magic through our group.

I had a deep feeling that some of these dolphins were the same ones who had swam with us last year during my first dolphin swim, but I wasn't sure if that could be since we were in a different area now. But I kept hearing over and over in my mind, "These are the same dolphins, these are the same dolphins, they've come to be with us on our anniversary !" Since I have been out here so much this year, I am starting to recognize some of the dolphins, and they definitely know me now. So I was thinking that maybe it was just the recognition of dolphins from the past weeks.... but no, while there were some of the dolphins here that we had been swimming with this summer, there were some new ones, ones that I also felt familiar with. During this encounter, which lasted an hour and a half, I felt intense feelings of joy, bliss, release, peacefulness and contentment and so at one with the universe!! Once again, I cried tears of pure joy, as I felt so at home here in the beautiful turquoise water with my new and old friends, human and dolphin alike.

Another thing that is so wonderful, is that when you are swimming with the dolphins, they will swim past you, with their eyes half closed in a peaceful bliss. I always feel so loved and trusted when they do this, and it has happened over and over on this trip!

When I got out of the water, I told Penelope Smith (the animal communicator who was co-facilitating the trip with me), that I thought that some of the dolphins were the same ones from last year. She told me that while some of us were still in the water with the dolphins, she had gotten out and walked to the bow of the boat to watch us and talk to the dolphins. She said that one of the mother dolphins looked up at her and referring to her baby said, "Don't you know who this is?" It was the same baby, now more than a year old, who had swam with us during that first dolphin swim and who had given us that beautiful message about cleaning up the oceans. (See Circle of Dolphins for the original message from the baby dolphin). So Penelope had gotten the same thing, that many of these dolphins were the same ones from our first dolphin swim, including the master baby dolphin!!

When we went to dinner that evening, I asked Stuart (our captain), how far dolphins traveled and if they ever see the same dolphins here in Bimini that they see in White Sands Ridge (where our first trip took place). He told us that indeed the dolphins traveled between the two places and that they have seen dolphins from White Sands Ridge here in Bimini, which I already knew from our encounter today, but somehow I wanted it verified. Wow, talk about an anniversary swim, it was a reunion!!!

Thank you, dolphins, for all that you have given us. Thank you for changing my life and all the wonderful things that you have brought me. Thank you for everything you have given me. This has been an amazing journey, and I know it has only just begun!

Five of Pipes - Allure Through Opposition: It is now time to go out into the world and share my dream, to give myself to my people. I know this is a challenging time when my life could be altered by the will of others. My ideas will be up for scrutiny by those I want to please. So, Great Spirit, I accept the courage to face the world with that which you have given me. I accept the wisdom to know how to expose your divine nature within me to those who have eyes to see. I am strong in my commitment that the essence of my vision will remain true to that which you have inspired me to do. I will lure the world to its divinity by the nature of love you have given me. I will call the unknown, the strength and beauty ever-present within me. Your breath, your life will pass through me, and I will be at my best.

June 18, 1998- Another beautiful day in paradise! I relaxed a lot today, taking in all that had happened yesterday. In the Bahamas, it is usually the Atlantic Spotted Dolphins that we swim with, although there are many Bottlenose Dolphins in the area. Bottlenose dolphins are the most common dolphins you see in captivity, Flipper was a Bottlenose. The Bottlenose tend to shy away from the boats, and usually disappear if you try to get into the water with them. My theory, which is shared by many others, is that so many Bottlenose have been taken from this area for places like Sea World and other captive aquarium settings, that the Bottlenose are distrustful of humans. (Just as you and I would be if someone had taken family members away for their own profit). However, in the past couple of years, the Bottlenose seem to be taking more of an interest in us, and have been playing at the bow of our boats longer and there have even been a few close encounters with them. So, when we came across a pod of five Bottlenose, Stuart asked me if I wanted to give it a try. "Oh yes," I told him! Stuart, (with the underwater video camara) four others and I got into the water to see what the Bottlenose would do. While at first they hardly seemed to notice us, they didn't swim away and continued on with what they were doing, (mostly caressing each other and having sex. As Stuart said, "Look, Mr. Wiggly is out!) The Bottlenose are bigger than the Spotted Dolphins and their sonar is a higher pitch. As we hung out with the Bottlenose, they got closer and closer to us, and one of them in particular, swam very close to us, looking right at me and using his sonar. I was so excited at the honor of swimming with wild Bottlenose. I feel that in the future, we will be having much closer contact with them, and I can't wait!! They are so amazingly beautiful and I feel that a healing is taking place between the Bottlenose and the Humans.

Six of Stones - Restoring Balance. "As I am a steward of wealth, I am also guardian of the balance of wealth and must share where sharing seems right. I cannot forget the hard times that I have experienced and the help that came to me when I needed it most. I, too, will give to others whom I perceive to be in need of what I offer. As I teach my skills and share my creations, an inner balance is felt and I am at peace."

As I read this card, I thought about the Bottlenose, and how we are trying once again to restore a balance with them. I feel like we owe them so much, as they have brought dolphins into the consciousness of the world, and we need to give back to them!

June 19, 1998 - Since I am studying to get my captain's license, I went up to the wheelhouse and asked Stuart if I could drive the boat for a while. He pointed me in the direction of where the dolphins are, and I steered us on. It was about 10:00 am, a time we don't normally see many dolphins. I looked over to the port (left) side of the boat, and saw two dolphins jumping out of the water. "Dolphins!" I told Stuart, as I handed over the controls so I could go downstairs and get ready to get in with them. We jumped in and this is when I had my most incredible encounter to date. I saw a very large female dolphin, whom we had swam with earlier in the week and in the weeks before. We looked at each other and connected, from about 15 feet away. At the same moment, we swam towards each other, until we were less than a foot apart, nose to nose and eyes to eyes, and stayed that way, totally still, totally taking each other in and connecting on a very deep level. She was using her sonar on me, and I was totally lost in another dimension, with no conciousness of what was going on around me, there was only me and her in that moment. We stayed like that, perfectly still, until I had to go up and breath, (sometimes I hate when I have to breath!) I felt as if I could have stayed like that, just the two of us, forever. Later, others who had watched this encounter said that it had touched them on a very deep level too.

One of the things that is really great is that the Bottom Time II and Geoff, the captain I work for, have a very close working relationship out here, and if one boat finds dolphins and the other boat hasn't seen any, we call them over to share dolphins. Since we had been swimming with dolphins all morning and Geoff's boat hadn't seen any yet, we called them over. We all got in the water together and several dolphins swam with us. It was so great for me to see my two favorite captains, Geoff and Stuart in the water together. It was a very special connection for me, and for them too, since they had never actually gotten into the water together!

Three of Arrows - Listen to Your Heart: "I have all the information I need to come to my senses by paying attention to what is before me. I see that the world gives me whatever is needed if I simply open my eyes and ears. The world is giving my constant feedback on the thoughts I hold in my mind. It provides clues to where I might find what I am looking for. I pause. I listen. I follow my heart. Grandmother, guide me with the star-bright shine of your timeless way. I seek to bring plenty to my people. Your thoughts must travel through your heart. If your action began with attunement to the "I am" mind of the all-perfect universe, then what is coming to you now should be plenty of what you want. "

This card is very appropriate for me because when I write down things I want to manifest, I start many of my sentences with "I am....such as 'I am on the September dolphin swim.....I am living in the house at 123 Dolphin Street....I am with my soul mate...etc., etc. Writing things down as if I already have them is a very powerful practice, which I use to manifest things in my life. It sends messages out into the universe, as well as to your subconscious mind. You then add visualization, visualizing things as if you already have/are them. I believe you can create anything you want in your life with your mind. That's why it is so important to be choosy about what you think about!

June 20, 1998 - Today we visited the Atlantis Wall, also known as "The Bimini Road." It is a series of stones, similar in shape, that many people feel is the sunken land of Atlantis. I have been here many times, but today, more than ever, it seemed so alive!! I swam with a sea turtle (that was so very cool!) and connected with many of the fish that live there. I was swimming with Sherri and noticed that she, like me, seemed to be able to stay under water much longer here. I noticed that I was able to just hang out at the bottom for long periods of time, hardly thinking about taking a breath. When I talked to Sherri afterwards, she said that she felt that she was getting oxygen from her whole body, and I felt the same way. I love snorkeling here and look forward to my next visit to this magic place! We saw dolphins today, but we never got in the water with them, they had other things on their mind! Lots of lightening tonight, it was great sitting out on the deck with my friends listening to good music and watching the sky come alive!

Ace of Stones - Seed of Prosperity: Great Spirit, I accept your offering. I am thankful for these material gifts you place before me so abundantly. Mother Earth provides all that I need. The gifts of my ancestors lie within her arms. Your crystal of inspiration calls me to create from the wealth that surrounds me. The Grandmothers and Grandfathers have given their life and consciousness to Earth for us. This is why the mountains and plains are sacred. The native people ARE the land. Others died that we may live. The Earth is alive with their consciousness. Open your eyes and receive the gift of true understanding from which abundance comes. Prosperity is formed of right relationship to Earth. Open yourself to becoming aware of the wealth of resources surrounding you. Life is everywhere at your command."

June 21, 1998 - SUMMER SOLSTICE - Wow! Today we swam with about 40 dolphins!! It was starting to get late, and I was beginning to think that we might not see dolphins today, on the solstice. We started to slowly head in to where we dock when the call came out, "DOLPHINS!!". We got into the water with about 20 dolphins. I had bought a bright red scarf in Bimini and brought it into the water with me. I swam around with it to get the dolphins' interest, and then let it go. Four dolphins went after it, and one grabbed it in his mouth. He swam around with it with other dolphins following him, and I followed after, trying to get it back. I almost got it, but the dolphin, in the most graceful way, let go of the scarf and caught it on his pec fin. As another dolphin tried to get it from him, he again let the scarf flow back to his tail. I know they practice this with seaweed, and it was so beautiful and amazing to watch! I finally got the scarf back, and as I swam around with it, about 10 dolphins followed after me to get it back. I let it go again, and two dolphins got each end, and swam with the scarf in between them. Wow! One of the dolphins took it and swam around with it with me in tow, trying to get it back again. In all, I got it back 4-5 times, but I know it was only because they let me!! What fun to play this game with the dolphins!!!! While this was going on, a group of another 20 dolphins were under our boat, and swam under us as we played. They finally took the scarf away for the last time, and swam away with it, laughing. They continued to play with it as they swam away, sometimes flinging it into the air. I wouldn't be surprised if one of these days I see that scarf again! While most of our other swims had been slow, peaceful and deep, this encounter with the dolphins was definitely about FUN and PLAY!!!

After we had swam with the dolphins for about an hour and a half, we got out and went to the bow of the boat. Our final moments with the dolphins were spent letting them ride on our bow and play with the boat. They rode with us almost all the way back to where we dock our boat, saying goodbye to us, for now!!! I can't think of a better way to end our time with the dolphins, giving back for all they had given us! The sun went down on the longest day of the year, and our hearts were filled with pure joy!

It was our last night and we gathered out on the deck to get personal messages from the dolphins from Penelope Smith. While she spoke to each person individually, the lightening behind her and all around us was some of the most spectacular I have ever seen! Everything was alive and full of incredible energy. As I watched the lightening I felt the power go through me and it put me into a deep trance/sleep. I was awoken because it was my turn for a personal message. Penelope, through the dolphins, told me that I was their beloved sister and they were with me always, guiding me on my path. I went to my cabin and got my journal because I could feel it was a very powerful night for manifestation. I wrote down, in detail, things that I wanted, as if I already had them. I went back upstairs as Penelope was finishing the readings for the others. We all joined hands and connected. The moment we let go, the lightening stopped, and it was gone for the rest of the night. Wow, this has really been an incredibly powerful night. I fell asleep totally content and happy with the world!

Nurturing Lodge of the Bowls - The Fruits of Devotion: "Many things I have been in the world, many roles I have played. Now I rest in the very place where you need me. I know the worldy ways. I have struggled with love and come through smiling. I can tell how each one I have loved has brought me into deeper understanding of you. I see that all of my time has become an ongoing act of devotion to you through all whom I serve. I see that this devotion brings blessings in many forms to my people. Thank you, Grandmother, Grandfather, for the wisdom of your lives you have shared. Enter the lodge of spiritual family and celebrate your lives together. This is the place and time to utilize your stores of nourishment for self and others. Embrace. Be in peace. Reflect. Enjoy."

June 22, 1998 - Time to go home. I know I will be back out here soon, but I also know how everyone else is feeling now as our boat heads back for Ft. Lauderdale. We have all connected with the dolphins and each other on a very deep level, and it is sad to have that end. Just as we entered the port area, a big pod of Bottlenose dolphins were around our boat, and we heard the last call over the speaker of "Dolphins!". Wow, they had come to say goodbye to us, and seemed to say, "See ya again soon!" Again, the Bottlenose were the ambassadors!

We went back to the hotel and said our goodbyes, and off I went to take Sherri home. As soon as I dropped her off, I felt so empty, because I had just left my new pod. But then I went over in my mind the events of the week, and I couldn't help but feel total joy for all that happened, and all the lives that had once again been touched by dolphins.

July 3, 1998 - So much happened on the Solstice trip and it is so great to have Sharon Callahan, my animal communicator/psychic to help me sort through all the messages and meanings. I told Sharon how I have grown so much on a spiritual level and how the dolphins have allowed me to release old emotions, blocks and struggles instantaneously, with joy and no processing and suffering. "Yes," she said. "You are part of the new paradigm, where you can release old karma and emotional baggage just like that. You just have to believe it. Just change your mind. You have a choice to do it through suffering or to do it through joy. You, Sierra, don't like all the traditional processes because you don't need them. There are still people caught in the old paradigm of suffering to grow is a good thing, but it simply isn't necessary anymore." That is why facilitating dolphin swims is so perfect for me, it is transformation without process and done through love, joy and happiness, not to mention fun!

I asked Sharon about the "vertical thing" that the dolphins had been doing. "What I get is that this enables them to bring the divine energy right through their crown chakra. When the dolphins are doing that with you, they are helping you to receive that divine energy. I imagine you can feel that." Of course you can feel that! That is what I was experiencing when the dolphins were vertical under me. "The Earth's heartbeat has changed and the frequency has been stepped up. The dolphins are "tuning you up" so that your frequency matches the Earth's new frequency."

July 18, 1998 - In closing, I would like to thank each and every person who has come out to swim with the wild dolphins. And every person who will come out with us in the future. It can take a lot of courage to do this, because you might be giving up your life as you knew it when you make the commitment to swim with the dolphins. While all in joy and fun, the dolphins are serious about growth, and will call you to take on whatever they feel you can handle. All kinds of people have come out with us, and I never question why any certain person was called to be with the dolphins. I only know that everyone gets exactly what they need, if not right away, sometimes it happens after they get home, or six months later....the dolphins know who needs what when. I am honored to have the dolphins as my teachers and as my partners in transformation, with joy and love, one dolphin swim at a time!

PART III –PARALEGAL TO PARADISE
In August of 1998, in between dolphin trips in the Bahamas, a good friend and I went for a week’s vacation to Costa Rica. I have always been called by Costa Rica, when I was 18 I announced to my parents that I was going to move there. I was told that if I did, I would not be receiving any financial help from them, so that ended that. For the time being, at least.

While traveling around Costa Rica we picked up the Tico Times, an English language weekly newspaper. I began to read it and was amazed when I came across an article about swimming with dolphins in Costa Rica. My heart began to pound. The article talked about how no one was actively running dolphin encounters in Costa Rica and how someone should do it. Could this possibly be a message for me, I thought? What a “coincidence” that this article had come out the very week I was visiting Costa Rica. I had not come to Costa Rica thinking about dolphins, it was a vacation with my friend to see the rainforest. My mind started to roll. The rest of our trip my friend and I entertained the possibilities of conducting dolphin swims in Costa Rica. It was perfect, the seasons were opposite of the Bahamas, I could be swimming with dolphins year round! I could do dolphin swims in the Bahamas May through October, and dolphin swims in Costa Rica November through May, living in Florida and flying around to wherever I had a trip. By the time we flew back to Florida, a plan was in the making.

But before I could leave the airport, something else amazing happened. We were riding in the tram that takes you to the customs area of the airport. I had on a shirt that said, “Salvemos Los Delfines” or “Save the Dolphins” in English. A lady standing directly across from me in the tram asked me, “Where did you get that shirt?” “By Arenal Volcano” I told her. “Do you like dolphins?”, she asked me. “Oh yes, they are my life. I take people to swim with dolphins in the Bahamas.” “Oh, well, my name is Maria del Mar and I am President of the Dolphin Foundation of Costa Rica”, she said. Again my heart began to pound. Again I felt like I was having a déjà vu. My girlfriend looked at me, nodding her head, already used to the miracles that happen to me. I told Maria I was thinking of setting up dolphin encounters in Costa Rica. We exchanged cards. I could not believe it. How was it that while I was thinking of doing something with dolphins in Costa Rica, the president of the Dolphin Foundation of Costa would be standing directly across from me in an airport tram? I then knew that something big was once again happening.

I got back to Florida and started to do some research about areas to conduct dolphin swims in Costa Rica. My idea was to plan a couple of trips there, see how it went, but stay in Florida and continue what I was doing in the Bahamas. But some crazy things started happening.

EVERYTHING all of a sudden seemed to be about Costa Rica. I would turn on the TV and on the news there would be something about Costa Rica. I was listening to the radio, and in the middle of a song, were the words Costa Rica. I know I heard it because my friend who was with me heard it too. But the next time we heard this song, the words Costa Rica were not in it. The dolphins were playing tricks on me again. Then my landlord told me that he had lived in Costa Rica. My next door neighbor then told me he had done business in Costa Rica for years and took me to breakfast to tell me about it. Everyday, it seemed, someone mentioned Costa Rica to me. Crazy how the universe works!

My head was spinning. I had only moved to Florida five months earlier. I loved Coconut Grove, as it was a little mini-jungle in the middle of the city complete with Iguanas in the trees and macaws flying over head (escaped from the tourist attraction “Parrot Jungle” during a hurricane). I loved my condo, I loved being able to fly to Bimini to swim with dolphins in 20 minutes. I thought that I was going to stay in Florida for a long, long time. Could it be that my path was to now move to Costa Rica? All the signs seemed to be pointing in that direction. I have learned to follow those signs because they lead me down my divine path and to wonderful things. But where was I to go? I had no idea where there were dolphins, if there were dolphins that would swim with us, if there was a location suitable from which to conduct these encounters….. but I had that good feeling that I would be shown the way, as always. I made the decision that yes, I was going to do it! I was going to move to Costa Rica!!! After the decision was made, no one could stop me, not even my parents who were already sad that I had left California. But they had seen how things had fallen into place for me and were happy that I was so happy.

As soon as I made this decision, I received a telephone call from Maria del Mar, the President of the Dolphin Foundation, asking me to come and work for them. I told her I would love to be a part of it!! Wow, a job too!!!

I made plans to go back to Costa Rica the following month to look for “my spot”. I went alone, but made plans to travel part of the way through Costa Rica with a friend I had met through Maria del Mar. We rented a car and drove up the Pacific side of Costa Rica all the way to the border of Nicaragua. We saw lots of great places, even went and saw dolphins in one area, but it didn’t feel right. I ended up traveling most of the Pacific Coast during that trip, but went home a bit discouraged, as nothing was coming together.

In the meantime, things between me and my new landlord in Florida were going sour. He hated my animals, especially my cats and my greenwing macaw, TJ, who likewise did not like him and would scream when he pulled up into the driveway. He gave me a month’s notice. I was under pressure now. I didn’t want to move twice, I wanted to go directly to Costa Rica. But I had nowhere to go.

I planned to Costa Rica again the next month, in October 1998 with a good friend of mine from Holland. I wrote a letter in my journal to God:

“Please guide me to the right places. Please guide me to where you want me to live and to where I should be working with you. Please guide me to the right people and the right connections. Please guide me at all times to my true destiny in Costa Rica. I am here to serve you and do whatever you want me to do. I do not depend upon persons or conditions for my prosperity. God is the source of my prosperity and you provide your own channels of supply to me now. I can clearly see that nothing or no one can stand between me and my own. I dissolve in my own mind and in the minds of all others any idea that my own can be withheld from me. That which is for my highest good now comes to me, and in my clear perception of truth, I welcome it! Nothing can oppose my good. No one can oppose my good. I now accomplish great things with ease. My life cannot be limited, my financial income cannot be limited. God in me now frees me from all limitation. I am rich in mind and manifestation now! The home I am seeking is seeking me and the law of good draws us together with love and understanding. Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!”

We planned to go to Costa Rica’s South Pacific, the only place I had not yet been. But some very strange things stopped us from leaving on time. The first thing that happened was when we got to the ticket counter, my passport was nowhere to be found. Somehow, between the car and the counter, it had fallen out of my bag. I was told I could go to Costa Rica with a certified birth certificate, which I had at home. My house was only 20 minutes from the airport, but there was no way we would make it to catch our flight. The flight attendant told us there was a later flight and to come back for that one. We did. This time, we got to the ticket counter and my friend was told that she could not fly to Costa Rica without showing her return ticket to Holland. We had left this at my condo for safe keeping. We were not going to Costa Rica on this day.

That night, I received a call from someone who worked at the airport. She had found my passport in the parking lot. She had not turned it in to security because she said that passports get lost that way, and had brought it home with her. There was no way for me to get it before the morning, but I had my birth certificate, so it didn’t matter. I made arrangements with her to pick it up when I got back.

We tried again the next morning, stating that if we weren’t able to board the plane, we were not going. We got through just fine. I do not know why we were delayed in this way, I can only think that perhaps it was so that I would meet someone I was supposed to meet or because of bad weather…..I still do not know for sure. But I know that everything happens for a reason and I do not question why.

We first went to the Golfo Dulce, which was beautiful. There were lots of dolphins there, we were told, but the weather was too rough to go out and see them. It still didn’t feel right. I didn’t have that “go for it” feeling at all.

We headed out for our last stop, Drake Bay. I was feeling a bit desperate. I had to be out of my condo in one month. Nothing had felt like it was the right place. During our travels, Hurricane Mitch had arrived in Costa Rica, so when we arrived in Drake Bay, I had no idea what it was like because we were so wet and cold all I could think about was getting dry. We never did get out on the ocean that trip, but one of the local guides told me that there were lots of dolphins in the area….. I don’t know why but this light went on in my head. I JUST KNEW THIS WAS IT!!
I asked about rentals in the area and was taken to a couple of places that weren’t my style. I asked about rent and found out that my guide was taking me to places that rented for about $100 a month, no wonder! I said we could raise that a bit…..and then he took me to another property. He explained that the owner lived in Canada and that he had a caretaker there. It was pouring rain as we went. When we got there, we slipped and slided up the hill to a blue tarp enrobed house. We went inside to find the place in a total mess. But I saw the potential…..10 acres, on a point, in the rainforest with an ocean view on three sides. WOW WOW WOW!!!
At the house, along with other locals, was this very cute guy who had a dolphin earring in his ear. He said his name was Villa (pronounced Veeya). He said he liked my dolphin jewelry too and I told him (in my limited Spanish, I still had only one semester of Spanish in seventh grade at this point) that I had lost a lot of dolphin jewelry in the ocean. He said he had too.

We left Drake Bay and Costa Rica and when I got back to the States, I called the owner of the property to see if he wanted to rent the property and for how much. I almost fell out of my car (I was driving my friend to the airport at the time) when he said he would rent it for $500 a month. I was expecting at least $1,000!!! So, we made up a rental agreement and it was finalized.

Oh my God, I was really moving to Costa Rica!!!! Now came all the arrangements on how to get me, my stuff, and my animals into the country……but that all went very smoothly. I made arrangements to live in Escazu for the first month (a suburb of the capital, San Jose) so that I could get bank accounts, make some connections and wait for my rental agreement to start in December.

First, I needed to sell a lot of stuff. I wrote in my journal:
My belongings are sold to the right people at the right price. All things are sold with ease. I release all belongings to their highest good. All belongings go to their rightful owners. They belong to somebody else now.

On November 30, 1998, only three months after my first visit to Costa Rica, I left Florida to start my next new life. I had written my journal:

The plane is on time. My belongings and animals arrive safely and undamaged. Customs waives us right through. There are no problems of any kind.

And that is exactly how it happened! Everything arrived safely and undamaged, I never got stopped even for a minute in Customs even though I was importing a greenwing macaw. It all went smoothly and perfectly!

We settled into our temporary home in Escazu. I went about the business I had to do, one of which was to get an analog cellular line. Because Drake Bay is so remote, only the three watt bag phones (the ones that were used when cell phones first came out) would work properly, and they are analog. I had purchased the analog phone while still in Florida, but was warned by the salesperson, “You will never be able to get an analog line in Costa Rica. They do not give them out anymore as everything is now digital.” I went to the phone company in Costa Rica. I was told, “You will not be able to get a analog line, we do not give them out anymore.” I went home and wrote in my journal, “I have an analog line. There are no problems getting this analog line.” The next day I went back to the phone company and asked to talk to a manager. I brought my brochure with me and spoke to a very nice man. I told him we were doing research on dolphins and whales in Drake Bay and an analog line was very important. In five minutes I had an official letter stating that I was allowed to have an analog line and brought it up to the front desk and waaaalaaaa, I had an analog line. NEVER tell me NEVER!!!!

I was about two weeks away from moving to Drake Bay when I got a call from the owner of the property. Someone had made an offer on the property and he was going to sell it!!!! What was I going to do? Here I was thinking I was moving in two weeks, in a temporary house with five animals!!! If I wanted to live on this property, I was going to have to buy it, but with what money????? I was in a temporary panic, the kind that I forget all I know on how to manifest things. But it didn’t last long and I got to writing in my journal:

I own the property. There are no problems with the purchase of this property. I have all the finances I need to purchase this property. I am a rich child of God and am completely provided for. If this property is mine by divine right, I have it. I cannot do this by myself but God can and is creating miracles here and now. Thank you! Thank you! Thank You!

The next day, I went to the attorney’s office who was handling the sale. I brought a letter of my intention to buy with a payment schedule. And I also brought all my pictures of dolphins. I explained to him what I wanted to do with the property. He said he would talk to the owner. I had a very anxious day waiting to hear. Finally I got the call from the attorney. “We are going to sell the property to you, Sierra.” “Why?” I asked. “Because of the dolphins. We like what you want to do with the property,” he told me. Wow!!! The dolphins did it again.

However, the excitement was short lived as the following day the attorney called me again to say that the other potential buyer was very upset because he had given the attorney a check first and he wanted the chance to come up with a higher offer. I told the attorney that I wasn’t going to get in a bidding war, I couldn’t, and that my offer stood. I hung up the phone and prayed. And of course, wrote in my journal:

“God is my attorney. I call upon the Law of Divine Justice. God makes a way where human sense says there is no way. I bless the situation. I bless the other buyer. If this property is mine by divine right, I have it. The divine plan of my life is manifesting for me now quickly and in peace, Thank You Thank You Thank You!

The next day the attorney called to say that even though the other buyer had made an offer $10,000 more than mine, the owner still wanted to sell to me because my payment schedule was more workable for him. I hung up the phone and cried. Once again, God had created miracles for me, just because I had asked and trusted!!!!!

Someone I have not mentioned until now is Jerry. Jerry was a captain on one of the boats I was working with in the Bahamas and we became good friends. Jerry lived in the Florida Keys and had lost all his belongings in a recent hurricane. He called me up right before I was leaving for Costa Rica and asked if I needed any help. I was very happy to have Jerry come along with me because it would have been overwhelming to try to start up all by myself. Jerry is still here and is now known as Jerry of all Trades because he can fix or “Jerry Rig” just about everything. Jerry has brought us from not having even any electricity at all, to a well-functioning hotel. He is a true friend.

When we arrived in the late afternoon of December 29, we came across the bay to an amazing purple sunset and I knew I had found my true home. Ten acres of ocean front property, on a point, waves crashing on two sides, and monkeys, toucans, iguanas and all the animals of the Discover Channel in the trees and surrounding jungle I still had never gotten out onto the ocean. But I was running on trust and it had worked so well for me up to this point.

Our initial plan was to run dolphin encounters and have our guests stay at other hotels in the area, which we did for a short time. But Jerry and I found that we really missed “hanging out” with our guests, and didn’t feel we had enough time with them by just going out on the tours. So, we decided to become a small eco lodge. We erected three tents on platforms, and started to bring people to Drake Bay to see the rainforest and dolphins. And learn about running a hotel. We became Delfin Amor (Dolphin Love) Eco Lodge.

I had purchased a small boat to start getting us out on the water. We traveled to different areas looking for dolphins. We saw dolphins every time we went out and eventually discovered a large group of 500 or more. I was in paradise!! In the Bahamas, we always see very small pods of dolphins, sometimes two, sometimes 10, and rarely, 40 or so. But 500!! I had never seen so many dolphins in one place!! I just couldn’t believe what I had magically and effortlessly stepped into. But of course I could believe it, the path had been so magical through all the rapid changes in my life and now, somehow, I found myself surrounded by dolphins! In my front yard!

As we explored the waters surrounding Drake Bay, we came to discover that there are over 25 species of dolphins and whales that live here or pass through. We have the longest season of humpback whales in the world as we get migrations from both North America and South America. We have had the pleasure to meet Orcas, Psuedo Orcas, Pilot Whales, Humpback Whales, Sei Whales, Fin Whales, Rough Tooth Dolphins, Common Dolphins, Spinner Dolphins, Bottlenose Dolphins, Risso’s Dolphins, and of course, our most common friends, the Pantropical Spotted Dolphins. There are thousands of them here!!!!! Within 10 minutes of the property!!

Along with all the dolphins and whales we have discovered, we have also found that there is a lot of commercial fishing in the area. Long lines, shrimpers and the whole dolphin/tuna netting happens here (we are in the Eastern Tropical Pacific, after all). We decided we needed to protect the area and create a marine sanctuary. We talked about becoming a non-profit foundation, but found that it was a very expensive and lengthy process in Costa Rica. But very quickly, magic happened again…..

In April of 2000, we rescued a striped dolphin who was trying to beach herself. I wrote an article about it for a local paper. Several days later, Maria del Mar, the lady who I had met in the tram after my first trip (the President of the Dolphin Foundation of Costa Rica), called me to say that the foundation was falling apart because she couldn’t get anyone to help her. She wanted to GIVE ME the foundation because we were doing such great work. Just like that, we were able to become a non-profit foundation, without the cost and a minimum of paperwork.

I knew then that I was sent here by God and the dolphins and whales to share their divine nature with others. Everything had fallen into place so magically and easily because they want me to help spread their messages of joy and divine ways of being.

I later founded The Vida Marina Foundation and our data collection and participation and publication in scientific conferences has furthered the reality of creating a protected marine area off the Osa Peninsula.

I decided to close Delfin Amor Eco Lodge to the public and on May 1, 2007 because running a hotel was not my true dream, and am presently working to create a wellness center on the property. I am also working on a coffee table book to showcase the beautiful photos they allowed me to take as we connected, and to share their inspired messages with the humans who want to hear them. I am also creating other inspired dolphin and whale projects, and of course once again providing trips to swim with the dolphins of Bimini, Bahamas and the humpback whales of Silver Bank, Dominican Republic.

This has truly been a magical, divine path and I thank God, the Angels above, and the Angels of the Sea for all they have done to make my wildest dreams come true. I am a messenger of nature. I am a messenger of the dolphins and whales in particular. How cool is that? I am truly blessed to share my life with the divine dolphins and whales... and all of you!!

More Lessons from the Dolphins - Welcome to the Human Pod Experience

2011-06-30T05:27:00.000-07:00

I (re)learned an important lesson from the dolphins on my recent trip to Bimini which I know was shown to me at this time for important work I am to do… and who I am to always be for others in my human pod.

The dolphins kept stressing to me that this trip was about the "Human Experience" and while I didn't understand fully at the time, I am getting it more and more as the ripples and waves from this trip gently affect all aspects of my life.

When a dolphin is in a physical crisis, the whole pod surrounds them, lifts them up and swims with them into shallow waters. They don’t tell the dolphin in crises that they created their own reality, their physical pain is not really real anyway, shift NOW and that the rest of the pod shall swim over to their place of high vibration and wait for the injured dolphin to get into vibrational alignment and come to them. They don’t say, "sorry, I held you up yesterday, I need to take care of myself now." No. The dolphins stick with their pod mates until the crises is over, one way or the other. They demonstrate Unselfish Service to their pod mates for the good of the whole pod.

When people are in crises, don’t expect & push them to take quantum leaps into joy & yell from the top of the crest of the wave how good it is at the vibrational top. This creates feelings of helplessness, drowning & even anger because they are not in the place to hear it, they are in survival mode.

Acknowledge where they are and that it’s okay; help them get to a place of feeling safe both physically and emotionally, hold out a hand/fin and help them with loving increments of relief to the shore… actually BECOME the shore for them… including physical support if necessary.

In my human experience, now from both sides of the ocean, compassion, physical support (action) and empathy are always better than speaking law of attractionisms from a distant and disconnected “I’m up here, you are down there” mentality, especially when one is in physical fear.

Although my intentions were always good and I am a very loyal and solid friend, I’ve done this a few times to people I care about and now I see where I was not following my compassionate human/dolphin pod instinct and inner guidance… and I instead did what I had been told is right by outside sources. Sometimes outside sources, especially non physical ones, do not have access to the real human experience. I see through that now. I can hold my vibration no matter what, in no matter what circumstance, and especially when someone needs my help. That's what pod mates do.

I can now see why others sometimes lashed out at me when they were in physical and/or emotional pain. I wasn’t reaching out in a way that could really help during their crises. I didn’t swim them to shore, I left them to paddle on their own. Of course they were flailing about, struggling not to drown, trying to find something floating by to hold on to.

It never really did feel good (duh!) and although I thought I was doing what was right and best for them at the time, I am glad I can see that isn’t who I really am and can permanently shift it now. I will do what I can to get them to level, safe ground and THEN spew my shift your vibration shpeal from where they can hear; from a safe place on shore.

It feels so much better to help someone, to act, AND to “hold the vibrational space.” It’s not one or the other. It’s both. I can stay in my high vibration and still provide physical and emotional support without buying into the fear. I can BE THERE for my human pod, whatever needs to be done, no matter what. Unconditional Love and Service to Others. Like the dolphins in their pods. It works for humans and dolphins alike!!!

I AM one of the pod, after all, the beautiful Human Pod I share this amazing planet with. And I want to be a stellar pod mate to others. This I promise. And so it is.

Amen and thank you, O’ great Universe and dolphins for the reminder, the wake up call, the shifts, the divine and subtle bliss I feel from who I have now become!!

Open Heart Surgery, Dolphin Style

2011-06-30T04:42:00.000-07:00

There is not much I fear in this life. I am a super independent woman living in the remote rainforest, leaping tall vines in a single bound. I am Super Shifter, able to shift so called contrast faster than a speeding locomotive.

But needles? Doctors? Hospitals? Medicine? FEAR!!!!

For this reason, I avoided way too long getting my wisdom teeth pulled. I endured the rush of pain any time I took a cold drink and learned to chew on one side of my mouth to not disturb a very loose tooth. I was more willing to endure pain and inconvenience than go to the dentist and face my fear. The fear of feeling fear and more pain was stronger than the actual pain.

However, the actual pain was growing, even room temperature water now bothered me and I received a vision from the dolphins of diving down with them on my upcoming trip to Bimini and feeling great pain from the pressure. I decided to bite the bullet so to speak and go to the dentist. For the dolphins. For me. I mean, c’mon already; I am Sierra the Super Shifter! I can do this. I can shift my thoughts and this won’t be so bad. Maybe even okay. I made an appointment for two days before my flight to Florida.

I flew into San Jose from Drake Bay and went straight to the dentist. My knees were weak already and I kept taking big breaths. I held on tightly to my Zero Point Energy pendant as they took x-rays. I closed my eyes and turned up my 528 frequency music as they prepped me for the dentist to come in, trying to hold back the dread and fear tears that were wanting to come. Then I felt this woosh of dolphin energy and I thought “Yay, the dolphins are here to help me get through this.” And then I realized that the dentist had just walked into the room and that it was him! I got a dolphin for a dentist!! Thank you, Universe.

I immediately relaxed. He as not only pure dolphin energy, he was HOT. He looked deeply into my eyes… he whispered to me of how it makes him feel to swim with the dolphins… the joy, the ecstasy, the freedom… oh ya baby…yes, yes, yes… he gently told me to open wide… and then he stuck it in, slowly, maybe unsure at first but then harder, faster, with confidence…. yup, he stuck that first big needle into the upper palette of my mouth. Gulp. I seriously don’t think it was as good for me as it was for him.

It’s funny, but it’s not even the actual pain, which stung but wasn’t excruciating, it’s the “idea” of it. The “idea” of needles makes me shutter. And shuttering I was, dolphin doctor or not and the tears started to flow… drip, drip, drip, a steady stream down my face.

Poor guy, he felt so bad, and the thing is, the Novocain was in effect, I wasn’t feeling pain, but, but, but... well, you know, this whole “story” I’ve made up in my mind about doctors and medical procedures and needles. I was in a total “dental breakdown”, right in front of the hot dolphin doctor. But I didn’t care.

I had to learn to shift my thoughts here too, the last frontier of fear.

The oral violation act was finally over and Dr. Dolphin tells me he wants me to take antibiotics for three days because I am going out of the country and I resist that too but he insists. I concede and agree to take them, still a bit miffed that . It’s only three days.

But by now, I’ve done a lot of resisting. I resisted going in the first place, I resisted the procedure with shaking and tears and now I was resisting taking antibiotics but doing it anyway.

Tsk, Tsk, Tsssssk. Law of Duh 101. That’s the worst thing you can do.

You can take the antibiotics and say, “These pills are doing exactly what my body needs them to do in perfect balance and harmony and my body easily and peacefully accepts this medicine,” and take them without resistance.

But my vibration was more like “I hate medicine, these are going to kill all my good bacteria too, this is why I don’t go to doctors, etc. etc. etc., bla bla bla, I don’t like this at all but I’m going to do it anyway.”

Baaaaaad vibration! Mixed Vibration! Split Vibration!

Either take them with joy, or don’t take them with joy… but don’t take them with resistance or not take them and wish you did!! Duh, Sierra. Basic Law of Duh. DO NOT RESIST!! But resist I did. Big time.

I wasn’t leaving for Florida for two days and was invited to stay at a most interesting place in the outskirts of San Jose. After coming in through the metal sliding gates, I was given a tour of the large house decorated in Nouveau Age (a decorating term I made up for that “one altar too many” look) and was told the man of the house was not feeling well for a few days now and they needed to be “clearing the energies.” I could see why. Something about the energy here had me on the edge. It was a strange vibe of the “appearance” and “effort” to be love and light with underlying tones of low vibrations… like someone had sprayed perfume in order to try to cover the smell of a deadly fart. :))

I asked how I could open the gate to get out to the street and was told with a big crooked toothed smile, “You won’t need to leave, just walk around the property.” Rocky Horror Picture Show’s Time Warp starts playing in my head and wonder how did I miss that they have an uncanny resemblance to an older Riff Raff and Magenta?? Damnit Janet!!

I go into my room, close the door, put on high vibing music and talk to high vibing friends. I have NO PAIN from the tooth extraction. My fears were all for nothing. YOU CAN’T TOUCH ME!!

On the second day I am told they are not feeling well due to the “outside energies” and am I okay, do I feel that, am I okay???? And I say that I am feeling pretty darn good, in fact better than I would have thought due to the dental work… and I go to my room and pack my bag as my thoughts are now about clearing my butt out of there during their fourth “clearing of the energies” session since I arrived. As I hear the “I am that I am, I am that I am, I am that I am” chanting coming from the other room once again, I write and post this Facebook status:

If you are standing strong in your high vibration and heart space, no outside influences and energies can affect you and come into your "space." Don't look outside yourself if you are not feeling good. Don't blame others or the "energies" around you. It is only from within, and the vibration that we put out that determines how we feel. In other words, YA CAN'T TOUCH THIS!!! ♥♥

I giggled as I knew they read my Facebook page and joked with my friend Steph over skype that maybe I should lock my door. But a funny thing happened. They both “liked” my status and even commented on it and when I finally braved leaving my room, the energy was totally different, everyone magically felt better and the vibe was much higher. So I stayed.

The next morning their property caretaker drove me to the airport. In the car I started to feel this pressure in my chest and I broke out into a sweat. I felt dizzy. I thought, “OMG they’ve poisoned me because of my Facebook status,” LOL… but wait, seriously, this isn’t going away. Was I being taken to Dr. Frank-N-Furter? Wait, that’s silly, Sierra. You are not playing out Rocky Horror Picture Show. What is going on here???

Maybe my grand plan of Happy, Healthy, Hot, Happy, Healthy Dead is playing out. I have never seen myself getting old. I always kinda planned to come in strong, shine my light as bright as possible and then exit stage left while I still feel great and look good doing it.

But I gave up that plan when my brother died eight years ago and I knew I couldn’t do that to my parents. Not both of us. But maybe I changed my mind too late.

Maybe my years of smoking and yo yo dieting had caught up with me. I thought I had avoided heart and lung damage because of my beliefs and high vibration, but maybe that was a bunch of crap and I was about to pay the price.

We got to the airport and I stepped out of the car. The fresh air helped, I weakly smiled to the driver and went inside. Standing in the ticketing line I felt like I was in the twilight zone. My vision was tunnel-y and strange; I was dizzy, weak, shaky. I called my mom. I knew what I was starting by calling her, she worries for nothing let alone for something like this, but I needed her. I didn’t want to have a heart attack right there in the middle of strangers. I didn’t know what was happening, but I knew that I felt VERY strange and that something was very off.

I got through ticketing and walked in slow motion through security and to the gate. I had to seriously consider going to a hospital and missing my flight. What was the right thing to do? The dolphins won out and I decided to take my chances and at least get to Florida. I was scared and all the fears came up of having a heart attack on the plane and them having to land somewhere… but between Costa Rica and Florida there is mostly just ocean. I had to do it. I prayed. This was VERY new to me. I can overcome any adversity and shift my thoughts, but being fearful for my own life, having my body acting in this way, fearing having a heart attack among strangers was out of my realm of experience. It brought me to my knees. I started talking to my angels, to my Grandmother, to God.

The flight went by quickly and I was feeling a bit better. I got my rental car and drove to Boca Raton and to my friend Christopher. She was very concerned and gave me capsicum liquid concentrate which is great for the heart. It felt good to be with my beautiful sister and our animal family.

I was feeling better and more relaxed now that I was in the United States and with friends. Everything was good and the symptoms seemed to have subsided until about 10 at night when the dizziness and weird feeling came again and I had to go outside and breathe. I decided the best thing to do was to go to sleep and see how I felt in the morning. This was not good. Why was it coming and going? The not knowing what was going on was probably the most frightening of all. But knowing might mean going to the doctor and God forbid, the “H” word (hospital).

The next morning I felt much better. I went and ran some errands and decided to get a hotel room close to the airport so that when I picked up Stephanie from the airport I didn’t have to drive all the way back to Boca Raton. Steph came in, we went shopping to get the food for the Bimini trip and I was feeling like whatever it was had passed. I had gone the whole day feeling good.

But then the next morning it came back as we were getting ready to go to the airport for the short flight to Bimini. The pressure in my chest, the dizziness, the weakness. I was really frightened now and not sure what to do. My head was telling me it was crazy to continue on to Bimini with potential heart problems, knowing there was only a clinic there… but my heart and soul couldn’t bear the thought of NOT going to the turquoise waters, seeing my dolphin family and hanging with my new human pod. I had been looking forward to this trip for soooo long. I didn’t want to let down the people who had signed up. I didn’t want to let down Stephanie who was my co-leader of the trip and had never been to Bimini and wouldn’t know what to do. And she had been through a house fire that week and if she could pull it together and come anyway, I could too.

I was completely torn. I was still very scared because there were signs it was not over. Heart racing, dizziness, weakness, left arm hurting. My body screamed to stay back, my mind said NO WAY should I go on this trip in this condition but my heart and soul and the dolphins won out again. Having Stephanie there helped. She assured me that she would take care of me and that we were in this together. I also knew that my human pod would take care of me. Yup. I was going on to Bimini, heart fluttering and all.

I felt so bad and embarrassed that Stephanie had to carry my backpack as I didn’t have the strength to do it. Sickness has always been a sign of weakness to me and I remember that as a young kid I would hide under the table when I was sick because I didn’t want anyone to see me. I felt so defeated, so dependent. I really like to take care of myself being the super independent jungle woman and all.

I could see that my lessons were already starting. I was facing letting go of having to do it all myself and allowing others to help me. No one goes to Bimini and with the dolphins and comes out the same. I had been feeling the intense change in the air for weeks. I knew this trip was going to be very BIG. The energy there calls us to shift in big ways and I knew that going in, but I had no idea how it would unfold. I certainly was not expecting heart problems!!

In the Ft. Lauderdale airport while waiting for our flight to Bimini, my heart started pounding again, I got really cold and again questioned my decision to go on to Bimini… but the dolphins and that turquoise water won out. Surely I would be okay. I was among friends and Source always takes care of me, everything works out perfectly and I don’t have to worry about the details. Even if that means the plan is to die out there with the dolphins.

I had to start really looking at my view of death and where I stand and where my fears lie. What was I afraid of? I am not afraid to die. I KNOW we don’t really die and I can feel the bliss and love and the coming home and release of resistance that comes with dying. But I knew I didn’t want to die alone or among strangers, I didn’t’ want pain and suffering and doctors and hospitals and I didn’t want to die before my parents and put them through losing their second child. In other words, I didn’t want to die right here, right now, like this.

And I was getting increasingly frustrated with myself in my inability to shift when the chest pressure would come on. I knew I had to control my thoughts, but because of the fear of having a heart attack and the not knowing and all the other fears that were creeping in, I found myself in another unknown territory… unable to shift my focus in 10 minutes or less. And the more I got frustrated with myself and fought the fear, the more I couldn’t shift and was fearful. I was in a state of resisting the fear which brought more fear. Where was Sierra the super shifter? I couldn’t find her, that frustrated and confused me and that started the whole fearful cycle all over again. I felt like I was standing in quicksand.

We met a couple of the people from our trip at the airport and I could feel the bond between us lock into place. I could feel the bigger picture start to form, the totally intertwined perfection of everything that was about to happen. I could see and feel glimpses of it, but the actual unfolding lay before us. I just knew it was BIG for all concerned.

We got to the island, met the rest of the group and I was feeling pretty good but there was always this background of fear going on, either a loud buzz or a faint distant one, but always there. I was definitely not my Super Sierra self and I knew that it showed, at least to me, which made it worse. We had to tell the group what was going on and I just wanted to shrink into a corner. It was so hard for me to admit that something was wrong health wise, me who always hid under the table when sick as a child, embarrassed to show a sign of weakness and humanness. As much as I wanted to hide under the table, there was nowhere to go but into surrender and trust. I had to trust my human pod. I had to surrender to my non physical pod.

I so wanted to be in full high vibration for this group. I so wanted to lead this dolphin trip as I have so many others, from a place of power and connection so that I could be there for the others when they went through the things that often come up on these trips. Never ever did I imagine that I would be the one who needed the emotional and physical support and a part of me felt as if I had failed them.

This is so unlike me, but I was definitely not myself and more and more I was losing access to my usual thoughts, my direct connection to infinite intelligence that would have told me that everyone is getting exactly what they need, that I can relax and trust that all is in perfect divine order. Further down into the quicksand I go. I felt shaky and unsure.

We got out on the water in the afternoon and as I shared with AJ, our only male on the trip, about the sparkling lights I see in the direction the dolphins are, he saw them too. And there they were, just where the sparkly lights said they were. We had a joyful dolphin jump and jump for us and we also met Tilly, a dolphin who had lost most of his dorsal fin, probably from a shark. I felt all of us feel sympathy for Tilly and he didn’t stay around for long. We had a beautiful day out on the water and returned to Beautiful Bimini as the sun set into the blue turquoise waters.

I mostly feel good for the rest of the evening except the pressure started to come on near the end of dinner but not bad. I breathed through it and it eventually subsided.

The next morning we had a group session scheduled and after Steph led us into a relaxed state, I received and shared a message for the group from Tilly, the dolphin with the missing dorsal fin from the day before.

Tilly spoke to us about how he does not see his body as broken, only whole and how we need to do the same. Tilly emphasized to us how we are already whole there is nothing we have to seek or do. We all felt the dolphins swirling around us and off we went to see them in the physical.

We soon came upon dolphins and even though our captain said that he didn’t think they’d swim with us, I told him to let me into the water. Another pod mate and I got into the water and the dolphins stopped feeding and came right over. It was such an amazing and intense connection, eye to eye, belly to belly, twirling and spiraling. And then I felt it. One of the dolphins sonared me from behind, right through my back to my lungs, heart and chest and I felt the buzz as they opened up, open heart surgery dolphin style. Wowzers.

The rest of our human pod got into the water, and the dolphins did their thing, weaving between everyone, giving each and every person their special brand of love and light.

One of my greatest joys is seeing the transformation in people after they have swam with the dolphins. The joy and light in their faces, the vibration that they are emitting; it is a special gift to experience and I was basking in that, especially after my dolphin heart surgery. I was buzzzzzzzing and so were most of our human pod. THAT’s what it’s all about. There is nothing like a dolphin JOY BUZZ!!

Our human pod was excited and we had a high energy dinner. I was feeling good and thought the heart ordeal was over. But right before going to bed, it came on again, and strong. I had pressure in my chest, my vision was blurry, I was weak and shaky. Everyone had gone to bed except Steph and when she saw me she knew I was in trouble and asked if I wanted her to go and get Sharmini who is a Reiki practitioner.

I knew I had to let my embarrassment and fear of “bothering” others go because I needed help. See, I hate to inconvenience people. I hate to make them go out of their way or stay up or do things they wouldn’t have had had to do for me. I felt embarrassed because these are people who looked up to me and came because of who I am at my best, or at least who they perceived me to be. And I really had to let go of that and surrender.

And I knew Sharmini had stayed up late the night before and was tired. But the fear took me beyond my embarrassment now and I said, “Yes, go get her.”

I was powerless and I hated it. I did not have access to my magic. I can change weather patterns, create blue lightening and earthquakes, manifest all kinds of things out of nowhere, I know who is calling, I know who is gonna post, I know just what to say but I had access to none of that while in fear for my life… and that scared and frustrated me even more. Where was I???

The three of us sat on my bed and held hands and talked about my fears, my fear of getting old, my fear of not looking hot anymore, my fear of losing control, my fear of not fulfilling my responsibility to the group, my fear of letting go and letting others help me, my fear of what I’ve done to my body, my fear of doctors, hospitals, needles, my fear to ask for help, fear of being vulnerable, etc. etc. etc. They were ALL coming up for me. Open heart surgery, remember? They spoke to me of how it is okay to be vulnerable, it’s okay to ask for help, to let go. I felt loved and supported and I agreed to do that. I said, “I am in trouble here, I need help, I am scared, I need to go to a doctor, I physically cannot take care of the group right now, I surrender, help me.”

Whew. That was a big one… a really really big one for me. I have never been so frightened in my life. I was not only physically not well, but I had just given up all control of the situation and had become more vulnerable than I ever had been… ever.

Sierra Raw and Unplugged.

But now that I had given in and become completely vulnerable, I got to face more fears and that was what happens if people don’t meet my expectations when I make myself completely vulnerable. What if I put myself out there in a vulnerable position and people don’t respond how I would respond? What if their idea of what should happen is different than mine? How many conditions will I put on being vulnerable, like “I’ll only be vulnerable if….?” How much power do I give away to others by making my success at being vulnerable depend on how they act and respond? Yikes.

Oh yes. Just fricken bring it on, Universe. Bring it all up, have we missed anything? Any more fears to deal with??

Oh Sierra. You know better than that. It had only just begun!!

I called my theta healing, matrix energetics friend Kevin and told him what was going on. “HELP ME,” I said. He said, “Well, you know there is a perfectly healthy you in another dimension.”

I think my exact words were “Well, F@*%’n Beam Me UP, Scotty.”

See, I had no access to thoughts like that, healthy me’s in parallel universes. And it’s something I might have said to someone in the same situation too standing in the Sierra of Power. But I was not in a place of being able get to the other healthy me’s as I was stuck in the fear of the present me which felt like her heart was about to explode.

I was sinking deeper and deeper into the quicksand and what I needed was for someone to give me a hand and at least help me get one foot on solid ground and THEN I could access the other things like parallel universes and healing thoughts. I could not compute “Sierra be the light that you are, embrace your divine self, let go of the fear, ” when I felt like I was dying and was in fear. I needed to physically feel safe.

Everyone wanted me to shift and be the me they know I am, and I know exactly from there they stood, and that is in love for me and wanting me to be okay, but I needed to acknowledge the fear and where I presently was first. I needed everyone to stop expecting and trying to push Sierra the Super Shifter and let me be Sierra the scared and fearful one going through some big shit. I needed to face the fear, not run and try to super shift from it and I needed to feel safe and protected and supported while doing it. I needed to feel safe to be afraid to shift from being afraid if that makes any sense. It does to me now. I couldn’t shift and find the thoughts I needed to find until I didn’t feel like I was sinking anymore.

And now I knew I needed to get to the clinic/hospital/doctor and that made me sink even further into fear. Then someone reached out an understanding hand that pulled me out of the quicksand… and for that I am forever appreciative.

I finally got to the small clinic on Bimini with two of my podmates with me and I felt relief when my blood pressure and EKG tests came back okay. The doctor told me I was not in imminent danger of a heart attack which was of course great news and I relaxed. He said that it very well could be a reaction to the antibiotics I took, which of course wouldn’t surprise me since I took them with such resistance. He told me to go to a doctor as soon as I got to the States and while I was relieved, there was still the unknown of why I was feeling like I did. I was still weak and shaky and the pressure was still there, but when the symptoms came on, I was no able to control them better as I didn’t have the immediate fear that I was about to die of a heart attack which added panic to the whole soup of fear. BIG DIFFERENCE.

I had leverage. I had some solid ground to stand on. And this has given me the most amazing shift and understanding about the real authentic human experience that has changed me forever and how I will help others.

I remember a few years back many rainforest animals began to die and no one knew what was going on. Monkeys were dying, we saw lots of sick, dying and dead toucans, a sloth died on my doorstep and I sank into a two day depression. Before that I had no sympathy for anyone who was depressed because I couldn’t understand how you just don’t change your thoughts. Like Duh!! But for two days, I could not find better feeling thoughts and I felt so tired and well, depressed! I finally was able to snap myself out of it, but I came away with a new compassion and understanding for others who have symptoms of depression.

That’s what had happened now. I thought of times when I have not had an understanding of why people can’t move from their present state of unhealthy thinking and fear and have spewed my spiritual stuff at them and couldn’t understand why they couldn’t hear me. I was speaking the truth, after all!!! What I needed to do was to throw a rope, hold out a hand and get them to a level, stable ground from which they can shift and then hear me. Mind you, that does NOT mean to enable destructive behavior or buy into the fear. It means to help with the immediate physical needs, get done what physically needs to get done, to acknowledge and have compassion for the fear and for where they are, and that can get someone to a place of choice and power again. It means to be a Stabilizer as well as an Uplifter when needed and necessary. A grounding, stabilizing force.

I thought about a thread that was on the the Abe Forum a few years back and someone asked if you came upon a drowning girl, would you save her? I was surprised to see how many said, “I would not save her, she made her vibrational bed and now she has to lie in it.” I never want to use the Law of Attraction or some spiritual belief systems to lose my compassion for where people are and withhold my physical ability to reach out and help someone in need. I am a compassionate human being and we’re all in this together.

I went for a walk to the beach and felt the dolphins come in around me. I heard this:

“ All the "spiritual" jargon and talk doesn't really mean anything if you don't mean what you say, don't do what you say and especially if you use your spiritual lingo as a way to not treat people with kindness and compassion... It's really about how you treat yourself and how you treat others... and the rest is just a bunch of bla bla bla!!! This is about the human experience and how you show up for each other and who you are to each other. This is not about going on your solo spiritual journey; this is about community and needing one another and helping one another. Like a dolphin pod. It is okay to ask for help, it’s okay to need others, just let go of how it should be, what surrendering and being vulnerable should be. If the one you thought would show up doesn’t, someone else will. Let go. Trust. Let everyone off the hook, especially yourself. You don’t have to be everything; you are supposed to need others, to operate in a flowing pod of love.”

Man, those dolphins always know just what to say. We had the most amazing people on our trip, the perfect pod, everyone played their role perfectly and I realized that part of what happened was that I needed to sit back and get my lessons so that others could shine and be the light of the party. Every single person got what they signed up for and more. I didn’t have to be running the show, it was the dolphins the whole time anyway. It was so amazingly divinely orchestrated I can only smile when I think about it now. There was such amazing growth on this trip for all and none of us will ever forget it. The tears, the laughter, the joy, the anger, the freedom, the letting go, the bonding, the realizations… all invaluable for us all. We will never be the same. I love you, my dolphin/human pod.

But I still had to go to California and get to a doctor. While much better, I was still feeling mighty strange and weak and shaky and I had to follow through on this. During the whole week my mom was so worried, and I felt so bad but I had never needed her and my dad more. We had made arrangements for me to fly to California instead of going home to Costa Rica.

I had avoided the Body Scanner machine at the airport with the blink of an eye and was feeling my power coming back. In fact I was feeling very giddy. That is until I got into Houston and carrying my computer around in my backpack made the dizzy weak heart pounding feelings come back on and then of course the fear… less fear, but still fear of the unknown. What was going on with my body?

I don’t think I’ve ever been so happy to see my parents. That is until my mom told me she was taking me to the emergency room. The reality sunk in. This was not over, I needed some answers and it involved doctors, hospitals and Western medicine because my parents were now in control. And I really wanted to know one way or the other.

The next morning we went to the emergency room. I found out that the way to be seen immediately without even finishing the paperwork is to say the magic words “chest pressure.” Boy, did they move fast, got me into a gown, taking blood, blood pressure and an immediate EKG. The EKG and blood pressure again were fine, it would be an hour and half for the blood work. I was hooked up to a heart monitor and there I was, realizing my biggest fear. Hospitals, doctors, needles and the worst of all, that damn IV in my arm ready for whenever they needed to pump me up with something. The tears flowed.

Again, it was like the twilight zone. This is someplace I have always avoided, feared. I wont even watch television shows or movies based in hospitals and I couldn’t believe this was my life and that it was happening to me right now.

The doctor comes in and tells me all blood work is fine and they need to take two more blood tests and if they are fine, they want to do a stress test to check my heart. This meant I needed to be admitted to the hospital and stay overnight for observation and the tests.

Say whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat????? Overnight in the hospital? Me???? IV in my arm??? ARE YOU FRICKEN KIDDING ME??????? Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, Mommmmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

NOW it was my worst fear. My worst nightmare come true. Overnight in a hospital. This couldn’t be happening. But it was. I knew I had to shift right now or I was a gonner. Whether I had heart problems or not, the fear was gonna kill me if I didn’t get things under control.

Deep breaths. I am seeing the light. This is going to be okay. Even if something is wrong I will get treated. I have the best care. This isn’t the end of the world. Hey that doctor is pretty cute. Better to know. Maybe George Clooney will show up. Maybe someone needs me in here. This will make a great Facebook story. This is all happening for a higher reason. I am going to be okay. All is well.

Whew. I was back and came back while facing my very worst fear! There was nothing left now.

I got taken to a room, set up, hooked up and settled in. My parents were there but I eventually made them go home, I was actually feeling strong enough now, had the stability and power back enough to start looking at what got me here to face my worst fears.

I closed my eyes, tune in and hear dolphin laughter. “Very funny,” I say as they show me a whole movie in seconds with a thousand different sub plots and side stories and interweaving and intertwining involving everyone on the dolphin trip and their lessons, and my lessons. They are very proud of their heart surgery they have done on me and they excitedly show me the complexity and thousands of levels on which they have worked on me and on which I have shifted… but then I feel some seriousness coming on.

“Sierra, are you going to stay?”

“What do you mean?”

“Its okay if you want to go, we know the plan was Happy Healthy Hot and Dead and it’s a good one, one that we dolphins often practice. But we want you to know that this heart opening surgery gift we have given you was for the physical human work you still have to do. And you can choose either way. Your physical body is healthy and part of this was to let you know that, get the physical evidence you needed to know. And now that you know, what are you going to do?”

“Ok Ok Ok. I’ll stay. But no more doctors and hospitals and needles!”

Oh dolphin laughter. There is nothing like it.

They remind me of how I have asked for chakra openings. “Sierra, how many hours have you listened to your Chakra Kahn playlist?” (I have a playlist I made with Jonathan Goldman’s and Source Vibrations chakra opening music and had been listening a lot. I called the playlist CHAKRA Kahn ;)) )

“Haven’t you been asking for the next level? Haven’t you noticed that where you are feeling the pressure is in your chakra centers?”

Gulp. No, I was so worried that I was having a heart attack that I hadn’t noticed. But now that I had my steady footing and connection back I did notice… well what do ya know?

I hear the dolphins laugh again. “What is so funny now?” I ask.

“They should have put you on a Heart Chakra Monitor and they would have found out what was going on with you!”

The next morning I get my third blood test, it checks out and I am wheeled over to the cardiac unit where I get to watch my heart on a monitor in live, living color, sound and all through some magical stick that they have. There it is. My heart. Beating strong. They determine I am healthy enough for the stress test, I run on the treadmill, get tested again. I feel great. All symptoms are gone.

I glance at the clock and it’s 9:45 am.

I am told my heart is extremely healthy. My blood pressure is perfect. My circulation is great. My lungs are fine and my oxygen intake is at 99%.

“REALLY?” I ask, quite surprised. I really thought I had done some damage to my body over the years but I am in perfect health. I have not been to a doctor for over 25 years. And I would not have gone if not for something like this and I had to admit, it felt really really good to know that I am running strong. I feel like I have been given a second chance.

I hear more dolphin laughter. I remember the last time I went to Bimini, six years ago, I experienced another painful manifestation that led to another major heart opening by the dolphins. I had slipped and fallen on the tile in my bathroom in Costa Rica. I almost took my eye out and ended up with a very big and bruised eye and side of my face. I knew that the Universe was calling me to make a shift, painful manifestations always are a call. I called Christopher and as divine orchestration would have it, she had a Bimini dolphin trip leaving in two days. I immediately left Costa Rica and got to Bimini.

During that trip, I had the most lucid dream I have ever had. It was daytime and I had gone to my cabin to rest because I could not keep my eyes open. In the dream I was in the water and a bottlenose dolphin swam by me and then stopped about 10 feet away. He then swam at me as fast as he could and hit me right in the heart with his beak. I went somersaulting back and knew that I had just received a major heart opening, dolphin style.

As I am spinning in my dream, I hear the call “dolphins” and as I got ready to get into the water, I said, “if that dream was real, I see that same dolphin right now.” I knew I would and I did. She swam right up to me and around me. I took photos and they still give me the chills when I see them.

Amazing heart openings came from that trip and the dolphins had done it to me again. Major heart openings stemming from painful manifestations that build up from my resistance to becoming MORE.

See, they will always call me to be all that I can be. They will call me to clean up the in-congruencies and mixed, split vibrations. They always call me to open up my heart and live authentically and from love. And they let me know when I am not, when I am stuck and when I cannot see it. And sometimes it hurts, but that is the only thing that will get my attention.

I experienced so much growth on so many levels. It’s funny how we learn the same lessons over and over from the new levels we reach. Like now that you are here, THIS is what Love is. And now that you are HERE, THIS is what love is.

One of the women on the Bimini trip shared with me how glad she was to find out that I was human. She shared that she was afraid to meet me because she thought I was this perfect person who always had it together and manifested all these magical things… and my vulnerability helped her to relate to me and feel comfortable around me.

I never felt as human as I did on this trip. Authentically human. And I share this story now because I learned so much about community and needing each other. It’s okay to need each other! I need YOU!! I don’t want to walk in front of anyone, I want us to experience this authentic and beautiful human experience together, with love and compassion. Here in the physical. Non physical friends only go so far. We need each other’s physical authentic humanness. Hearts wide open.

An interesting side note and this is just sooo dolphin like to play with me like this:

A few weeks ago, my friend Anhalira posted that she was going to Brazil again to meet John of God, the very famous healer (as seen on Oprah.) She asked if anyone had any prayer requests she would take them to him. I wrote sent her a message that said:

Good health for myself and my parents, unlimited abundance in all areas of my life, and for my soul mate and I to finally meet up in this lifetime... the sooner the better!!

A few hours after I was released from the hospital with a clean bill of health, she wrote to me that she had submitted my prayer request to John of God that day. I wrote back and asked at what time and she said 9:30 am California time. Just when all my symptoms disappeared. Go figure.

I am not sure where this is going and I don't need to know. What I do know is that I am not the same, I will never be the same and that community, and grounded, heart centered people are more important to me than ever.

I have faced all my worst fears and all that is left is Sierra Raw and Unplugged and Heart Wide Open.

I love you.

2011-04-17T10:59:00.000-07:00

In this interview from 2007 I speak with Lisa Bonnice about my weight loss and how I changed my thinking to become thin in my mind. Enjoy!

170 Pounds Lost and Paradise Found - Sierra on the Indigo Room

2011-04-13T19:08:00.000-07:00

This is an interview I did back in November 2007 and just uploaded to Youtube with the new longer video time limits. It was great listening to it again and it contains lots of great information about weight loss and becoming thin.

Becoming Thin Weight Loss with Sierra Goodman - My Latest Interview

2011-03-31T10:48:00.000-07:00

This interview is from March 2011 with Ande Waggoner. Learn about the I AM D.I.E.T. and get on your path to the thin person you are!

Time for a Spring Cleaning of Limiting Beliefs

2011-03-21T09:28:00.000-07:00

Me thinks it’s time to do some Spring Cleaning of limiting beliefs. Yes! Spring Cleaning! We clean our houses out... why not clean up our minds a bit too? It’s time to give up limits as usual, life as usual. It’s time for self observation to identify the beliefs that always have the last word. Once limiting beliefs are identified, they are shiftable. In every area that I have shifted this week, I have seen immediate evidence of my new, unlimited beliefs. Just like that. And that rocks!

You must be present to your true feelings and observe yourself reacting when the subjects of relationships, money, wellness, etc come up. Don’t just go into robot reaction mode. It is in those moments of self observation that we can identify those beliefs that are holding us back and begin to shift to more unlimiting beliefs that will get us where we want to go. When you think about the subject for which you want different results, do you get a knot in your stomach? Do you say no I can’t, I could never, It will never happen, I don’t deserve it? When you observe others who have what you want do you get jealous or angry or do you feel happy for them? Notice. Observe. What are you thinking and feeling that is holding you back and what are the new thoughts and feelings you can shift to that will break you free?

When you shift your perspective and beliefs and allowing limits, inspired ideas come to you, people and messages and signs show up that are a match to your new beliefs. You see instant evidence of your shift. The proof that you have shifted is in the evidence that shows up in your life and in the world around you.

First I identified some areas in my life where I wanted to see change and shift. I think it's best to do one or two at a time, not try to tackle a whole lifetime(s) of beliefs at once. I really let myself observe and feel what my core beliefs on those subjects were. Name it, Claim it, Shift it. As I embraced my new beliefs the funniest things started happening... I shifted some beliefs around money, income and relationships... as soon as I did, I got some really great inspired ideas for new ventures and putting life into old ventures... three people in one day contacted me about life coaching even though I have taken my site down... and I started getting private messages from a spiritual singles site I haven't visited for months!! Like I said, the evidence comes fast once we shift!

Filtering Love - The Japan Earthquake & Tsunami

2011-03-18T12:37:00.000-07:00

As I snorkeled among the fish this afternoon, I thought about the interesting dance I have danced this past week… knowing that in the broadest, highest, Source/God perspective, all is truly well… and seeing and feeling the pain and suffering of so many people. Though I live among some of the finest nature this beautiful planet has to offer, I have cried many tears watching images of some of the fiercest nature imaginable unleashed half way across the world.

It has been an interesting dance as waves of terror, fear, anger, uncertainty and anxiety wash over me unexpectedly and I have to quickly remind myself that it is not coming directly from me, but from my brothers and sisters who share this spinning globe with me, to whom I am connected. I breathe deep, ground, connect and center. Into Love.

I remember that my guidance has been showing me the importance of staying grounded and embracing the authentic human experience lately. I am understanding more and more the need for groundedness now and shifting into Love. Fast.

I remind myself that the Collective Consciousness has shifted a lot this week (as well as the Earth’s axis!) and with the influx of passionate, deep, strong feelings, emotions and vibrations in the stream that my CC Radar is working overtime, tuning in and bringing me signals, letting me know where vibration and energy need to be shifted. Into Love.

As I feel the fear and anxiety of others, I defuse those feelings with LOVE. Sometimes I can feel an individual person, sometimes it feels like thousands or millions, but just the same, when I feel these feelings coming from the Collective Consciousness, I shift them from within myself… therefore shifting them outside myself. Shifting them into Love.

Fear and anxiety and uncertainty are replaced with LOVE and sent back out into the Collective Consciousness Stream. We don’t have to change anybody. We just have to shift the feelings, emotions and vibrations within ourselves as they come through and send them back out. With Love. Garbage IN, Love OUT.

And we don’t have to worry about where it goes either. Divine Orchestration takes care of that. We just make the shift. Into Love. And send it out.

I swim along with one of my favorite Parrot Fish friends and watch as he filters water in and out of his gills, getting out the oxygen that he needs. I start thinking about how nature, our Earth, is one big filtration system. The trees and plants filter the air, the rocks filter the water… Nature reuses and recycles in perfect balance and is constantly adjusting and evolving her filtration system to keep that balance as resources change and evolve.

We are the Collective Consciousness’ natural filtration system. We keep balance by filtering anything that isn’t Love into Love. Just like the trees, rocks, animals, all of nature is a natural filtration system to keep balance and reproduction and life and evolution, we reuse and recycle and shift and filter thoughts and emotions back into love.

I embrace my work as a Love Filter. It is one of the reasons I am here.

I tune in and begin to breathe in rhythm with the fish… more and more fish, all my favorite kinds, come near. Together we filter in all that is not in balance or needed and filter out only Love and Divine Grace.

My Universal Truth Evolution Radio Interview about Dolphins, Whales, Weight Loss and Worthiness

2011-03-06T04:45:00.000-08:00

Be True to You

2011-03-05T12:24:00.000-08:00

Listen Divine Beings and you will hear
Your own Inner Guidance loud and clear

You are the one who knows what’s best for you
So follow your heart, to your authentic self be true

There is nothing to obtain, no one you have to be
You have it all inside you, so set yourself free

In the present moment is where you find your true self
Past stories and present worries remain on the shelf

To follow your dreams is what you came here for
So get passionate, BE Possibility and wait no more

Instead of complaining and waiting for change
Refocus your NOW and watch your life rearrange

Let go of the baggage and the attachments too
Cause’ once resistance is gone, it’s a dream life for you

Let go of the hurt, let go of the blame
And start living your life in charge of the game

Be FOR, not against, speak from love and respect
This is how you create the Love Consciousness Effect

When things don’t go how you think they should
Remember there is the law of The Highest Good

The higher perspective, the Divine Broader View
Is how it can all make sense to you.

Allow unique perspectives and inspired Source to flow
Every Being has their unique journey to expand and grow

Trust in Divine timing, let the Universe orchestrate
And it all turns out better than your imagination could create

Know you are worthy, embrace your Divine
Expect the best to happen, for it happens all the time!

Live from the heart, be the LOVE that you ARE
And your true and authentic self will shine like a star.

~ by Sierra ~

http://www.divinedolphin.com/

A Little Birdy Told Me: A Story of Pure Love Through a Toucan

2010-11-19T10:24:00.000-08:00

I have always loved the toucans here in Costa Rica. We raised three since they were just days old and without feathers. They eventually returned to the wild where they belong. We had another toucan, Cassidy, who followed me around, hopping from place to place. But there was something different when I came back this time. I loved them even MORE.

I was so drawn to them and was glad it was the time of year that the palms have the fruits they like to eat so they were around a lot. I told them how much I loved them, I talked to them and I even made a video called I LOVE TOUCANS. I was showering the toucans with my love and appreciation for them.

Not too surprisingly then, one day last week a guy walked up here with a toucan. When we appreciate and love something so much, the Universe brings us more of it. It took me about 30 seconds to even realize he was holding one as he had it under one arm and the toucan was pretty much limp.

“Let’s go up to the kitchen, I have some papaya and see if he will eat,” I told him. The toucan practically attacked the papaya which was a good sign. He was still wanting to eat. I asked the guy what he was planning to do with the toucan and he told me he was going to bring it home to his mom to take care of. His house was still a half hour walk more. I said, “Please let me take care of him.” And he agreed.

I cut up some more papaya and brought it and the toucan to my room. He was soaking wet, cold, shaking, and weak. I put him on a fleece blanket and let him rest. I marveled at how love and appreciation of these beautiful animals brought one to me. As my friend Kidest said, "It's all that love you've been oozing that brought one to your doorstep." YES!!! Love and appreciation CREATE!! Love and appreciation brings those things that we love and appreciate right to our doorstep! What a beautiful, wonderful world!!

The toucan, whom I named Timook, could hardly stand, and he was so cold and wet that I ended up wrapping him up in the fleece blanket and holding him to my chest. I closed my eyes and called on St. Francis whom is my partner when it comes to animals. I felt St. Francis put his hands on mine and then the most amazing thing happened. I saw this flood of white light open up above us and wrap around us. We were showered and wrapped in this light and I don’t really have the words to exactly describe the feeling, but I can say it was the purest love I have ever felt. It was the PURE LOVE of GOD. It was warm and bright and complete and intense and so very fulfilling.

This deepened my ability to let Source/God/Love flow THROUGH ME. I did not have to do a thing, I didn’t have to “try” to heal or try to do anything. I just got out of the way, emptied my mind and let it FLOW THROUGH.

Synchronistically, my beautiful friend, Kelly K. Brown, whom I always seem to be in sync with, posted an Abraham-Hicks quote that helped me to find the words:

It was so much more love than she’d ever felt that she didn’t know what she was feeling.
It was being hugged from the inside, out. It was cellular love.
It was a love so thorough, so complete, so wrapped through her that she thought she was having a heart attack!
It was love that was so pervasive she didn’t know what to do with it. She couldn’t describe it, she couldn’t label it, she couldn’t contain it. It was bigger than she was consciously, and vibrationally, ready even to endure; a love so great she couldn’t quantify it or understand it.
And in time, little by little by little, she and so many others of you have raised your vibration until you feel on a very constant basis that Love wrapping through you.
-Abraham-Hicks-

THAT describes what I was feeling. It didn’t end when the light faded either. Anytime I held or put my attention on Timook, that wave of LOVE washed over and wrapped around me.

Timook was soaking in this energy. Toucans are usually very skittish with humans and can do some damage with that big, long beak… and Timook was old enough to have the serrated edges that helps them to rip apart their food. But he made no moves to attack me, I could see that he totally trusted me. In fact when I cuddled him up to me and he put his beak down on my shoulder, tears of pure joy/love/connection streamed down my face.

Timook seemed to be getting stronger and even hopped around my bed a little bit. He ate some papaya and watermelon throughout the day, sometimes from my hand and sometimes he even took some himself.

I had a dilemma of what to do at nighttime. I couldn’t allow my dog and cat to be in the room if Timook was free because although they had pretty much not shown any interest so far, a fluttering, flying toucan would be too much for their instincts to resist. So I put the dog and cat out. The dog whined, the cat scratched at the door. It was going to be a long night. I tried to wrap him up and put him in a box, but he was much too energetic for that. He kept popping his beak out and then wiggled himself free and stood on the edge of the box. Hmmm, this wouldn't do. But then I had an idea… I wondered if Timook was strong enough to perch on a rod, a shower curtain rod to be exact. I brought him into the bathroom and sure enough, he was able to stand and seemed happy to be able to perch there for the night. My problem was solved. I was able to shut the bathroom door, let the dog and cat in and everyone was safe and happy for the night.

I checked in on Timook several times to make sure he was okay. The last time I checked, he was in full Toucan sleeping form… tail up, head turned 180 degrees and his beak resting on his back. He was getting stronger!

In the morning Timook seemed to be a little weaker than the night before. I heard him fall off the shower curtain rod perch and I went and got him. He really wanted to be by my side and anytime I went into the bathroom, he would hop to the edge of the bed and try to look in. When I’d leave my room, I’d put him on the top of a wooden chair and he’d turn his head, watching me walk out and would watch me through the screen as I walked across the balcony. I spent as much time with him as possible as we both loved the energy.

Timook ate a bit during the day, but not as much as the day before. I was starting to get a little concerned that he was getting weaker. I decided that the next day that I would call the wonderful bird vet that I met through my macaws and other toucans and see if I could send Timook to San Jose on the airplane to get veterinary care.

As the day and evening wore on, it was obvious that Timook was getting worse and probably wouldn’t make it. He couldn’t stand on the chair let alone the shower curtain rod. I was going to have to stay up with him as I didn’t want him to die alone, nor did I want to wake up with a dead bird next to me.

Timook alternated between laying perfectly still to his body jerking around. He placed himself right up next to me, with is beak under my arm. I stroked him and spoke words of love… and around 1:00 am, he left his body. I felt his spirit go right THROUGH ME.

I felt both relieved that he wouldn’t have to suffer and sad. We had bonded so much in these two days together, experienced the BIG LOVE of Pure Source Energy together. We had a very special bond indeed.

I gently placed his body in a box and put him on my altar. The next morning, as I was sitting on my bed, a younger toucan landed on the thick vine right outside my door. I had never seen a toucan land there before. He was looking right into my room… right at ME!! He looked over at the box where Timook’s body lay and then back at me. I heard Timook speak to me:

“Yes I see the body there, but I am not there. I am here in this toucan and everywhere, in everything. That love that you felt with me is in every single thing, it is the Love Particle that permeates and creates ALL that Is. Thank you, Sierra, on behalf of all the toucans. You are one of us. You are one with us.”

During the day, several toucans visited, hanging right next to my room, looking in at me, thanking me, showing me that Timook lived on. I no longer felt sad. I realized that Timook did not come to me to be healed. He came to me to give back the love that I had been giving the toucans and to allow me to experience that Pure Source Love wrapping around me that we feel when we die… but we don’t have to die to feel it!! I am very much alive and I felt it and now have access to it at any time.

The love that Timook brought me was to bring me up to speed with the new higher frequencies of love that now exist. Whether you believe that 11/11 opened up new vortexes, stargates or whatever, the truth is that that many people focusing on a new reality, that many people focusing on Love shifted the vibration of the planet to a new higher frequency. It was a gift beyond measure.

My friends and I were posting people’s Facebook statuses to each other, all of them about LOVE, commenting on the new, higher frequency we all felt. There was a big wave of LOVE going across the planet, and I know that Timook took me along the crest, on the leading edge of the wave of LOVE.

Thank you, Timook. You are forever in my heart and will never be forgotten. I feel you and the LOVE that we shared all around me. Wrapped in Love. Pure Source Love.

It just doesn’t get any more delicious than that!

I SURRENDER

2010-10-17T10:27:00.000-07:00

My time in Costa Rica has been quite the adventure so far… and I have grown and expanded so much already in the short time I have been here. Here’s my story…

For over 12 years I told everyone that I would never leave Costa Rica and that I would never go back to the States. I just couldn’t see it. This was home, this was the REAL life, this is where I wanted to be and couldn’t imagine being anywhere else. Then, all in one week, actually in one day, I knew I had to leave. I felt a calling so strong to go back to the States for a while and I knew I had to trust it and in fact couldn’t ignore it. I couldn’t believe it myself, but once I made the decision, I couldn’t get out of here fast enough. I packed my bags and figured I’d be gone two months or so. I was gone almost two years.

I came back to visit several times, but never felt that it was time to move back, nor did I want to. I entered into talks with a man who wanted to lease my property for a marine research center. It seemed like a great solution for now. I didn’t want to be here, but I didn’t want to sell either as I couldn’t imagine letting this property go, knowing some day I’d want to be here again.

The man with the marine research center came in August and after a short time together, I knew it wouldn’t work out. On this trip I knew it was time for me to come back for a while and get things in order, including getting the electricity installed. As soon as I got back to the States, I gave notice at my place in San Diego, put my things in storage, brought my cat to my parents and fly back to Costa Rica. I knew it was time to reconnect with the property, and people started popping up all over that wanted to be a part of the community and wellness center here. The Universe was speaking strongly and I could not ignore it.

The day before I was coming down to Drake Bay by taxi, there was a severe weather warning, a hurricane that would not be a direct hit (we never get hurricanes here, just the tail of the weather) but would mess things up pretty bad. Me and my sisters worked on that one and the day I came down, the hurricane took a turn and the drive and boat ride down was without any rain… it started to rain a half hour after we got all my stuff up the hill. Yay!

I felt in control… but not for long.

My property was a mess. The person I had taking care of the property, a friend whom I was paying, had not done anything to keep it up. I come to find out that he pretty much just stayed in his cabin all day and had developed a cocaine habit. GREAT.

I hired a few guys and we started to clean up the gardens which because they were so overgrown, so wild, so intertwined that really the only thing to do was to cut it all down. I told them to try to save some of the flowers, but they went through, a machete in each hand and in one day, the center of the property, where I had planted over 32 species of heliconias, had been cut to the ground. I cried… they laughed at me…

For a couple of days I used the garden being cut down as anger therapy. I was upset with the person I had been paying to keep up the property who had not done his job. So every time I heard the crack of the machete cutting down another plant, I imagined it was hitting Dan upside the head. It really helped me release the anger, I ended up laughing and I am sure Dan had a headache for a day or two. That’ll show him!! Tee hee.

As I let my anger go, knowing somehow this was for the higher good, it had to be, I took a stroll around the now bare center of my property… and I felt this JOY coming from the garden.

“What are you so happy about?” I asked, surprised at what I was receiving.

“Sierra, while we needed to be overgrown to protect the energy while you were gone and we now feel the JOY of release and rebirth! We were safe in our cocoon and it’s time to transform. You will see how fast the garden comes back, bigger and stronger than before. Do not cry for us… you KNOW that the rainforest is all about regeneration and rebirth… we feel open and freeeeeeeeeee! All is Well!! And you know it.”

Yup, I knew that everything was happening for a reason even in my anger… but I had to let myself feel the anger so that I could move through it. Allowing ourselves to be human is a good thing… but what the garden told me gave me deep relief and the final release of my anger.

Okay, so the garden didn’t mind being cut down and in fact expressed Joy about it. Cool. But I was concerned about the several species of hummingbirds that make my garden home. I watched as they furiously flew through the previously dense garden, even looking on the ground for flowers… I connected with the hummingbird energy and I told them that I was going to keep part of the garden by the beach untouched and some other flowering bushes that they like until the rest had grown back with some flowers. I asked if that was enough, that I wanted to take care of them.

I opened my eyes and one of my favorite hummingbirds, the white tailed hummingbird with the super long tail, flew right up to me and then circled me three times. We were good. I felt relieved and happy and from that moment on released my pain at watching acres of flowers and plants being cut to the ground. I joined in the Joy and even started telling the boys to cut even more than I had planned. I am actually enjoying being able to see the ocean from the back of the property and you can see the beach much better from the cabins. It feels open and airy and good.

***

For the past 14 years we have run off a large 51k generator that could run a small city. Of course this meant hauling in diesel by boat, and the guys carrying it up the hill. About a year ago, my side of the bay got electricity but because I was not here, it never got turned on. Once I knew I was coming back, I got everything all set up, the meter pole, ordered the transformer, etc. When I got here, the electricity was all set up and ready to go, the electricity company just had to come out and turn it on. They drive for two and a half hours into Drake Bay from Puerto Jimenez and then we bring them over across the bay by boat. In all, it is a six hour deal for them… and to come out for just one person… well, I could only use my manifesting powers to get them to come out quick. Surprisingly, they called to say they would come out on the Tuesday after I arrived… but I woke up to pouring rain and knew they wouldn’t be coming. The next day they couldn’t come because of other obligations, and besides, it continued to pour rain.

“But but but… I thought I would set the record for the fastest service by the electric company in Costa Rica history!!” I said to the Universe. “I even posted on my Facebook page that the electricity was coming in record speed? What’s the deal?”

I hear laughter. “Oh dear, Sierra. You KNOW the electricity will come at the exact perfect time, for your highest good. All is in divine order and timing.”

“But, but, but… I am a powerful creator… Why can’t I make the rain stop? I’m great with weather!!! Why can’t I get these guys to come out here? What is the hold up? I thought I would create this very quickly!!!”

Silence. Hmmmm.

***

In the meantime, I had left my boat out in that tail of the hurricane weather thinking they would come any day and not wanting to pull it out of the water. I kept checking in with my intuition… and my cards… I felt it was okay to leave it in the water and I got the “Protection” card that says You, your loved ones and your possessions are safe and protected.” Cool!

I woke up Wednesday morning to find that in the very high and rough seas, my boat had flipped over and was now floating upside down in the water, the engine under water. I pulled a card. I got the Protection card again. WTF Universe??? How was this protection??? Surely my Magical Mermaids and Dolphins cards were broken!!

But then I got a knowing that said that the motor had not been completely fixed right and that if we had taken the boat out to see dolphins, or were coming through the river mouth or somewhere, something worse would have happened.

I called my favorite psychic sister, Tracy, who did a reading for me. She confirmed what I had gotten, that there would have been an electrical fire or some other something that would have been much worse. I asked what was up with me “almost” getting electricity on Tuesday and that I got the message that it was okay to leave my boat in the water when it wasn’t. “Because if you knew the electricity company wasn’t coming, you would have taken your boat out of the water and it wouldn’t have sunk. It happened for the reason of safety that we spoke of, and even more than that, more than you can ever know.” We talked about the grand unfolding of everything. I was feeling better. I shifted quickly.

I KNEW there was a higher reason for this, even if I never got to know what it was.

I made some phone calls and friends came with a shrimp boat and used the pulley to turn the boat over and we towed it into town and to the mechanic. Luckily, the battery had disconnected when the boat tipped and so the computer and electronics were okay, and now my motor was getting a total clean out. Okay, Okay, Universe. I totally trust that this was for the highest good. I really do.

When I got my boat back, it was sounding and running better than ever. Of course, the engine had been totally cleaned out! And I didn’t even have to pay for it because my mechanic owes me money. But that’s another story for another time…

***

Another strange thing that happened was with my pendulum. I have a pendulum that is a pointed Lumerian crystal, the crystal of TRUTH. I like to play with it, asking different questions and brought it with me. But it was doing really weird things here. I would ask a question and it would pause, perfectly still for at least 30 seconds which it never does, it always goes right into the answer… and I could feel the sigh… “Sierra, are you going to ask that same question again???”

I was like “What? Don’t question my questions, you are a pendulum, answer me!!” And it would oblige… but then after my question was answered it would go into a swinging vortex circle that was so strong and so beyond my control that if I had let the chain go, it would have gone flying at least 50 feet. I was like WHOA, should I be digging for treasure under my cabin or what??? It was really wild, really, really powerful. It did that every time.

One night, the chain which was attached to the crystal by a flat piece and super glue was gone. I looked for it but could not find it… and knew I’d find it in the morning. I woke up and saw it on the floor across the room, somewhere I had not walked and had no idea how it got there… but then I got distracted and the next time I looked over, it was not there. I looked around for it again and saw it by the door and would pick it up in a few minutes… and when I looked again it was GONE AGAIN!! I looked all over for it, swept my whole room, looked outside on the deck, on the ground. It is just completely and totally GONE.

Of course, I could glue another string onto it, some how rig it up, but I think it is quite obvious that my pendulum wants a break from me asking the same questions over and over… I think it thinks it’s time I just GET IT!! Hmmmmmm.

***

So the days went by and it either rained or the electricity people were busy. I kinda started to get used to it. I’d send my computer with my neighbor who was working for me to charge at his house… two hours to charge gave me about an hour of use. Or I’d go to my other neighbors and sit there and work for a couple of hours so that I didn’t get too far behind. I was surviving and trusting in the perfect timing of the electricity. I knew that there was something I needed to do, something needed to happen for the electricity to get here.

At night, once the computer battery wore out, I would listen to my Ipod. I have so much stuff on my Ipod that I’ve never even listened to, so it was great to catch up on some of them. I’d fall asleep listening to a meditation. I was so busy during the day in the garden and cleaning up that I really didn’t mind not being able to get online so much… it would have been a distraction anyway.

When I would get impatient, I would just laugh at my human self because my higher self knew all was in diving timing and orchestration. Through it all; the garden, the electricity, the boat flipping, I always had a good grasp on the broader perspective. I have become a master shifter, able to make big shifts in a single bound. I was proud of myself on how I was handling it all. First “Oh shit” then quickly “Oh! Shift!” I was living it.

***

On the following Tuesday, a week after the first time the electric company was supposed to come out and twelve days after I had arrived, I sat at my neighbors and downloaded some mp3’s that my Align & Fly sisters had recorded. I was looking forward to listening to them that night; I was missing connecting with them on a daily basis. I came home and plugged in my Ipod like I have hundreds of times and this time, without warning, my computer erased the entire contents of my Ipod. There would be no listening to the anticipated mp3’s that night.

I started to laugh, like what else could I do, and said “Okay, Universe, Okay property, WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME????”

I KNEW there was a reason for this; I knew the property wanted me to hear a message. I had a vision pop into my head of that scene from the Wizard of Oz when the wicked witch writes SURRENDER DOROTHY in the sky with her broom. SURRENDER SIERRA. But to what? I never have really liked that word “surrender” any way, it felt like “giving up and giving in” to me. But Surrender was the word of the day.

I took my camera and went down to the beach where the guys were cutting hibiscus plants. “Hey look at that snake!” said David. I turned and there was a beautiful green garden snake… a big one too, he was probably three feet at least from head to tip of his tail. He was garden green on his body, but his head was more of a florescent green, with a black strip on each side of his head. I turned on my camera, took two blurry photos (me and my camera are having issues) and the batteries died.

OK OK OK Universe, no Ipod, no camera. I get it, I get it. The snake turned to look directly at me, but not just look at me, he INTENSELY held his gaze. “What’s up, Mr. Snake?” I asked. “Come with me on a journey,” he invited. “Ummm, dude, I have my worker guys right here, there is no way I can go on a shamanic journey with you right now, they already think I’m crazy!”

“I will wait,” he answered and at that, turned back to the side but did not move his body..

It was almost time for my guys to get off work so I just made myself look busy and thought about the book I had just finished reading the night before, The Shamanic Way of the Bee. I have long had a thing going on with bees and now bees tie into my Align and Fly Girlz group in so many ways. Several of us are reading the book and it’s a fascinating story of along the lines of the Carlos Castaneda of bees. I wondered what Mr. Snake had in mind.

The guys left and I went back over to the snake. He immediately turned back to me with that intense stare. “Okay. There is something I want to show you. Plant your feet firmly in the ground and hold my gaze.” I did as I was told. Everything else became very blurry except this tunnel vision between me and the snake. I knew the ocean was there, I knew the trees were there, but I could not see them, it was just this intense connection between me and the snake. As I held his gaze, it felt as if someone was simultaneously gently pushing me from behind and pulling me forward. My feet were planted on the ground, but the rest of my body was being pulled into the snake. I almost fell over and had to put my foot forward to stop myself. I planted my feet again and stared at the snake. He did it again… my body uncontrollably went forward towards him. He was snake charming me!!! He was pulling me into his energy field!!

I felt him also giving me a message but I was not getting it.

“Stop trying, Sierra, and just do it! Just hear me!” We continued to stare at each other and nothing else existed in the world except me and the snake. And he continued to pull me forward. “How can you have the power to move me like that?” I asked.

“You are not in control of everything, Sierra,” he said matter of factly.

“Say what?” I said.

“Some things are beyond your control,” he answered.

“If you say so, Mr. Snake. By the way, what is your name?”

“Sir Vladmir,” he responded.

“Seriously?” I relate the name Vladmir to someone I am not fond of.

“Not THAT Vladmir!!!” Snakes have a very regal and slow way of talking and it was funny to hear him say it like that. “Just remember, there are forces more powerful than you.”

“Okay, I’ll remember that.” At that he turned his head once again to the side and I was dismissed. I thanked him for a most trippy interaction. So we had The Wizard of Oz and Alice and Wonderland themes going on… hmmmm… I am so not in Kansas anymore.

***

I came back to my room and called my sista, Bethie, and told her all that was going on. First my Ipod erased, then I met a snake and my camera died, then he took me on this shamanic crazy journey and the property has this message for me and everyone has a message for me and I am not getting it because I still don’t have electricity!!!! I asked her to connect with the Girlz on Skype and tell them what was going on and to ask what they think the message was.

Bethie also felt that the property wanted to know that I would still take the time to connect even after I had electricity. I thought about it and she was right. I had to let the property know that I would not be lost to cyberspace once the electricity was on. I would still take the time to connect on a daily basis.

I walked through the gardens in a kind of walking meditation. I told the property that I promised that I would still stay connected no matter what. I was sending out powerful waves of love.

I heard, “Sierra, you are very powerful, but we are more powerful. There are forces at work much greater than you. Yes, you are good with the weather, and you can control certain aspects… but sometimes there are reasons that you do not understand, higher reasons, orchestration by divine intelligence why things don’t happen the way you think they should. If your electricity was turned on right away, you would not have connected so deeply and quickly again with property. You would have been preoccupied. We needed you during this time, we needed you completely present to the energy here. It was our re-bonding time.”

“You and your friends are powerful creators, there is no doubt. But you have to surrender to the fact that sometimes things will not go the way you planned… and they will go better if you trust and allow the unfolding without resistance. Everything is always happening for your highest good and you can relax in that and trust it, or you can fight it all the way. Easy or hard, it’s your choice.”

At first I felt a little miffed, like I had been demoted from my status as the powerful creator of my reality. But then I felt the wave of relief and joy. I don’t have to do this alone!! I don’t have to be the be all end all super creator. I get to CO-create with the super intelligent divine energy that creates worlds!! I get to decide what I want and not have to worry about the how and the when and all the details. Source will work it out and I just remember that it’s all happening perfectly. And I like that! I like that A LOT!!

We can say we are God and we are in the sense that we are a physical extension of that non physical energy. But we still have a foot in the physical (and volunteered to do it). We are the agents of Source, we are the leading edge creators who came to bounce around in the physical and expand thought to places it has not gone before, to feel and experience and create, but there is a force and a power higher and so much more intelligent that orchestrates the whole divine orchestration of perfection that is the highest outcome for all concerned. We, in our human state just can’t do that. We can access and tap into that knowledge and live from that place. We can follow the guidance from our higher self and make things easy for ourselves. We can be in the closest State possible and that is in Love and Appreciation… and there will always be a Force greater and stronger than us. And that lets us off the hook!!!

I SURRENDER!!!!

Just when I thought I already knew all that, I had to learn it again, on a deeper level. I’ve come to realize that we really do keep learning the same lessons again and again, that is part of being human… but we keep getting it on new and deeper levels that bring us closer to our Source and Who We Really Are.

I felt the energy shift. I had gotten the lesson. Again. From a new, higher place and perspective. Let Go. Surrender. Allow. Trust. All is Well. Always. All Ways.

I walked up to the kitchen and opened the doors. A Morpho Butterfly was stuck inside. The Morpho Butterfly, to me, is the ultimate symbol of transformation… from a big brown caterpillar to a big, bright blue butterfly. I use it in my logo and on my website. I smiled at this confirmation from the Universe that my lesson had been learned. I LOVE LOVE LOVE how the Universe speaks to me through nature!!!

I freed the Morpho Butterfly and the transformation was complete. As I watched it fly away, I knew that I was not the same. I was MORE. I felt relief, release and intense love and joy.

If the Morpho Butterfly was not enough confirmation that I had gotten the message, not even five minutes later, as I was still walking back from the kitchen, the electric company called. They would be here at 7:30 the next morning!! Imagine that!!!

I called Bethie back and told her the message I had gotten and about the Morpho Butterfly and the electricity coming the next day. She told me all what the Girlz had said… and at the same time I was walking through the garden, they were writing the same messages on Skype that I was receiving from the property. What a blessing to be so deeply connected with my sisters!

For the first time since I had arrived, my neighbor didn’t return my charged computer to me. No Ipod, no computer. Just me and the jungle all night long. They wanted me all to themselves on this last night of no electricity and no internet, a night of deep connection before the big change.

As I fell asleep, I felt the jungle wrap me up in a cocoon, much like the one they showed me they had been in while I was gone.

There is no place like home.

I SURRENDER.

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2010-07-28T14:41:00.000-07:00

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Gulf of Mexico Oil Spill: A Message from the Dolphins and Whales

2010-05-23T22:08:00.000-07:00

For weeks now, I have watched the disaster in the Gulf of Mexico get worse and worse. I kept trying to stay in joy, in my “all is well” belief, seeing things through the eyes of Source. But as I saw my beloved ocean, dolphins, whales, sea turtles, the coast get covered in an ever increasing oil slick, I felt my thoughts turn into a black, oily, suffocating mess. Finally, yesterday, I let it all out. I allowed myself to get REALLY angry. I cried on and off all morning. I felt powerless, I felt the pain and anguish and frustration. I let it flow. I posted to a few friends of mine on Facebook, and through them and a few of my sistas, I began to find better feeling thoughts.

Even through my darkest anger, I was able to see and feel the higher part of me, the part that knows all is well, but I couldn’t quite close the gap between us. By the end of the day, I felt much better and was quickly closing the gap.

This morning I felt a message coming through from the dolphins and whales, so I sat down to listen. I started off by asking them: “I believe I am the creator of my reality… so tell me, how did I create this?”

Sierra, you asked for this when you asked for alternative energy and to clean up the political arena. Did you think that would happen without an event like this? The asking was so big, so strong, from so many, that only a big event like this could answer the asking.

We love you so much, and we will be fine, our species will continue. You cry for our bodies, but you know you can connect with us telepathically anytime. They are just that, bodies, our vessels in the physical. And while we know you and others like to see us in the physical, our non physical connection is even stronger. And our species will survive. We will come back in even greater numbers in the new world.

It will come back, new and better than before, like a forest after a forest fire. When the smoke clears, new life will appear. Yes, things will never be the same. They will be different. It will be a constant reminder of what you never want to go back to.

The power for change lies with the American consumer, the buyers…. Do not forget that the powers that be are dependent on YOU and your buying dollar. You, and your friends, really are the ones with the power. It is an illusion that it is any other way. They just want you to believe that. You must demand alternatives and you can do that with the power and energy of money. This is really a case of putting your money where your mouth is. The people will come together like never before.

Yes, many of us will die, there will be much more than now, this IS going to get worse, but you know that there is no death. We are eternal. We know this is for a higher good. We understand. And many of us are already on the move to other places; the word is out through the Cetacean Communication Network (CCN) our very own CNN. (I hear laughter). We lived here long before the humans and they cannot destroy us. We have safe havens to go to where you will never find us.

We applaud you, Sierra for allowing yourself to get angry. As our friend Joe Noonan said, anger is good to clean out the pipes. Do you see what a clear channel you are now that you have acknowledged your feelings of anger, let them run through, and move past them? This event will cause a lot of anger. And it is very good as it is through the anger that change will come. It is through the anger that new desires are born.

Do not doubt the power of creation. Do not doubt the power of many focusing together for a common goal. Do you see how through your tears and getting really mad you sent out all those rockets of desires for something new? Do you see how through the passion of so many; the anger, the frustration, that a powerful desire for a new world is being asked for in a very powerful way? This is the power of creation at work. Through the catastrophe comes the powerful new desires; the creation of something new. It was time, it is time. This is what you have been waiting for. A new world. The time is now.

You must not focus on dead and dying bodies. This is focusing on the problem and focusing on that will bring more of it. We know this is very hard for we know that you and your friends love us. And we love you. But you MUST focus on what this catastrophe caused you all to desire. You MUST focus on the solutions. You must focus on alternative energy, on transparent politics, a new world order of the best kind. You all have been asking for this for so long, can’t you see? This is what you have been waiting for!

A new world awaits. What do you want to see in your new world? Therein lies the focus.

We love you, we love you all. All is well.

Be Unlimited... Notes from my Higher Self

2010-05-20T14:58:00.000-07:00

I wrote this a couple of years ago, but I just came across it again and felt inspired to share it now:

I have shared with some of you how I have been feeling since 08-08-08. I knew it was a day of openings, of activations, of higher connectedness, a shift in consciousness. But I really had no idea how it would affect me so much. On that day and since then, I have been feeling incredibly high, incredibly connected to ALL THAT IS, a whole new level of BEing. I am loving it. On that day I wrote a rampage about how I was feeling. The next day I began to have some incredible experiences and synchronicities that are beyond what has happened before. Things are flowing. Things are different. I can really feel the shift in energy. I feel so connected! It is amazing.

So, I was excited to get out on the water today. I have some of my best conversations with my Higher Self while on the water. No computers, no animals wanting my attention, just me, the water and my inner being. The conversation beginsL

"I'm heeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre!" I tell them.

We feel you, Sierra, we feel your high vibe, your new stronger connection. And we want to help you take it further.

"Oh Goody, BRING IT ON!!", I say.

With this shift in energies and consciousness that has now happened, everything is moving even faster than before. The synchronicities, psychic experiences, the connections with others will become, and are becoming, a part of every day life. Just HOW IT IS NOW. There are opportunities for growth and expansion like never before. It is now more important than ever to control your thoughts, to only think about what you want. The gates are wide open (they literally show me gates with doors wide open, big crystal gates with black iron doors). It is easier than ever to manifest what you want, to connect to Source, to become WHO YOU REALLY ARE. Without Limitations. You just have to walk through the gates. But in order to do that, you have to leave behind the remaining doubts, fears, self sabatoge, and judgments of others. Now more than ever, it is the time to See Through the Eyes of Source.

Okay, I want to do that. I am already doing that more and more. Especially now, these last few days. How do I go further now?

Each and every day, do something that you wouldn't have done before. IT'S TIME TO STEP COMPLETELY OUT OF THE BOX. UNLIMITED THINKING. We know you are a quantum leaper, but you will not be able to do that with all issues that you have built up lots of limiting beliefs around and most people can't do that at all. With some remaining limits you have placed upon your self, you will have to take step by step, a little bit each day to rewire and reprogram your thinking and beliefs on these subjects.

For instance?

Look in the areas of your life where you have limited yourself. Things that you fear, areas that you hold yourself back. Relationships, finances, you know this, Sierra. Each day, take a step towards unlimited thinking in these areas. Start talking to yourself in a new way on these things. There are NO limits on what you can be, do have. Only you limit you. Start taking things to a new level, you are going to be amazed where you are going. You are already there, you just have to let it in. It's like this: your connection to Source is like tuning in a radio dial to a certain station. When you get too far away, the signal is weaker, but as you move closer to the Source, the signal is strong. (I get an image of being in a car and trying to tune in a certain station, and there is lots of static, but I turn the car around and go towards the Source, and it is strong) Always keep focused on the Source, on what you want. Each day take a step towards the Source. Again, step out of the box. Do things that you once feared, even if it's little by little. Only you are holding yourself back and there's no reason for it anymore. There is no reason to fear, Sierra, we are with you. Talk to someone you might not have talked to, go somewhere, do something you might not have done before from fear or doubt. Do SOMETHING every single day to move towards the Source, to bring the signal in stronger. There is nothing to be afraid of. You can handle all that is coming to you and more. YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL! BE UNLIMITED!

BE UNLIMITED, BE UNLIMITED, BE UNLIMITED! I shout to myself (I would have shouted it out loud, but I did have guests on the boat with me) The third time I say BE UNLIMITED with all the passion that I have, a dolphin jumps out of the water 2 feet from the boat, turns in mid air and looks right at me!!!! OMG, talk about confirmation! I am constantly amazed at the U and the way they send me signs and confirmations and evidence. Totally amazing. I am breathless at the Divine Orchestration of it all.

The guests on the boat are a family from Holland. Mom, dad and two kids, about 13 and 16 years old. The water was pretty wavy today, we had a big storm last night. The kids are starting to get sick. The son throws up. I ask the Mom if they want to turn back. "NO!" she says. I start to judge her. Her kids are sick, obviously miserable, but she doesn't want to go back. I start thinking about what kind of mom she is".. my thoughts are going that way and I hear:

Ah, perfect this is happening now, Sierra, this is the next thing we wanted to talk to you about. Judgment of others. You don't know the story behind this family. Now step back and look through The Eyes of Source.

I close my eyes. I see the mom planning their whole vacation to Costa Rica around this dolphin and whale tour. She LOVES them. She wants more than anything to be with dolphins and whales in the wild. She tells her kids the night before that she really wants to do this tour, and if they think they might get sick, better not to go because she doesn't want to have to come back. They insist on coming anyway. I open my eyes and I see her pure delight at seeing the dolphins. She is screeching with glee. She is glowing, she is so happy. And I had judged her for being happy when her kids were sick. Amazing what happens when we LOOK THROUGH THE EYES OF SOURCE. You should have seen her when we found the mom and baby humpbacks!! I put my attention on her, not the sick kids, and brought myself back to PURE JOY.

See, Sierra, by judging others, by not allowing others to be who they are, by putting your own opinions and beliefs upon others, you are only disconnecting yourself from WHO YOU REALLY ARE. You don't know their story, you don't know what has happened before, where they are coming from, and even if you do, IT DOESN'T MATTER!!!! Your job is to stay connected to WHO YOU REALLY ARE and allow allow allow others to find their own way, their own path. Judging others only takes you further from where you want to go.

They told me to pay attention to my posture, to stand up very straight, to improve the flow of energy going through my body. They told me to imagine that I am reaching for the sky with the top of my head and to keep my shoulders back, opening up my heart center more... it seems very important to allow that energy flow through my body and that keeping my body straight and aligned is essential for more energy flow and expansion. They also talked about how important deep breathing is, they said "deep, even, steady breathing." They told me to pay attention to these two things, and it will also help my body adjust to the new higher vibrations I am feeling

There was a lot more, and I know I am missing some things that we said to me, but I need to process it so that I can explain it how it was meant. It was much more a FEELING, a feeling of BEING UNLIMITED.

I do know that as we came back in from the tour, the amazing rainforest that comes all the way to the beach looked greener. The sky looked bluer. I was once again SEEING THROUGH THE EYES OF SOURCE. APPRECIATING the beauty of it all. The connectedness of it all. THE DIVINE PERFECTION OF IT ALL! WE ARE SO BLESSED TO BE HERE, RIGHT NOW, AT THIS VERY MOMENT, AT THIS TIME OF GREAT EXPANSION AND AWARENESS. IT'S A GREAT TIME TO BE ALIVE INDEED!

And my higher self, in order to finish the conversation with a song, talks to me once more. I come back from the tour, walk into my room, and the song that is on is I Hope You Dance by Lee Ann Womack. If you get the chance to sit it out or dance, I HOPE YOU DANCE!

And I add to that, not only dance, but DANCE LIKE NOBODY IS WATCHING!!!

Make A Wave!

2010-05-15T15:26:00.000-07:00

They say the beat of a butterflies wings,
Can set off a storm the world away
What if they're right and the smallest of things
Can power the strongest hurricane?
What if it all begins inside?
We hold the key that turns the tide

[Chorus:]
Just a pebble in the water (ohh)
Can set the sea in motion (ohh)
A simple act of kindness (ohh)
Can stir the widest ocean
If we show a little love
Heaven knows what we could change (oh yeah)
So throw a pebble in the water (oh yeah)
And make a wave, make a wave
Make a wave, make a wave

The single joys that you take and send
And reach out your hand to someone in need (help somebody)
Don't fool yourself and say you can't
You never know what can grow from just one seed (yeah)

So come with me and seize the day
This world may never be the same

[Chorus:]
Just a pebble in the water,
(Just a pebble in the water)
Can set the sea in motion,
(Can set the sea in motion)
A simple act of kindness (ohh)
Can stir the widest ocean
(Stir the widest ocean)
If we show a little love,
(If we show a little love)
Heaven knows that we could change,
(Heaven knows that we can change)
So throw a pebble in the water,
(So throw a pebble in the water)
Make a wave, make a wave
(Make a wave, make a wave)
Make a wave, make a wave (Yeah, yeah)
(Make a wave, make a wave)
Make a wave, make a wave
(Show a little love and make a wave, seize with me)
Heaven knows what we could change (Oh, oh)

So let's show a little love
You never know we could change
So throw a pebble in the water
Make a wave, make a wave
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh...

Unlimited Possibilities...

2010-04-04T09:01:00.000-07:00

What I've noticed this week is that I am down to my core beliefs and patterns. I've gotten through most all of the smaller ones, the limiting "lite" ones. Now it's down to the very foundation of where I stand, what I believe in and how I behave. All outer walls and excuses and upper limiting has been peeled away and now I am at the core. I am at the beliefs and patterns that have been so a part of who I am for so long that I couldn't even see them until now. It feels strange, to be looking at myself so naked and almost completely stripped away of fluff. And it feels really good too. It feels like you feel after a visit to the stationary store and you have all this new, neat, pretty paper to write on. A clean, flowery, perfumey slate.

Now is the time I can rewrite those core beliefs how I want them to be, written from knowing who I truly am, written from knowing that all is well. I shall acknowledge and appreciate the beliefs that kept me safe as a child, that have gotten me to here... and I shall release them into the river of consciousness past. I create new beliefs and run new patterns that allow me to operate from a space of unlimitedness and pure freedom.

I love the unlimited possibilities and the unlimited me that I see before me.

Sierra's Weight Loss Tips

2010-03-24T18:02:00.000-07:00

If you are reading this, you are probably one of those people who are always struggling with their weight. Believe me, I understand. I have been yo-yoing with my weight my whole life. I understand what it is like to feel fat and unattractive, to not have any energy, and to feel helpless to do anything about it. I have been there. I have lost 170 pounds. Of course everyone wants to know what I did. It was a journey of mind, body and spirit. I believe addressing all aspects is the key to long term weight loss.

I have put together some tips that helped me achieve my long term weight loss. My wish is that you find something here that helps you along on your weight loss journey.

· Find your motivation to change your current eating habits and lifestyle. For each individual person, "the thing", the one thing that finally motivates you to go for it, is different. You have to find your thing; the person, or place, or photo, or health issue that motivates YOU. I recommend taking pictures of yourself so you can no longer avoid knowing what you look like to others. You have to be honest with yourself, even if you are not honest about your weight on your driver's license! Sometimes the photos alone are enough to motivate you. If that doesn't do it, maybe there is some hot guy you like (or some husband you want to keep!), or a trip you want to take, or a cute outfit that you want to look good in. Whatever your motivation is, post it on the fridge and all around your house and keep it in the forefront of your mind at all times. I kept several things in my mind during my weight loss. One was a photo of myself looking like the Goodyear Blimp's younger sister. The other was that my knees were starting to go and I thought about having to use a lift system to get up the stairs to my house. That one really motivated me. The idea is to find something that gets you motivated and gets you started.

· I am a big believer in the power of affirmations and visualization. It is a very powerful message to the universe and to your sub-conscious mind when you write down your hopes and dreams as if you already have them. I used a journal and wrote things like: "I am healthy and thin", "I weigh 130 pounds", "I am a size 5". You get the idea. The trick is to write the sentences AS IF YOU ALREADY ARE AND ALREADY HAVE THE THINGS YOU ARE WRITING ABOUT. Do not write "I will be", or "I wish I was", or "I want". Once you have your affirmation list, LOOK AT IT EVERY DAY, best is in the morning before you start your day (while you are drinking your green tea!) and even better, all throughout the day and before you go to bed. To go with your written affirmations, VISUALIZE AND FEEL YOURSELF as the thin person you are. Sit up!! Hold your body like a thin person, walk like a thin person, talk like a thin person. Visualize yourself in the clothes you want to wear, FEEL IT, BE IT! This is an important part of weight loss, do not skip this step, it really helps! One of the things I did is when I was huffing and puffing up the steps from the beach to my house was that I pictured myself bouncing and even running up those steps. Now it is true! Visualize yourself on vacation with lots of energy and cute clothes, visualize yourself buckling your seat belt without holding in your stomach, visualize yourself zipping up adorable Size 5 jeans with ease. The more you do this, the easier your weight loss will be. Trust me on this.

· It is so important to do things that make you feel good about yourself during this time. Please take off those ugly sweats, cut them up and use them for cleaning the house and buy yourself some new clothes that you feel good in, no matter what size they are. NO FRUMPS!!!! eBay, Torrid.com and Alight.com were a Godsend for me as I was able to buy really cute plus size clothing that made me feel great. Don't go crazy, because your new clothes wont fit you for long! Keep cleaning out your closet as clothes get too big on you. Donate them to your fat friends who will want to know what you are doing or even sell them on eBay. Don't keep around "fat clothes" just in case. You don't want to have that to fall back on. Don't create safety nets for yourself this time. Go for it or Go HOME! Get a manicure, get your hair done, treat yourself like the princess (or prince) that you are! The trick is to keep you feeling good about yourself and not fall back into self pity and overeating. If looking in a mirror frustrates you, don’t look in the mirror until it feels good!

· Raise your hand if you are a member of The Clean Plate Club. Yep, I thought so. I am the same way, there are starving children in Africa, you know. I have learned to ask for smaller portions because it is so hard for me to leave food on my plate. If you are still served too big portions, repeat after me, "It is okay to leave food on my plate. Worms and bugs need food too, it will get eaten by something eventually, it doesn't have to be me." Keep saying it. Stop eating when you are full. It is always good to drink green tea 10 minutes before you eat. You will feel fuller faster and will have that extra motivation and willpower that you need.

· It is very important to identify and release the belief systems that keep you eating food to self sabotage your dreams. If you are overweight, your beliefs are holding you there. It is very possible to change these beliefs with your persistent new thoughts and emotions. Read my ebook, Becoming Thin that teaches my I AM Diet Plan and use my Guided Visualization which helps to eliminate the limiting beliefs which keep you from your dreams.

· Don’t put off your life until you get thin. Start doing the things you have been putting off. Live NOW as you would if you were already thin. Be thin now!

· Find a long term eating plan that works for you and that you can stick to. What is important is that it is a program that you can stay on without feeling deprived and hungry (feeling deprived leads to overeating!) and that will support you after you have reached your goal.

· Sorry, but you cannot get out of the exercise thing. It is essential not only for weight loss, but for your overall health. Start out slow, don't push yourself. Take a walk with a friend or your poor dog who never gets out. Find fun things to do for exercise that you don’t dread. As you lose weight, you will find that your energy level is higher and you will WANT TO EXERCISE. Really! I never thought it could be true, but as I got thinner, I actually wanted to exercise because I had so much energy. It just feels so good for so many reasons. There are also lots of great online workout programs too.

· Stay conscious when you eat. If you are like me, you can go into a kind of food stupor and you don't even think or breath until everything on your plate is gone and then you wonder where it went! Put your fork down between every few bites, eat slowly, chew, chew, chew! I still have to remind myself to do this. It is a hard habit to break, but so important to do for your health and weight loss goals.\\

· Be kind to yourself. Don't beat yourself up if you really want to eat something. If you are going to feel guilty before and after eating, you are not going to enjoy it and it will be even worse, body, mind and soul. Enjoy your meal, enjoy every single bite, slowly. Then just get right back on and continue. You deserve it and you are worth it. Be like thin people and when you overeat, compensate. Get right back to listening to your body. And if you are going to eat something that you consider bad, like a hamburger, be sure to eat it with leafy greens like a salad to help your body digest it.

· Congratulate yourself on the big and small victories and successes. I threw a party when I was able to cross my legs again with ease (but of course I didn't tell anyone what the party really was celebrating!)

· Do not let yourself get to the starving point as that can lead to a major overeating binge. It is always better to eat 6 small meals during the day, or at least have a snack between meals to keep your metabolism up. I usually snack on nuts (don't go overboard, but they are a good source of protein and very filling) or fruits or both.

· One of the best things you can do for your overall health and weight loss is to stop eating processed foods. Fill your diet with whole foods like fruits, vegetables, nuts, seeds and whole grains. Foods that are still in their original, natural form. Highly processed breads, pastas, meats, and other foods that no longer resemble what they once were will slow down your weight loss. Fried foods are out too, they are just horrible for your system. Become a lean, mean, greaseless machine!

· Drink lots of water. This helps with weight loss but will also help to keep your skin hydrated to avoid stretch marks and hanging skin. Use lots of lotion too. Coconut oil is one of the best products for your skin!

· Get yourself some support. Hang with people with like minded goals. Get a Life Coach, preferably ME, who will support you and keep you accountable. Join other groups that will support you in your dreams.

· Look in the mirror everyday and say "Love You" and mean it, no matter where you are with your weight loss goals!

Is the Law of Attraction Yesterday's News?

2010-03-22T09:02:00.000-07:00

Lately I have been hearing a lot of people saying that they are giving up on the Law of Attraction (LOA). They are tired of hearing about it, tired of the thousands of websites, seminars and self improvement programs promising the moon and the stars with the LOA because it just does not seem to work for them.

The truth is, the Law of Attraction is ALWAYS working, it is Universal Law, but if you are not vibrating in the energetic vicinity of what you desire, you are not going to get it. When people are not getting what they want, they think the Law of Attraction does not work. But sorry, folks, there is no getting out of Universal Law. It is working; you are just not allowing it to work in your favor.

Another reason people don’t want to hear about the Law of Attraction is because they don’t want to be responsible for their own lives. They find it easier to blame others for everything that happens to them or blame some cruel God who punishes us for our sins.

I also think the recent turn from focus on the Law of Attraction by many whom have been teaching it for a long time now is that the LOA just IS. It’s like gravity, and we don’t talk about gravity all day long trying to figure out how to use it to our advantage in our lives. We don’t go around trying to “invoke” gravity. We just KNOW it IS and act accordingly. Why keep talking about it and trying to get it to work for us? It already is working for us. People don’t have to know anything about gravity to stay planted on the ground, nor do they need to know of or believe in the Law of Attraction to attract like energy. It’s a given.

Before the term “Law of Attraction” became so popular, I learned it as the “Law of Love” or the “Law of Divine Orchestration”. It is only in recent years that Law of Attraction has become the buzz phrase for this Universal Law.

There is no doubt that like energy and vibration attracts like energy and vibration; that is the proven scientific explanation. But spiritually, the explanation is that Divine Super Intelligence loves us unconditionally and wants to give us what we want. So to make it easy, and not overwhelming like Jim Carey in Bruce Almighty, Source let us be our own self sufficient creators, each of us holding the power that creates worlds within us. Why would we ever think/feel/vibrate anything that we don’t want knowing that we are powerful creators who create our reality with our thoughts/feelings/vibration? Like duh!!! But there is a reason why we hold ourselves back.

For me the focus has more shifted from concentrating on the Law of Attraction to focusing on the beliefs we have acquired during our lifetime, some of them outdated and limiting, and re-wiring those to match what we truly want. Our beliefs filter our perception of life, how we see ourselves and others. Our beliefs are there to protect us and keep us safe; we created them early on when we observed something and made a decision about it. Or maybe we heard someone say something like “You will never amount to anything”, or “Don’t eat that, you will get fat,” or “You have to work hard to make money,” and boom, a belief is born. Our forming brains soaked it up like a sponge and made it true for us. But what we thought we needed to keep us safe as children is no longer valid as adults, especially as we evolve and expand. We need to learn to adjust and amend and re-wire until our beliefs match our desires so that we get what we desire by Divine Universal Law.

It doesn't take rocket science to figure out where you are vibrating on any given subject. Just look at your bank account, your relationships, your career. What you are getting is what you are vibrating. Every time. And if you are not getting what you want, you have beliefs that are keeping you where you are. Bust the limiting beliefs and you are free!

If you are saying positive affirmations, created a vision board, visualize and keep a lucky charm in your pocket but you are still not manifesting your desires, you have subconscious limiting beliefs that say “no you can’t, no you aren’t, it’s not going to happen,” that sabotage your positive actions. All the affirmations in the world are not going to work if your underlying core belief is that you are not worthy of your dreams.

Why do we ever not follow our dreams? Why do we limit ourselves and justify and settle? Sometimes beliefs are so ingrained and so a part of who we are, we don’t even realize they are there and that they are limiting us. But if you not living the life of your dreams, you definitely have limiting beliefs holding you back from being the unlimited being that you truly are. Let’s bust em up now!

There are many ways to bust your limiting beliefs:

It is helpful to first identify your limiting beliefs. One way to identify them is to become a conscious thinker. Become observant to your thoughts. Become present and in the moment to what you are thinking about. Notice and observe your thoughts instead of just letting them run on and on. Stop yourself and think about what you are thinking! The background running thoughts that we think without thinking are the subconscious mind running our core patterns and beliefs.

Our conscious mind says, “I am happy, wealthy and healthy, see I even wrote it one hundred times and cut out pictures about it!” And our subconscious mind says, “Oh, no, you’re not, remember that time they told you that you are stupid and would never amount to anything?” And the subconscious dominate belief wins.

Become a conscious thinker and notice when your mind chatter is saying “I’m not good enough, I can never do that, I’ll never have a lot of money.” When you notice those thoughts, don’t get upset with yourself. Just gently bring your thoughts to positive statements such as, “I am worthy, The Universe is loving and supports me, I am abundant in all ways.” With time and repetition, you will start to believe them.

The key here is focus and repetition. Repetition rewires. You can literally rewire the neurons in your brain to create a new path that connects to new core beliefs. Dr. Joe Dispenza of What the Bleep? fame says it takes seventeen days to rewire the neurons in your brain to create to new core beliefs and habits.

I love to use RAPs (Repetitive Audio Programs) for fast and efficient rewiring. RAPs are selected affirmations repeated over and over while you meditate or sleep. When you are in a theta brain wave state, your subconscious is open to receive new information without resistance, making for fast and easy reprogramming. I put on the mp3 before I go to sleep, and then all night the recorded statements are seeping into my subconscious, rewiring my beliefs while I dream. This is my kind of rewiring!

The only problem with repetitive programs is that some people don’t stick with them. They do it for a few days or a week, declare it doesn’t work and then go looking for the next speaker or seminar or book to give them the answer. The problem is, wherever you go, there your beliefs are.

People will also find that resistance can come up after a short while of using a repetitive program. As we are reprogramming our core beliefs, events or emotions come up that need to be released and it can become a bit uncomfortable, so we stop using them.

Be patient, give yourself a break, you have been running these patterns and beliefs for most of your life and the prize you get for releasing them and replacing them is well worth the effort. After all, it’s your life!

Another very effective method for releasing limiting beliefs and old emotional baggage is the Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT). EFT uses the energy meridian points on your body, the same ones used for acupuncture. You simply tap on these points in order while going through a sequence of statements that relate to your issue. I have seen miraculous results using EFT and have added it to my coaching practice because it is so quick and easy. EFT is becoming more and more popular as people discover its powerful and rapid belief release abilities.

While I have not yet explored it myself, I have heard great things from people I highly respect about using the Sedona Method for releasing limiting beliefs, so I mention it here.

Hypnotherapy is also great for easily getting to your core beliefs and replacing them with new ones. You can visit a qualified hypnotherapist or even find a self hypnosis program that will guide you into a relaxed theta state and then feed you some new beliefs to hang onto.

Do some research and follow your inner guidance and intuition to find which method will work best for you. It might be one or a combination of them. YOU will know what is best for you. Trust your guidance and what calls to you.

All these methods are great for helping you to release limiting beliefs that no longer serve you, however they are in addition to, and do not take the place of, becoming, right NOW, the person you want to be. Step right into who you really are, your true authentic self. Limitless. Free. Joyful. Abundant. Loving. Be happy now, appreciate what you have now, start to live out your dreams now!

How would you feel if you were living your dreams right now? What would you do? How would you walk, talk, be? Stop seeking and start BEING. Be it NOW, and be it consistently, and watch your limiting beliefs fall away fast! Talk about instant vibrational alignment!

Surround yourself with people who support you in your new beliefs. Get a life coach who will guide you into your dreams and be your cheerleader. Join or form a master mind group where you all support and hold each other in the vision of who you really are. Join positive groups that are aligned with your vision. There is big power in numbers. Take constant inspired action steps towards your dreams. Let go of blame, anger, old emotions and baggage that no longer serve you. Follow your heart and intuition. Take time each and every day for your enlightenment and expansion and health. Overcome the limiting beliefs that bind you and set yourself free!

When you align your core beliefs with your desires, there will be no stopping you. Like gravity, you will not have to think about the Law of Attraction working ever again. You will be too busy living your dreams!

The Power of Visualization: Woman Visualizes $112 Million Lottery Win... And Does It!

2010-01-16T12:04:00.000-08:00

Oh, the power of visualization! I cannot stress enough how powerful visualizating your desires, as if you already have them, is. Put yourself in the space of HAVING IT, BEING IT, LIVING IT. Do not waver from that. Feel it through your whole being. Dream Big. Really, really BIG. Let the Universe know that you are open to receiving all that you desire. If you can dream it, if you deeply desire it with passion, you can have it. Know this with all your heart and it shall be. Just ask Cynthia Stafford, a woman about to lose her house who visualized winning $112 million in the lottery and did it! Check this out!

http://edition.cnn.com/video/?/video/showbiz/2010/01/08/anderson.hollywood.lotto.mogul.cnn

Bob Doyle & Sandy Forster on Law of Attraction on Joy Vibe Radio

2010-01-15T14:57:00.000-08:00

We've been having some great guests on my radio show, Joy Vibe Radio!

Bob Doyle talked to us about getting the Law of Attraction to work for you by changing limiting sub conscious beliefs. Listen here: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/joyvibe/2010/01/08/mastering-the-law-of-attraction-with-bob-doyle

Sandy Forster went from welfare to Wildly Wealthy. She gave us great tips for creating abundance and took us on two guided visualizations to raise your prosperity vibe. Listen here: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/joyvibe/2010/01/15/become-wildly-wealthy-with-sandy-forester

The Avatar Effect – Creating Your Own Personal Pandora

2010-01-13T16:09:00.000-08:00

Someone sent me a link to an article on CNN.com about people getting depressed and even suicidal after watching the movie Avatar. The article said in part:

James Cameron's completely immersive spectacle "Avatar" may have been a little too real for some fans who say they have experienced depression and suicidal thoughts after seeing the film because they long to enjoy the beauty of the alien world Pandora.

On the fan forum site "Avatar Forums," a topic thread entitled "Ways to cope with the depression of the dream of Pandora being intangible," has received more than 1,000 posts from people experiencing depression and fans trying to help them cope.

A user named Mike wrote on the fan Web site "Naviblue" that he contemplated suicide after seeing the movie. "Ever since I went to see 'Avatar' I have been depressed. Watching the wonderful world of Pandora and all the Na'vi made me want to be one of them. I can't stop thinking about all the things that happened in the film and all of the tears and shivers I got from it," Mike posted. "I even contemplate suicide thinking that if I do it I will be rebirthed in a world similar to Pandora and everything is the same as in 'Avatar.' "

This made me realize how blessed I am to have a strong and deep connection with nature and how some others are missing that in their lives; to the point that seeing Avatar would make them suicidal.

These places/feelings do exist right here, right now. I've been feeling like I am in some kind of magical Pandora right here in San Diego with some incredible nature and mind expanding experiences with birds, bees, clouds and more. I always feel that amazing connection on my property in Costa Rica. Avatar reminded me of HOME.

The Pandora kind of connection to nature and All That Is exists within everyone, right now. Those people feel depressed after watching Avatar because they are missing the connection to who they really are; the intricate and magical connectedness to Source. It is not about a virtual place called Pandora.

When you are being who you truly are, with a strong connection to Source Energy, you see magical nature all around you, no matter where you are. You attract to you friends that share your connection. While you might not press your tails together like they do in Avatar, holding hands and sharing divine energy is the same thing. I feel it when I hold my beautiful cat, Kira. I feel it when the bees come to me and land on me without fear (on both sides!) I feel it when I bask in the beauty of flowers. I feel it when I hug trees. And I feel it when I connect with like minded, high vibing people. Yep, Pandora exists everywhere!

A great thing about people seeing the possibility of a place like Pandora is that they are shooting off rockets of desire and feeling passionate about living that kind of existence. They are entering into the 3D virtual reality of a magical place and existence, which is one of the things we do when creating our reality. The more people who get into the Pandora state of mind, the closer it will become reality on a mass scale. But your Personal Pandora is only a thought and State of Being away.

I highly recommend connecting with nature, and therefore All That Is, in any way you can. Walk barefoot, hug a tree, really listen to the birds singing, watch for shapes and symbols in the clouds. I realize some people are under several feet of snow right now, but that is no excuse. Truly connect with your pets, feel the Source in them. Put rainforest sounds on your CD player, look for pictures of rainbows with your computer. And most of all, FEEL THE CONNECTION to Source within you. You will never feel lost or ache for some far away land when you are in connection with who you really are.

Predictions for 2010...from Beyond

2010-01-12T21:17:00.000-08:00

I love this video from my friend, Peter Beamish.
All quotes are from the December 2009 edition of "The Sedona Journal".

The track is called, "Amazing" and the band is "One Eskimo".

And this is from the incredible Stewart St. John who channels Source through his music.

You Are the Light

2010-01-12T18:34:00.001-08:00

It's a Magical Universe and a Magical You!

2010-01-05T09:04:00.000-08:00

My new license plate....